COMMITMENT FOR TOMORROW:
Monday 30th Sept 2024
(1)Business:
-Block 1: Coaching
-Admin: Onboarding Adam D, Shane follow up, John follow up
-Andy Call
-Block 2: Biz Dev
-Block 3: Biz Dev
-Block 4: Content
-Partnership Project: VSL Script
(2) Body:
-Rest Day
-Nutrition
(3) Mindset:
-Inner Game Session: 2hrs w/
@JourneyToOptimal
-Online Lead Gen: 30m
-Reading: Fanatical Prospecting(1hr)
-Journalling & EoD Report
Notes:
YOU DON’T KNOW HOW FAR YOU CAN GO UNTIL YOU PUSH YOURSELF
Most people quit when they hit resistance.
That’s not in our DNA.
We don’t stop when it gets hard.
We thrive in that space.
How many of these people thought I was insane because I kept trying.
Pain? Failure? Frustration?
I will take that ALL DAY LONG
ALL FUCKING DAY LONG
That’s just the admission price for the next level.
NOTHING STOPS US
The childhood trauma, mental health battles, physical breakdowns.
So be it......
The only person who can make this person GREAT, is me. The only one who can stop me, is me.
I’ve been at the bottom. Obese. Housebound. A prisoner in my own mind. People wrote me off as a lost cause many times in my life. I've had it happen to me, again and again.
When I was a housebound agorophobic, it took me 2 years to recover. I lost all my "friends". They didn't want to know me anymore. But I knew I was going to change, and I was going to rebuild my network.
When I was obese, it took me 5 years to lose the weight. Every year, I was determined, but kept failing. Everyone lost faith, my own family told me, I'd never lose it.
And yet, I knew deep down, this was not going to be it for me. I lost 100lbs.
Same thing happened with dating, people told me I was insane to think I could go from being a virgin to getting 10 lays in my first year as a hardcase. I banged 9 and turned 2 down. I have more than tripled my lay count since then and through the long, long grinding to become good in Inner & Outer Game, the same thing that always happens did take place at various times: people losing faith, they stop wanting to be friends, etc. The people who are not good people inside reveal themselves over the course of years.
FUCK 'EM
No matter how much shit life this brutal, brutal life has threw at me, I have always refused to stay down.
My drive is what separates me.
It doesn’t come from talent or luck. I don't have that. My drive is born from pain and hardship. I built it in the trenches, brick by brick, from nothing, because I had nowhere else to go.
That is my why.
Because I am going to build a man so great, he will be legendary in underground self improvement.
Because I have a point to prove in this life......
That the underdog in life, can make it too.
The world is full of excuses.
People blame their circumstances, their upbringing, their lack of opportunities.
I’ll tell you right now, NONE OF THAT MATTERS. If you want it bad enough, if it burns in your soul, you can push through any and all obstacles to find success.
I’ve accepted the harsh realities—the superficiality and hypergamy of women, the endless pursuit, the unfair systems stacked against some of us.
I can accept all that.
But what I’ll never accept in this life is fucking
quitting.
You think you’re broken? Good.
I am too.
Use that as fuel
Because those cracks are where drive grew for me.
No one is a product of their past.
We're a product of how fucking hard we're willing to work for our dreams, to break the cycle, and to re-write our story.
Talent - Not required.
Support - Not required.
Good life circumstances - Not required.
What IS required?
Inhuman, relentless, otherworldly drive to keep getting back up when the world says you can’t.
Just downright refusal to fail.
I’m proof of that.
You’ll see it one day.
And you’ll know a guy who had every reason to give up fucking
made it anyway.
You only have to make it once
It just takes one knockout blow to win the whole fight
It does not matter how strong the opponent in front of you may be
Nothing in this world is able to resist something that is truly f**king relentless.
Let that be you.
NEVER FUCKING QUIT.
– MAC Daddy, The Godfather of Grinding
So, this was interesting....The gal I had scheduled for Friday last week, who asked if we could reschedule for next week, replied at about 1pm Monday responding affirmatively to my text, where I pitched her to either do Mon or Tue.
She replied letting me know Monday works, so I give her a location, and she's down.
I'm excited. It's a good feeling to be genuinely excited before a date. It's a super rare thing for me, but it happens. She is gorgeous, so the prospect of getting laid with her, hits switches in me.
Work is good, focused, and getting some good stuff done.
