NightRoller
Member
- Joined
- Jun 22, 2022
- Goal
- Improve NG Social Skill
- Age
- 23
- Location
- Downtown
Copying from here, my personal blog, by the way. If you want the links included in the blog, check it out there.
https://nightrollergame.wordpress.com/2022/08/16/status-report-self-commitment-college-girls-are-hot-lets-make-some-fing-mistakes/
Was listening to Kill Your Inner Loser’s youtube videos on the drive down to my university, and I feel not only inspired, but motivated—this opportunity, if handled well, could be my best opportunity to truly become a player. I can do it. I feel normal, too normal but socially inept to be the kind of guy who would get laid and be a solid player on campus, but I’ve got the stars aligned to make massive progress in a short period of time and by damn, if I let this opportunity pass I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. If a guy who is more depressed and more ugly and more monetarily in the pits than me can do it, I sure as hell can too.
This is a post about my current status, as well as the many directions that I have space to improve while here. And if I can succeed, I figure any old overly-intellectual under-socialized guy can. I’m reminded of something Andy from KYIL said in an interview (note: have been watching his videos a lot recently); we always look for the excuses about why we’re different, why we can’t do it too. Some of us believe those excuses. Some of us recognize them as lies, and accordingly commit ourselves to improve past our limiting beliefs.
I type too much. I don’t take enough action. I’m a philosophizer. Let’s see what I need to do to change that, because I feel like I’ve been wasting time and haven’t been taking these goals as seriously as I should.
Improvement Areas
Social Circle
I’m not sure how to start establishing myself in my dorm. I’m a senior in a dorm dominated by freshmen, which has a bit of benefit… but I still barge in on conversations and half-ass them, I saw today.
I need to work on not only recognizing that people are uncomfortable, nervous, excited, etc., but to also call it out with a creative misinterpretation–e.g. if a girl seems nervous talking to me one-on-one, I could tease her about being shy around guys she’s attracted to. I am pretty solid at reading the room subconsciously, but I need to make it more conscious so I can practice acting on it.
Additionally, I need to focus on my eye contact and throwing out more innuendos. I’m going to flop a lot, failure is inevitable, so I might as well do it anyway, fail, and learn from it over time.
Another point I need to work on here is making a “plausible deniability” excuse for girls to come and hang out with me in my dorm room. My current thinking is to use chocolate, and gather a chocolate treat collection to invite girls into my room with (a shelf-ful sounds sufficient—I can’t lie about it, even if I wanted to, in case one of my future invitees is someone living in this dorm and word would get out about me being dishonest).
Finally, I plan on being a part of a swing dance group here, and possibly another. I love dancing, and it’s been the deciding point of a few of the few matches I’ve had since last April.
Cold Approach
I need to get more practice hitting on girls in bars. That’s going to have to happen slowly, over time, as I prefer other routes of progress while I have them. Still, I know a good guy who could be a decent wing who I went out with once before.
I also need to practice going out during the day. Today, I will be going out from 5:30 (right after I finish this post) to 6:30 and hitting on as many hot girls as I can. I’ll take a notebook and a journal.
I feel shit-scared typing this and thinking about actually doing it. What will I say? What if they think I’m weird?
It doesn’t fucking matter. “I’m going to fuck it up anyway, so might as well go and do it and have the chance that the girl’s down to meet someone.” It doesn’t matter what I say. She’s hot, I’m working on myself, that’s enough reason for me to approach.
I also need to work on my motivation here. My coach, RedPillDad, gave me an audio of encouragement I still haven’t listened to yet. I need to. And additionally, I should be approaching every. single. day. Like mad. This is crazy, but this is a crazy formative time and like hell do I want to waste it. So I’m going to also get some accountability by posting in the Kill Your Inner Loser forums every morning from now until November, hitting the peak season of hotness and sexual freedom for the girls on campus. I’m going to use some of the ideas described by Mark Queppet n his Metascript Method (a journaling technique) to focus on the positive things I’ll gain from this habit and the negative things I’m running away from that not approaching girls will likely bring.
Shit. I feel totally unprepared for this task. I will be terrible today. But it’s going to be fun. FUN. These girls are so hot, dressed so teasingly, it’s like being at the beach—but better, because here they’re screened to be young and around my age, and my uni being a party school there’s a lot of YHT here, if only I can muster the balls to seize it.
