ArgoWW
Member
- Joined
- Sep 24, 2024
- Goal
- Get Laid
- Age
- 38
- Motto
- Everyone has their wisdom
I posted last Sept here overwhelmed by life, climbing out of a 15 year severe bedbound/housebound depression. Being overwhelmed hasn't really changed, but I have made lots of progress. I have made connections with many new people. I've been going to bars for fun(previously never went). I connected with many photographers and have tons of high quality photos that I made dating apps with, and begun learning as much text game as matches allow(my pics aren't exactly optimized for dating and my physique still sucks but I've gotten about... i dunno 25 matches in the month I've been using 4-5 different apps. I have not touched tinder or hinge yet, waiting for a very optimized profile for that).
I have still not gotten laid(my main issue there is I don't have a place, aside from my volume being nonexistant). I did take a girl out recently though, I tried my first real physical escalation. She had a girlfriend though and when I tried to kiss her she told me to "stop hitting on her". But her tone was very... submissive, she wasn't annoyed at all, and it was purely my fault because I didn't escalate correctly and just went too abrupt and didn't properly create sexual tension patiently and slowly. She was very very into me all before that, always complying with everything and I truly felt like... I "led" a girl around for the first time in my life rather than just wandering aimlessly and indecisively with girls who were already very into me. Progress for sure.
I am gorging on theory as usual, that's just what I do, I've read basically every pickup/game book that can be downloaded. I could really use a friend in NYC to go out with who is high in conscientiousness where we'd help balance each other out. I constantly see opportunities I just don't pull the trigger thats my issue, because I just do not feel comfortable and strong and in control due to not having my own place, not having a good job to seamlessly lead another person around. On that note, I did start working last November. Liquor store job, lets me flirt, something I began practicing regularly. It has been very good and fortunate despite the job and location and pay being otherwise shit. The "liquor" environment is excellent for my needs and I hope to find better employment this year that lets me engage with lots of women on as much of a sexual context as possible. Women will wink at me, eye fuck me, even right now as of writing this I'm full of gratitude that this job fell into my lap. I would literally be playing video games all day, very overweight, and feeling like a total piece of shit who no woman would ever have any interest in 3-4 years ago. Now I get very regular attention, almost all of which I fail to capitalize on. I have to appreciate small wins and stop complaining that what I get isn't good enough, all while working to make things even better. That's the attitude.
Besides this update and the request for meeting someone local to collab with, I want to add I've been convinced to switch from 3 days at the gym to 6 again(burned out hard this summer on a 6 day split). I will also try a more aggressive cut for the next few months. I will prob return in a few months to discuss progress, but I just wanted to set the intentions here now and today. Wish I could do more but it's very hard for me mentally. Im in extreme scarcity, extremely needy, extremely horny. The combination of having zero available options, reasonable T levels and extreme psychological setbacks is brutal.
Wishing you all success and determination, thankful for this space.
I have still not gotten laid(my main issue there is I don't have a place, aside from my volume being nonexistant). I did take a girl out recently though, I tried my first real physical escalation. She had a girlfriend though and when I tried to kiss her she told me to "stop hitting on her". But her tone was very... submissive, she wasn't annoyed at all, and it was purely my fault because I didn't escalate correctly and just went too abrupt and didn't properly create sexual tension patiently and slowly. She was very very into me all before that, always complying with everything and I truly felt like... I "led" a girl around for the first time in my life rather than just wandering aimlessly and indecisively with girls who were already very into me. Progress for sure.
I am gorging on theory as usual, that's just what I do, I've read basically every pickup/game book that can be downloaded. I could really use a friend in NYC to go out with who is high in conscientiousness where we'd help balance each other out. I constantly see opportunities I just don't pull the trigger thats my issue, because I just do not feel comfortable and strong and in control due to not having my own place, not having a good job to seamlessly lead another person around. On that note, I did start working last November. Liquor store job, lets me flirt, something I began practicing regularly. It has been very good and fortunate despite the job and location and pay being otherwise shit. The "liquor" environment is excellent for my needs and I hope to find better employment this year that lets me engage with lots of women on as much of a sexual context as possible. Women will wink at me, eye fuck me, even right now as of writing this I'm full of gratitude that this job fell into my lap. I would literally be playing video games all day, very overweight, and feeling like a total piece of shit who no woman would ever have any interest in 3-4 years ago. Now I get very regular attention, almost all of which I fail to capitalize on. I have to appreciate small wins and stop complaining that what I get isn't good enough, all while working to make things even better. That's the attitude.
Besides this update and the request for meeting someone local to collab with, I want to add I've been convinced to switch from 3 days at the gym to 6 again(burned out hard this summer on a 6 day split). I will also try a more aggressive cut for the next few months. I will prob return in a few months to discuss progress, but I just wanted to set the intentions here now and today. Wish I could do more but it's very hard for me mentally. Im in extreme scarcity, extremely needy, extremely horny. The combination of having zero available options, reasonable T levels and extreme psychological setbacks is brutal.
Wishing you all success and determination, thankful for this space.