(1)Business:
-Block 1: Coaching [done]
-Admin: Onboarding Adam D, Shane follow up, John follow up [done]
-Andy Call [done]
-Block 2: Biz Dev [done: 1 reel, 1 lf, 25 cold DMs]
-Block 3: Biz Dev [done: as above]
-Block 4: Content [fail - was going to work on a sales asset, but had to get myself right for the date]
-Partnership Project: VSL Script [fail]
Hit my diet, hit my habits.
Date was scheduled for 8pm. Work was wrapped up about 6pm, there were also lots of little admin things taking place. The 90m blocks were super focused though. Mondays are the crucial days. Weekends, are off in IronWill, so Monday is where me and the group get our momentum back.
When it was date time, had to get on my A-Game. Been feeling really good, and in a great mental space. Me and Carl (JourneyToOptimal) are doing daily Inner Game work, which is doing wonders for us both.
It is helping me solve some of my deeper subconscious issues, and changing my energy, I am walking around very vibey, chill, and in a calm, positive head space, and in this state, I catch women taking longing glances at me and things like that.
It's these times, the words of various friends of mine, ring true in my mind
"Ravi, you're a Chad, you just don't know it yet"
A true brown LEGEND, Vinny, who lives in NYC and has slayed 150+ women.
A few of the guys echoed the same sentiment, and these are experienced guys I consider the best of the best. The NYC Game community, is head and shoulders above anything else in the world, and these men are smart, high quality, and have such a tremendously deep understanding and awareness. It is extremely valuable to be in this circle.
I recall when sat talking about some of my lays in Mexico, to Carl who is now posting on the forums, when I told him about the 22 year old law student and how she couldn't keep her hands off me in the bar and started making out with me so heavily, he made the same off hand remark other guys do
"You're attractive bro you just have inner game issues"
We've been seeing it a lot in our inner game sessions together.
It's a hard game.................
But, it rewards true grit and determination.
The Queen I saw last night, was worth the conqeust.
26. Complex back story. Grew up very internationally, spent a lot of time in Malaysia. Best friend is a brown girl. She likes tall brown guys.
Very, very rarely do I meet a woman who actually like brown guys. My lays happen oftentimes due to a curiosity various women have (I am equal opportunity and my lays are all types of girls), I think my height (6ft5) has saved me to some extent, and also, the power of Game & Social skills can help a
tonne.
Masculinity & core presence. Having heart, being a strong individual. That actually outweighs everything else, and is the most powerful thing we have as men.
A truly powerful core, is built through living this game, and going through the process for years. Until you are strong, stoic and mature.
I am not there yet. But I will get there: strategically, I will need to get my biz to a solid ass level, and then, I can do a year long day game world tour and get myself to a far higher level socially and in Game. That should be enough for me to be the absolute G I need to be, to get what I seek.
Final Thoughts
This experience, was simply amazing. A truly positive life experience, because of such strong mutual attraction, chemistry, and vibe.
The thought of having a girl like this, as a girlfriend, is an extremely powerful one.
S, didn't cut it for me. Which was why it didn't really "hit" and help me overcome some of my internal worries about my long term prospects.
And I suppose, until I finally do get long term retention, and there are women who stay with me, I suppose I will have some degree of fear over finding someone.
It's a deeper connection that I seek. With a girl who I can get genuinely curious about. I want to find someone who I am fascinated by as a human and whom I can learn everything about and enjoy a deeper part of the human condition. S, I will say, was the closest I had to this: we'd have conversations that would last 10-12 hours, and we had a strong connection, but the deal breakers were too much for me and my insecurities at the time.
Seems like it is necessary to have these "close calls", and to keep pushing, to find what it is we seek.
Being able to deeply connect with someone I find so alluring and attractive, exploring them and being able to have a great time together, is too much of a life WIN to not pursue whole fucking heartedly. I know how amazing it will be.
I always talk about my 2nd lay, which was this gorgeous girl back in London, who honestly changed my life. She did ghost, but it was so inspiring and motivating I hustled for years to get the same experience again.
It took THREE FUCKING YEARS
But I had an experience last night, that actually beat lay #2.
Let's dive in, just the high level details here, this is one I am going to replay in my mind for years I suspect..
The Queen:
-26, Swedish & American
-Lived in NYC for 3 years, and got out of a LTR in April
-She actually lives in the same apartment village I'm based in (lol)
-International upbringing, across Asian and Europe, her closest girlfriend is brown, who seems to be a super cool & badass chick, and evidently, these kind of deep bonds with other people, broaden a persons emotional horizons, to where she is clearly absolutely not under the same social conditioning I am coming up against a lot in my journey. Where a gal is genuinely open minded, I make it happen.
