My problems are
- i don't know how to get younger girls because i'm not connected in any social circle
- i work a shitty cleaning job and don't know if i want to change job
- i live in a small 200k town, thats why i don't know if i even have to bother changing job or just move
- i still have low libido from depression and sometimes the sex is not great
All I can say is you've identified your problems, now deal with them in a productive and healthy manner.
Social circle;
I'm in a similar boat and I saw what you said about being friends with a drug dealer. Sounds a bit like the situation I had while in college. He was a funny, intelligent guy, but wasted potential on drugs and just being a liar when he really didn't need to be. But he was connected locally to some rappers and I did get to meet some interesting people by hanging out with him.
So what can both of us do? Advice for me and you. Well logically there must be some cool, connected people that are not drug dealers and don't suck. Maybe we should try to make friends with those sort of people instead. How? Good question. But I'm sure it as something to do to A. Becoming someone that aforementioned cool connected people would be glad to have around and B. going to places where such people might hang out. Gritty sweaty nightclubs? Nah, you wont really find them there.
I have a couple for stories of meeting some cool guys, dare I say chads, that would have potentially led me to getting laid situations with hot girls had I known what I was doing ( don't worry, still don't, but exposure is experience) Its about being in the right kind of place, with a fun friendly vibe.
I sense a lot of anger from your posts. I get it and I won't pretend to be some wise sage that is all zen, I get pretty pissed off too. But anger and resentment for women is not conducive to getting more of them and more importantly to your general happiness. The process sucks and yeah trust me I see all the average and/or self-congratulatory cunts that have cute young girls around them simply by virtue that they grew up in the right family with the right friend groups etc. But the opposite applies too. People have looked at you and wish they had your looks or circumstance. There are a lot of people born in worse circumstance, or with a congenital disease that can't go out and do what you and I do. I'll save the platitude, you get the idea. Try to work on your anger and resentment, girls can sense it.
Anyway initially wanted to reply to address the TRT as someone who's on it, its not terrible but does have implications. It costs money and requires closer monitoring of your bloods regularly. You're on it for life, although there are ways to get. You've to stick a needle in your ass every 5 days (not all that bad but sometimes I forget). Your balls will shrink. Could have implications on fertility and with what kids you have (MPMD did a vid on bodybuilding steroid users having all daughter families for example)
Your levels are low and you most def are legible, and
@Terminator is right. Just make you exhaust your natural potential by improving lifestyle before becoming a permanent pharma subscriber. Quit smoking, exercise, get enough sleep, eat well, and also cultivate mental wellness. Its not a fix all. It helped a lot in my life but the mental hang-ups are still there as they are all my own doing., and proper test levels won't help that. They just got me out of being bed-ridden and wanting to kill myself to just doing stuff that might actually get me the life I want.
Libido has never been an issue for me but porn has, still haven't kicked that habit but yeah if that's an issue for you than make sure you deal with it too. Just make absolutely sure you can't improve through lifestyle before becoming dependent on a pharmaceutical product.
