Lonely_Rottweiler
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- Dec 21, 2021
So here's my story, when I was exposed to my first nudie magazine, which led to my crippling porn addiction that I still have to purge out of my system, I have been attracted to older women, I always thought that it was very ambitious of me to like them, being raised on a religious household I was told to "not commit adultery". So I developed a system where I would try to look at their fingers for rings before staring at their boobs, but I'd still feel bad after that (I debated with myself if I liked boobs or milfs but it was definitely milfs).
Last year, I was feeling down and just burnt out, I decided to see a masseuse to unwind and just hopefully feel happy again for maybe only a brief period, Her name is Eliz, she is forty years old, has three children, she is beautiful and is petite but still curvy on the hips and her clothes would fit her body tightly, our conversations were the best I had in years and we both lost track of the time... I remember telling her that if I wanted to lose my virginity I would be comfortable doing it with her, she laughed thinking that I was joking, but told me that we would discuss it the next time we went out.
So that next time, I was feeling suicidal because of my past relationship that ended two years ago... It was pathetic of me to think that my ex and I would still be friends so she decided to warn me that she will take legal action... being a sensitive basterd, I took that personally. I burned the bridges with her and our common friends... I was left with only suicidal thoughts and a hobby knife.
since I didn't have a friend to hang out with at that time to talk about this and to not kill myself at the holidays. I called Eliz to just bawl and vent out... then we talked about the sex... She sees it as a form of massage for the right price (Please don't judge me)... So I went for it. I lost my Virginity to Eliz... (Please don't tell my parents), She gave me a Massage and she told me to strip when we were warmed up I kissed her and tried every position I could think of. It was a bit awkward because I bought those performance condoms that I didn't know at that time had this numbing lube applied on my penis, I made her orgasm twice which felt like an amazing achievement... I still had to remove that numbing lube on my penis before finishing though...
I didn't feel suicidal as before. Eliz and I still chat, and I can't wait to see her again... I feel guilty about having to pay her for sex... Maybe I'll try to have an FWB with someone like her that I don't have to pay and play with their emotions to have sex (Any advice on seducing women that are older than me, guys?), Anyways this was on my chest for a long time.
Stay Safe and drink water bros
Last year, I was feeling down and just burnt out, I decided to see a masseuse to unwind and just hopefully feel happy again for maybe only a brief period, Her name is Eliz, she is forty years old, has three children, she is beautiful and is petite but still curvy on the hips and her clothes would fit her body tightly, our conversations were the best I had in years and we both lost track of the time... I remember telling her that if I wanted to lose my virginity I would be comfortable doing it with her, she laughed thinking that I was joking, but told me that we would discuss it the next time we went out.
So that next time, I was feeling suicidal because of my past relationship that ended two years ago... It was pathetic of me to think that my ex and I would still be friends so she decided to warn me that she will take legal action... being a sensitive basterd, I took that personally. I burned the bridges with her and our common friends... I was left with only suicidal thoughts and a hobby knife.
since I didn't have a friend to hang out with at that time to talk about this and to not kill myself at the holidays. I called Eliz to just bawl and vent out... then we talked about the sex... She sees it as a form of massage for the right price (Please don't judge me)... So I went for it. I lost my Virginity to Eliz... (Please don't tell my parents), She gave me a Massage and she told me to strip when we were warmed up I kissed her and tried every position I could think of. It was a bit awkward because I bought those performance condoms that I didn't know at that time had this numbing lube applied on my penis, I made her orgasm twice which felt like an amazing achievement... I still had to remove that numbing lube on my penis before finishing though...
I didn't feel suicidal as before. Eliz and I still chat, and I can't wait to see her again... I feel guilty about having to pay her for sex... Maybe I'll try to have an FWB with someone like her that I don't have to pay and play with their emotions to have sex (Any advice on seducing women that are older than me, guys?), Anyways this was on my chest for a long time.
Stay Safe and drink water bros