-Facially, gorgeous. Body wise, gorgeous. Not a single thing on her I'd change: great, perky boobs, soft, kissable skin, un-believable pussy, lovely peach of an ass. About as good as it gets. She gets a 7.5/10 for me, because she was also vibey and funny, and everything flowed well, a sign of chemistry and interpersonal compatability.
Some of the chicks we're meeting, are confident baddies who know they are hot girls, and have a line of dudes thirsting for them at any given time. It's ridiculous, but she was open about it.
We meet for drinks at 8pm. She's vibey, fun, and is giving me the occasional strong IOI, laughing at my teases and jokes, tossing her hair back, which is one of the strongest IOIs a gal can give you. She was getting turned on. We're sat close to each other, and in typical MAC fashion I start holding her hand, and can tell how much of a Yes she is, and start feeling her legs too. Which she enjoys. She kinda takes my hand, and puts it in her lap, which is where it stays for the date.
She has lots in common with me. We're both in therapy for our Inner Game issues, had traumatic childhoods (her mother was abusive, it was the flip for me), very social people and she also enjoys some of the same music as I do. Interestingly, she seems to have responded to her trauma the same way I did: wanting to be a really good parent in the future, and getting into self-improvement. She's on a reading, journalling, meditation and Inner Game hype like me. As ever, those with the same kind of trauma, attract each other, as if there is a cosmic web pulling us together.
I look forward to healing as fully as I can, so I can be healthy and be in deep relationships. I still seek that rom-com type experience, with an attractive and fun gal.
And as we often conclude in our daily Inner Game sessions:
"You're close, bro....."
We do 2 x rounds of drinks. I've been pitching the pull throughout, holding tension, creating moments of quite blunt sexual tension, so we are fully on the same page. After the 2nd round, she gets up to go to the bathroom, and I've soft pitched a few times now and compliance is there, so we both know, and we're both down. She tells me, alright, you take care of the drinks, and we'll head. I already paid for them when I went to the bathroom a few mins before. She she knows, all is clear.
She gets back, I lead her, pull her in, hug her, we walk. Down the road a little, we pause the convo, I bring her in again, and kiss her just a little. She's got great, full lips. A true hottie. Last few girls had no lips, and didn't kiss with any passion. She was a great kisser, as am I, and I have very full lips.
We get back to Carl's apartment. The scene I see when I enter, wasn't ideal. Carl's tech-bro nerd housemates are all in, and another friend of theirs, and they're playing video games in the lounge. They are so palpably awkward when a pretty girl walks in, I don't even bother introducing them or having any convo other than "Hi gentlemen, good to be with you" and take the gal through.
These guys, are cucked to hell. They are not good with women, and it was remarkably how the energy in the room just shifted when a hot girl was in the place. Madness. Carl did me a solid and hung out with these dudes the whole night, and let me have wild animal sex in his room, even though he found his housemates cringe and awkward as fuck. Legend.
So, back to the pull...
Take her in, put music on. Stand her against the wall, and start making out. She's really passionate, moaning, and super turned on.
Start kissing her neck, which I find to be one of her areas. She's loving it.
She disrobes to her underwear. Throw her on the bed, and foreplay is quite long and exciting.
Stand her back up, and we disrobe each other. She has a good feel of my big cock, and she's excited to her it in her.
Back to the bed, and it's a long, long process. First hour is just foreplay. She is making little statements which are very revealing about hot girl reality, and the situation these gals are in. I'm unphased completely, as you'd expect, and it's these little moments of strength that increase your value in her eyes. We did the work, we get the rewards. Period.
She knows how hot she is. She's dropping little flexes, "I get that a lot", "most guys tell me I'm stunning in real life" (she was off the apps, a rare miracle for moi).
When I'm about to go down on her, she tells me "Just wait until you taste me, it's an award winning pussy, and very addictive" - she was't wrong. It's unfair how good some girls have it. Her pussy was lush. And I was boasting about my oral skills vida text earlier on, so we both knew I'd be down there a while.
Eat her out good. Eat her ass, which was absolutely amazing.
Only 2 girls this whole time were attractive enough for them to bring my animal lusts out. So, good job to her...
