Gabriel's log

[Sisyphus]

We then have subconscious walls put up, so it is SO hard to socialise, because we are gaurded without us knowing, part of us is pushing all humans away. I also legit believe AA can be unprocessed trauma. I have personally guided some, for whom their AA was not going no matter what. I stopped them doing any approaches, rebuilt their physiology, did inner game work ONLY, and they not only approached, but they got into sets, and got their first pulls. From inner work ONLY. Crazy.

Crazy. This answered some doubts I had. Can really inner game work alone be that effective?

Apparently it can.

I'm not inner game averse but I haven't found a practical methodology that I can trust will work.

I've done inner game over the years, but in less formal/organized ways. Journaling, thinking. Going out to do daygame, and trying to get deep into my mind, trying to put words to these limiting beliefs, trying to find the best frames of mind that make me connect with my social self.

Back when I did the AA program I did it in an "inner game" way. I remember doing EFT and releasing negative memories before going out and doing drills.

I also watched Transformation Mastery by RSD Julien during that time and I remember it being helpful, although there wasn't much of a practical methodology. I know you had bad experiences with those folks but I give them credit for being one of the first to focus on inner game. The problem is that it was too much mental masturbation and you had to pretty much figure out how to solve the puzzle yourself.

Some of the inner game I have done in the past wasn't helpful though. I have a tendency to isolate myself/go into monk mode and in my case it's another form of puting barriers between me and other people. You probably agree with this: inner game is delicate stuff and needs to be handled properly.

I also believe feedback from the outside world is important for emotional regulation, although definitely not in the form of random lays. A stable relationship and group of friends is critical. Whenever I had this I felt much happier and even got more attention from women, with no game, no looks, no social freedom, bad non verbals... this undercurrent of "relational abundance" is everything.