I’ll also keep in contact with my coach RPD, working with him to work on me.
I feel like I’m atrocious at creating any kind of sexual vibe when going out in person, but that will be something I target hard here.
Online/Swipe Dating
I need better pictures here. I have a few taken from my recent trip to Japan, but few good ones, no jaw-dropping ones. I need to edit them up and put them on my profile to get the general edge.
I plan to be buying Tinder Gold once each month then deleting and restarting my account. Some people have the phone numbers and devices to restart and pay once a week, but I’ll be busy with other stuff and don’t have that kind of cash as a “broke college student” who’s hired a coach. Any tips about restarting and avoiding getting banned on Tinder would be much appreciated. I plan on using boosts at least twice a month, perhaps more.
I know Pancakemouse has good articles about online dating. I plan to read some of them.
I ought to read KYIL’s monstrously long tinder guide as well, taking notes on what I need to improve yet. It’s time to stop dinking around and mentally masturbating, let’s get serious here.
I spend too much time swiping, I ought to keep it down to just bathroom times or things like that, not hours binge-swiping in my room, wasting perfectly good hours to be flirt-practicing in real life.
General Improvement
Overall, I have a couple dates already scheduled: one is with a fat chick who’s got the very-American “you have to like me for me” mindset that holds her back from “changing” herself in any way… and she’s dumb on top of that. I want to see her, give her a good time a few times, and explain to her how to find a good guy instead of the unempathetic guys she’s met in the past, because her body’s hot and I pity her. The other is for a week from now with a girl I met on Tinder, but with flaking and all that I have no surety that she’ll come out.
I should play less video games. I’ve been running 1-5 hours a day for 90+% of the past few days, and it’s sucking away my motivation and getting me too immersed in a fictional world that doesn’t help me meet my goals.
I need to prep for Graduate School. I haven’t scheduled the GRE, but I’m a senior and the timer’s ticking.
I need to continue working on my Japanese skills. In addition to dancing, this is a skill of mine that I can DHV when it comes up. It got me a sexy Japanese girlfriend, until we parted ways when I left. It can sure as heck help me to find an American girlfriend too.
I start too many of these paragraphs with “I”, but this is a status update and 5:30’s coming up quick, so keeping it rough.
I need to get lean and get muscle, in that order. Right now I have a significant belly, “skinny fat”, though if I was lean I have enough muscle to have abs to show off. I’m going to read Good Looking Loser’s guide to losing fat as well as KYIL’s guide to getting lean. I’m also going to reread RPD’s gym habits and take some inspiration there. I had been going to the gym 3x per week and eating a ton, using Stronglifts in a semi-committed way, but I can get more serious. Not going to decide yet how often or how much but need to find a better workout schedule to fit in with schoolwork.
More sleep is also important. Because of video games and other stuff, I’ve been doing less than stellar in that regard. Cut out the games, implement good habits, and the weight loss will be less difficult.
Motivation for this is difficult as well. But I’ve got the KYIL forums, my coach RedPill Dad, and my own past self to drive me forward. If I can win, then I know I can help win. I’d rather get to a comfortable level on this now so I can focus on other life goals later.
Finally, I plan to get a job bartending. I have a contact from my home area who has some contacts in my school’s town, and I learned that it’s important to go up to staff in bars to mention that you’re interested in learning/working. I know it’ll help me with social skills, and it may possibly lead to a few workplace lays or contacts from patrons if I learn to play my cards right (instead of being the typical good little working robot that I tend to be).
Other stuff to do:
I want to play Minecraft. I want to read articles and not take action. I want to look at porn. I want to write fetish material that just perpetuates mental fantasy instead of making fantasy into reality. I want to waste my time in my room, not invite anyone in, not go out with anyone, keeping my door shut, being a social recluse as I “gain levels” and “explore” these games and stories that don’t matter.
Besides that, on more productive notes, I need to make my bed, go down my to-do list for unpacking, and prep myself to go approach today.
As you can see, I have a hell of a lot to work on. I’m excited, nervous, and totally overwhelmed.
I feel the cortisol running through my veins right now. It’s so much excitement.
To quote Andy from KYIL one more time, “Let’s fucking go.”