It's eventually time to get deep inside her. I wrap up, and she cannot wait to have me in her. She has felt my strength throughout our time together, and knows she is with a masculine man, "I cannot wait for you to fuck the shit out of me"
Pound her hard and in lots of different positions, for about 2 hours. "You've got really good stamina" - she clocks on to the legendary MAC stamina after about an hour. I could literally fuck a girl all day, for probably 10hours if I wanted to. I've gone 3 hours in one go, a few times. Cock stays super hard, and I can really get the job done.
She has some interesting kinks. Which were turning me on a lot. Her core desire to handle her shit and become a person who will be a good mother, manifested in some curious sexual fantasies, of wanting a strong, tall guy to get her pregnant. Throughout our night, we were playing into that a lot, me talking about how I can't wait to get her pregnant, her losing her mind over that, she was super turned on by it. "We have to procreate"
We agreed to see each other more. She doesn't know I'm leaving. I left that detail out due to my wounds with getting ghosted a lot. I don't like it, and want to spend time with someone after sex, and get to know them as a human being.
Funny how many of us are seen as pure players who just lust after women
But there are plenty of us, who have just been looking for a relationship with ONE girl. I have been looking for just ONE girl for 3+ years, and nights like this one tell me, there are women out there who are attractive and desirable, and whom I myself want quite a lot, who may give me a chance..........
Many thanks to her for creating a great experience with me. Lovely woman, and I sincerely hope we spend more time together. Though I respect it may not occur, and will be fine in any event.
I am pleased with my time in NYC. It's hard work, but I slept with 3 new girls, and have made good business progress.
I am also making well-needed Inner Game progress.
This is the perfect high note to start to wind down this chapter of The IronWill Project. This project, will go into Monk Mode soon, and I look forward to the simplicity of being with my parents, being able to spend lots of quality time with my amazing Mum and brother, and totally block the world out for 6-7 months.
I don't state my lay numbers, because I find that to be not aligned with my ethos, but I've slept with over 30 girls now. Was a virgin incel at 30. And literally never believed I could be where I am today.
And I'll only get better from here.
Life is good
And success is around the corner.
The deeper player identity, is shifting, man. It's the little things I say to these girls, which tells me how much I've shifted.
I will find what I seek.
For those who have read this lot long-term, seem me complain about quality here and there, and other assorted whinging as I decompress and focus my mind each day: do you see how this never stops me?
I got the quality I am looking for, due to work ethic & determination. The first quality lay I had was like Feb 2022. During The Pheonix Project.
And it wasn't until Sept 2024, that I got another one of that level.
I WORKED FOR FUCKING YEARS
DID NOT QUIT
THAT is why I succeed
Quitting is literally not even in my world. I NEVER, EVER QUIT. Despite all else, I am still hard enough as a man to willing to fight until the last man, burn the boats, and do whatever the fuck it takes to win, or die trying.
That is what got me through 10,000+ approaches
200+ dates
And why I simply will wear the Universe down until it gives me what I seek out of sheer force of will
Debrief in the morning with Dante.
-Archetype: Dante said, look Ravi, you're closing. See how Feeld works for you due to your BDSM pic? Dante told me, the BDSM pic, breaks my negative archetype, and gives me some halo effect, which is enough to compete. He said, it's not realistic for me to close on Day Game effectively, until I build a real archetype. We're going to do the full body tattooing thing.
-Relationships & Sex Addiction: Dante was clear, if you want a relationship and a wife, you can't develop sex addiction. He is clear, and advised me to find alignment with my life goals, and defocus my mind from Game for a while, rebuild my archetype, and then do another sprint. My goal with Dante right now, is not even getting more women, it's actually Inner Game. The Inner Game work I did, has allowed me to get some good results.
Self belief is the most powerful weapon in the world.
Good times for us boyos.
And we're gonna sign it off soon, go on the attack with biz and body, and come back for one last day game world tour so I can get my day game lays, find my first proper girlfriend, and know in my heart of hearts, I have slayed the dragon within, and become the hardcase legend I started this journey to be.
I didn't start this to be an average self improver.
I wanted my story to be like The Bastard's or Andys.
A man who came back against all odds
Through fucking nasty work ethic and determination to turn his shit around.
This log will be taken to the private section now, as I am beginning to think more in terms of, what will my future girlfriend think, it's time to clean my brand up. Because eventually one of these chicks is going to become Missus MAC and produce some beautiful offspring.
-MAC DADDY