Touch Grass Log (TGL)

Good things come to those who get outside. Even as a fairly extroverted person I’ve struggled with being confined to my studio apartment for hours, even days. Almost always in a depressive state of asking “What is there to do outside?” “Spend Money?”- Maybe, or spend mental energy fighting isolation and a preceding mental illness. This Log will serve as a tracker for how many consecutive days and for how long I can step out even with nothing planned.

G

It was an eventful weekend of being out. Though the rain kept me in today (3/31). After my Friday night log post detailing a win-lose night game interaction; Saturday I made sure to keep the ball rolling- scheduling a meet/interview with a videographer to start gathering ideas for a side project in content creation (because we don't have enough already). I actually made a pit stop at H&M to look for some edgy clothes as I want to incorporate it into my style. I meet the videographer I’m Interviewing for coffee we have some chemistry and kind of dig each other, interesting, but I prefer to keep this one professional. After more of a fun chat less of a content strategy talk she invites me out to a 30s/40s event unbeknownst to me. It sounded more of a hobby get together. I go and am there practically the whole day, After the event she even takes me to meet her friends. It’s cool to be invited out.

I started this off as a detailed story but am going to long-story short it to get to the point: I went out all Saturday, Saturday Night, Sunday morning. Mostly partying but at least with growing friendships, I wasn’t in the comfort of my apartment (like I am now) and my social skills skyrocketed. Much less lying around. I’ve been inside since Sunday and plan to break the chain of staying indoors. Maybe some daygame if I can finish work early, then a broadway play at night.

Good Results when I’ve gone out More detailed stories to come.

Greg

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I actually plan to make another thread on consistency soon since it’s been a lacking trait for me of all time. My touch grass daily movement has been great however, this week I only stayed inside once and that was due to heavy rain.
I even forced myself after work on Wednesday to do some approaches and did 4 sets = 1 insta date with heavy kissing. Oddly it was a great date but I've been ghosted since.

I will continue to get out daily if not on a 6/1 schedule but as I’ve been solving this problem another one with me has been rearing its ugly head.

Closing. Being Assumptive. Leading.

The lack I’ve displayed in this as of late has been whipping my confidence. The insta date was a step in the right direction but even in that instance she was basically asking me to kiss her instead of me putting my neck on the line, taking a chance, get risky. There is clearly a blocker in my head when it comes to all things going for the close. Almost as if I don’t want to offend, come off as this, get in trouble. “fuck that man who cares” i consciously tell myself but the former works behind the scenes. It is my subconscious and it is the opposite of how I want to live my life.

I’ll share exactly what I’m referring to: last night where at least 2-3 girls I was interacting with basically gave me green lights to lead and do what I want and I froze and didnt know where to go. I found it hilariously fitting that while I was dealing with this at a Latina Rooftop party, my heaven, Duke Basketball was playing and doing the same thing as me at the same time. Flailing at the very end. At the close. One interaction that has made me want to eviscerate my eyes was last night when I approached 2 women dancing to get momentum, they loved me and I kept them emotional- laughing, hot, flirty, feminine then my boys came, one says “yo you’re 90% in there for this” and my closing sequence can best be described as kevin from the office with chilli. My dancing got bad, I was lost on what to do to close us, barely fought the objection of them going right home after. It’s time to tighten up and understand what’s my objective here and how do I get us there. All I can do now is the same thing as Duke and be ready for the next opportunity.

Tell her I’m going to take her home.

That’s my best practice. Moving forward I’m going to tell them I’m taking them home.

Greg