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Thrice log. weird saturday night

I have been in a slump for some time now, going to bed late, waking up late, wasting money on hookers. One of the reasons might be that I'm working with my endo to improve the test-estrogen ratio, and I just started taking an ai recently. Who knows what the ratio is now and if it's the reason behind this depression phase.


Anyway, going back to work with full force, better than before, and the goal is to get something to show for it and stop being all talk. There's no reason why I shouldn't have girls now. The only reason is my fucking mental retardation and I'm sick of it.

I literally receive random compliments from strangers and still don't believe i have the looks even knowing that 99% don't receive compliments from random girls, let alone at 36. I better start fucking believe in myself, stop all the time-wasting insta-dopaminergic activities, and do the work.

I will write my daily goals here and follow them, report here if I fail to work at something as scheduled, and explain the reason. If I'm to mentally retarded to stick to it at least it's here for everybody to see

11/11/24
- workout push day
-30 minutes vocal exercises
- practice taking at least 10 pictures
 
Thrice said:
I have been in a slump for some time now, going to bed late, waking up late, wasting money on hookers. One of the reasons might be that I'm working with my endo to improve the test-estrogen ratio, and I just started taking an ai recently. Who knows what the ratio is now and if it's the reason behind this depression phase.


Anyway, going back to work with full force, better than before, and the goal is to get something to show for it and stop being all talk. There's no reason why I shouldn't have girls now. The only reason is my fucking mental retardation and I'm sick of it.

I literally receive random compliments from strangers and still don't believe i have the looks even knowing that 99% don't receive compliments from random girls, let alone at 36. I better start fucking believe in myself, stop all the time-wasting insta-dopaminergic activities, and do the work.

I will write my daily goals here and follow them, report here if I fail to work at something as scheduled, and explain the reason. If I'm to mentally retarded to stick to it at least it's here for everybody to see

11/11/24
- workout push day
-30 minutes vocal exercises
- practice taking at least 10 pictures
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You got a set routine for your vocal exercises? I'm trying to put together a daily practice routine myself
 
13/11/24

the biggest goal for today is to clean the house, can't keep living in a house like tha. I also want to get a workout in and 30 minutes vocal exercises. Will also take at least 10 pictures of myself
 
Recovering from the slump - good!

Now some energy is returning, let's take it slowly...

Above is great. MASSIVE STEP after weeks of bed bound depression and I am happy for you king.

What is ONE small action you can take on your big sticking point?

Of mental health recovery.

Love you brother,

-Ravi
 
MakingAComeback said:
What is ONE small action you can take on your big sticking point?

Of mental health recovery.
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Thanks Mac!
I'm still learning about inner game and healing so I'm not sure if i understand the method, but in my view one small action is taking pictures and looking at them every day. As silly as it sounds I find that not accepting my appearance is my biggest sticking point. So exposure therapy

13/11/24

-cleaning house - not completed, will finish today
- 30 min vocal exercise - done and it was great, i did my first proper growl with a proper mic and i felt so confident
- taking 10 pictures - didn't do it so i will take 20 pictures today to compensate for yesterday

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14/11/24
- finish cleaning the house
-30 minutes vocal exercise and record at least one song
- tak 20 pictures and look at them, experiment to find the pose and lighting that makes me look my best
 
Thrice said:
Thanks Mac!
I'm still learning about inner game and healing so I'm not sure if i understand the method, but in my view one small action is taking pictures and looking at them every day. As silly as it sounds I find that not accepting my appearance is my biggest sticking point. So exposure therapy

13/11/24

-cleaning house - not completed, will finish today
- 30 min vocal exercise - done and it was great, i did my first proper growl with a proper mic and i felt so confident
- taking 10 pictures - didn't do it so i will take 20 pictures today to compensate for yesterday

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14/11/24
- finish cleaning the house
-30 minutes vocal exercise and record at least one song
- tak 20 pictures and look at them, experiment to find the pose and lighting that makes me look my best
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Hmm alright, I'll speak to Coach D and we can do a men's mental health series for our content next week.

WIll give you all the info you need.

Those insecurities about your image, MIGHT be resolved through exposure, to some degree.

But IMO, they are best handled, via inner work. Specifically:

-Nervous system regulation
-Psychological recovery work: Journalling, rebuilding your connection to your Self

If exposure therapy was enough, don't you think I would have found my core and inner game, after 10,000 approaches, 200 dates, dozens of lays?

For hardcases, and trauma cases, it doesn't work that way.

The way we approached Self Improvement here for the longest, in a cookie cutter way, was not effective for people. Getting laid, just starts the process of full recovery & healing off IF you're a guy who needs to go through a full and comprehensive development journey

Your concept of what it takes, might shift, as you learn more. So, stay open minded.

-MAC
 
MakingAComeback said:
Your concept of what it takes, might shift, as you learn more. So, stay open minded.
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sure I will, I'm liking your CM video series and I'm learning a lot from it too


14/11/24
- finish cleaning the house - incomplete, will finish today
-30 minutes vocal exercise and record at least one song- did the vocal exercises but didn't record the song
- tak 20 pictures and look at them, experiment to find the pose and lighting that makes me look my best- failed
15/11/24
-finish cleaning the house
-30 minutes vocal exercises and record a song
-take 20 pictures and look at them, experiment to find the pose and lighting that makes me look my best
 
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