Edit: after typing most of this except the links, got sucked into a binge of Tinder and messaging. Now I’ll plan to go out at 6:30 pm. That’s a few minutes from now. I’m going to fuck it up. With a smile on my face, and talking to the girls I’m most scared to talk to. You know I’m going to fail ONLY while knowing I did my gosh darn best to try. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll succeed.
https://nightrollergame.wordpress.com/2022/08/16/status-report-self-commitment-college-girls-are-hot-lets-make-some-fing-mistakes/
Was listening to Kill Your Inner Loser’s youtube videos on the drive down to my university, and I feel not only inspired, but motivated—this opportunity, if handled well, could be my best opportunity to truly become a player. I can do it. I feel normal, too normal but socially inept to be the kind of guy who would get laid and be a solid player on campus, but I’ve got the stars aligned to make massive progress in a short period of time and by damn, if I let this opportunity pass I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. If a guy who is more depressed and more ugly and more monetarily in the pits than me can do it, I sure as hell can too.
This is a post about my current status, as well as the many directions that I have space to improve while here. And if I can succeed, I figure any old overly-intellectual under-socialized guy can. I’m reminded of something Andy from KYIL said in an interview (note: have been watching his videos a lot recently); we always look for the excuses about why we’re different, why we can’t do it too. Some of us believe those excuses. Some of us recognize them as lies, and accordingly commit ourselves to improve past our limiting beliefs.
I type too much. I don’t take enough action. I’m a philosophizer. Let’s see what I need to do to change that, because I feel like I’ve been wasting time and haven’t been taking these goals as seriously as I should.
Improvement Areas
Social Circle
I’m not sure how to start establishing myself in my dorm. I’m a senior in a dorm dominated by freshmen, which has a bit of benefit… but I still barge in on conversations and half-ass them, I saw today.
I need to work on not only recognizing that people are uncomfortable, nervous, excited, etc., but to also call it out with a creative misinterpretation–e.g. if a girl seems nervous talking to me one-on-one, I could tease her about being shy around guys she’s attracted to. I am pretty solid at reading the room subconsciously, but I need to make it more conscious so I can practice acting on it.
Additionally, I need to focus on my eye contact and throwing out more innuendos. I’m going to flop a lot, failure is inevitable, so I might as well do it anyway, fail, and learn from it over time.
Another point I need to work on here is making a “plausible deniability” excuse for girls to come and hang out with me in my dorm room. My current thinking is to use chocolate, and gather a chocolate treat collection to invite girls into my room with (a shelf-ful sounds sufficient—I can’t lie about it, even if I wanted to, in case one of my future invitees is someone living in this dorm and word would get out about me being dishonest).
Finally, I plan on being a part of a swing dance group here, and possibly another. I love dancing, and it’s been the deciding point of a few of the few matches I’ve had since last April.
Cold Approach
I need to get more practice hitting on girls in bars. That’s going to have to happen slowly, over time, as I prefer other routes of progress while I have them. Still, I know a good guy who could be a decent wing who I went out with once before.
I also need to practice going out during the day. Today, I will be going out from 5:30 (right after I finish this post) to 6:30 and hitting on as many hot girls as I can. I’ll take a notebook and a journal.
I feel shit-scared typing this and thinking about actually doing it. What will I say? What if they think I’m weird?
It doesn’t fucking matter. “I’m going to fuck it up anyway, so might as well go and do it and have the chance that the girl’s down to meet someone.” It doesn’t matter what I say. She’s hot, I’m working on myself, that’s enough reason for me to approach.
I also need to work on my motivation here. My coach, RedPillDad, gave me an audio of encouragement I still haven’t listened to yet. I need to. And additionally, I should be approaching every. single. day. Like mad. This is crazy, but this is a crazy formative time and like hell do I want to waste it. So I’m going to also get some accountability by posting in the Kill Your Inner Loser forums every morning from now until November, hitting the peak season of hotness and sexual freedom for the girls on campus. I’m going to use some of the ideas described by Mark Queppet n his Metascript Method (a journaling technique) to focus on the positive things I’ll gain from this habit and the negative things I’m running away from that not approaching girls will likely bring.
Shit. I feel totally unprepared for this task. I will be terrible today. But it’s going to be fun. FUN. These girls are so hot, dressed so teasingly, it’s like being at the beach—but better, because here they’re screened to be young and around my age, and my uni being a party school there’s a lot of YHT here, if only I can muster the balls to seize it.
I’ll also keep in contact with my coach RPD, working with him to work on me.
I feel like I’m atrocious at creating any kind of sexual vibe when going out in person, but that will be something I target hard here.
