Recent content by Moparman84

Update day 5 and 6. Yesterday was a bit hectic and I didn’t get a chance to do an update and I was exhausted after I got home. 34hrs awake will do that. I came home to a bit for a fight with my wife (that was kind of expected after Saturday). It’s difficult to explain that to her that I’m not...

Day 4 update. For my last shift of this hitch I’ve been listening to “No More Mr Nice Guy”. Wow that seriously resonates. I use covert contracts a lot. Almost everything I do when I’m home is for someone else and always for approval. I realized that some of what I do for my wife I tell myself...

Copy I’ll look into it. Thanks for the recommendation.

Really those are things I enjoy doing. I am a complete fool. About the only ones that I get a little flustered doing are the BDSM, and dirty talk. However I’m going to do them either way. I’d be more confident with them if I wasn’t so out of touch with the sexually dominant side of myself and...

Thanks for pointing me towards the information and I will definitely keep this update going with all the insights and lessons I learn.

Self respect, successful, comfortable in my own skin. Basically I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and actually love who I see. I want to be the “man” that I envision. It’s not a construct that is as easy as a few words. I doubt I could explain it in a way that will make sense to...

Day 3 Update. Well first off thanks for all the great information. It is difficult to only focus on myself and do what I know needs to be done to make myself the man I know I can be. Like I said above "I know I am not the person that I see my self as, I am a lot stronger emotionally, physically...

Copy that. Its also a total mindset change on top of speech patterns. I am not looking for a quick fix and I am going to put in the work. I know I am not the person that I see my self as, I am a lot stronger emotionally, physically and mentally. I am starting to use the thought process of "What...

So for the communication part I was coming from a place that was just in that moment and wanting to work on it. I’m definitely going to be practicing making things more of a participation rather than permission. Definitely something I’ve trapped myself in to doing. What’s irritating is I know I...

Yes setting boundary is definitely scary. That was actually going to be something I was going to explore when I go home.

As it sits I already look forward to getting out of bed. Work family and fun are my motivations. What I mean by holding myself back is self doubt and lack of self worth. I have confidence in my job and I have confidence in my knowledge. However my confidence as a man and in personal life is...

I came to the same conclusion with my wife. It’s very disheartening and kinda hard to accept. I told her that I want to work on myself and on our marriage. I also told her we both have to be willing to try and better our marriage otherwise we are both going to be miserable and that will be the...

Well here I am on day #2. I think I messed up. So im on night shift and my wife went out with some friends of ours for cocktails. I sent her a text later in the evening asking how the night was going. She didnt reply to the question at all and I did get the text letting me know she made it...

I trust myself to Feed my self yes, wake up on time yes, put clothing on yes, however I don’t have confidence in my clothing choices. When I’m at work for 2 weeks I look grungy do the the nature working in the oilfield and when I’m home I dress very basic. Fitted tees and fitted jeans. I want...

I struggle with accepting that I am good enough physically. Im struggling to see myself as attractive in any form. I also struggle with worrying and overthinking that Im failing in life and that Im failing my wife. I was actually reading the article you had mentioned on "how to be a Dom" and...