Online/Swipe Dating
I need better pictures here. I have a few taken from my recent trip to Japan, but few good ones, no jaw-dropping ones. I need to edit them up and put them on my profile to get the general edge.
I plan to be buying Tinder Gold once each month then deleting and restarting my account. Some people have the phone numbers and devices to restart and pay once a week, but I’ll be busy with other stuff and don’t have that kind of cash as a “broke college student” who’s hired a coach. Any tips about restarting and avoiding getting banned on Tinder would be much appreciated. I plan on using boosts at least twice a month, perhaps more.
I know Pancakemouse has good articles about online dating. I plan to read some of them.
I ought to read KYIL’s monstrously long tinder guide as well, taking notes on what I need to improve yet. It’s time to stop dinking around and mentally masturbating, let’s get serious here.
I spend too much time swiping, I ought to keep it down to just bathroom times or things like that, not hours binge-swiping in my room, wasting perfectly good hours to be flirt-practicing in real life.
General Improvement
Overall, I have a couple dates already scheduled: one is with a fat chick who’s got the very-American “you have to like me for me” mindset that holds her back from “changing” herself in any way… and she’s dumb on top of that. I want to see her, give her a good time a few times, and explain to her how to find a good guy instead of the unempathetic guys she’s met in the past, because her body’s hot and I pity her. The other is for a week from now with a girl I met on Tinder, but with flaking and all that I have no surety that she’ll come out.
I should play less video games. I’ve been running 1-5 hours a day for 90+% of the past few days, and it’s sucking away my motivation and getting me too immersed in a fictional world that doesn’t help me meet my goals.
I need to prep for Graduate School. I haven’t scheduled the GRE, but I’m a senior and the timer’s ticking.
I need to continue working on my Japanese skills. In addition to dancing, this is a skill of mine that I can DHV when it comes up. It got me a sexy Japanese girlfriend, until we parted ways when I left. It can sure as heck help me to find an American girlfriend too.
I start too many of these paragraphs with “I”, but this is a status update and 5:30’s coming up quick, so keeping it rough.
I need to get lean and get muscle, in that order. Right now I have a significant belly, “skinny fat”, though if I was lean I have enough muscle to have abs to show off. I’m going to read Good Looking Loser’s guide to losing fat as well as KYIL’s guide to getting lean. I’m also going to reread RPD’s gym habits and take some inspiration there. I had been going to the gym 3x per week and eating a ton, using Stronglifts in a semi-committed way, but I can get more serious. Not going to decide yet how often or how much but need to find a better workout schedule to fit in with schoolwork.
More sleep is also important. Because of video games and other stuff, I’ve been doing less than stellar in that regard. Cut out the games, implement good habits, and the weight loss will be less difficult.
Motivation for this is difficult as well. But I’ve got the KYIL forums, my coach RedPill Dad, and my own past self to drive me forward. If I can win, then I know I can help win. I’d rather get to a comfortable level on this now so I can focus on other life goals later.
Finally, I plan to get a job bartending. I have a contact from my home area who has some contacts in my school’s town, and I learned that it’s important to go up to staff in bars to mention that you’re interested in learning/working. I know it’ll help me with social skills, and it may possibly lead to a few workplace lays or contacts from patrons if I learn to play my cards right (instead of being the typical good little working robot that I tend to be).
Other stuff to do:
I want to play Minecraft. I want to read articles and not take action. I want to look at porn. I want to write fetish material that just perpetuates mental fantasy instead of making fantasy into reality. I want to waste my time in my room, not invite anyone in, not go out with anyone, keeping my door shut, being a social recluse as I “gain levels” and “explore” these games and stories that don’t matter.
Besides that, on more productive notes, I need to make my bed, go down my to-do list for unpacking, and prep myself to go approach today.
As you can see, I have a hell of a lot to work on. I’m excited, nervous, and totally overwhelmed.
I feel the cortisol running through my veins right now. It’s so much excitement.
To quote Andy from KYIL one more time, “Let’s fucking go.”
Edit: after typing most of this except the links, got sucked into a binge of Tinder and messaging. Now I’ll plan to go out at 6:30 pm. That’s a few minutes from now. I’m going to fuck it up. With a smile on my face, and talking to the girls I’m most scared to talk to. You know I’m going to fail ONLY while knowing I did my gosh darn best to try. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll succeed.