Monday 21st October:
(1) Work
- Work on releasing armors [Done]
- Start migration of an armor [Fail]
- Follow back on entitlement rollout [Done]
(2) Inner work:
- Meditation 30min [Done]
- "What did I do today to be a man?"
(3) Dating:
- Messaging leads for 15-30min [Done]
- Swiping on hinge [Done]
- Date at 7pm [Done]
(4) Health:
- Good diet [Done]
- Good Hydration, Add creatine to the water [Done]
- Wake up early and get light exposure [Fail]
- [Stretch goal] Go to the gym in the morning [Fail]
(5) Other:
- Read more 48 laws of power [Done]
Today started out as a bad day but then turned into a great one.
I woke up with no energy, like after everyday game session. I pushed myself a lot yesterday and got out of my comfort zone and my body made sure to remind me. I was also in a negative headspace.
Work was a chore that I didn't have the energy for. I didn't get much done unfortunately and need to catch up tomorrow. Even doing my hinge swiping and texting was so much work. I had to push myself because all my leads would just die if I let them hang for too long.
All my numbers from day game didn't message back which I kinda expected
Dating:
I had a date at 7pm and I was a zombie at work. I had to come back early to get ready.
I napped for 30 minutes, mediated for 15min, cleaned, got ready and left. I needed to perform and was doing everything I could to make this work.
Spoilers: It went very well actually
My goal for today was to sexualize and give more intent. I sat right next to her, something I was scared to do in the past. she wasn't dressed up at all so I thought it was going to be cuck.
It started very platonic. Slowly but surely I started to open up more and she did the same. Luckily for me, we had a LOT in common. We grew up in similar circumstances, I was very anxious and she was too. She liked anime, video games and I did too. She had an overly anxious mom and I did too. It was crazy how close our life stories were.
As we opened up more, I could tell she was really invested in the conversation but it was still platonic. I was too scared to make it sexual but decided to touch her leg slightly. A few minutes later, I put my hand on her tight and she didn't stop me.
She mentioned she is a big weed smoker so (trying to seed) I told her I had good weed at home and we should go back and smoke. She seemed to object
I had my hand on her tight for the rest of the night and we were having a good conversation. At times I will try to make it sexual:
HER: I tried to learn Italian, French and Spanish. ME: oh so you were in the romantic and sexual ones only.
HER: I started drinking and smoking at 14 ME: I knew you had a wild side
She reacted well but it was never enough for any sexual topics to stick.
Then a the end I tried to pull, and she said she would love to go back with me but she had to have dinner with a roommate which she mentioned a few times during the night. So I believe this was 100% true
She also told me that she was really surprised about me and that she enjoyed our conversation and wanted to see me again. She also texted me intending to meet me again so this might be a close soon.
What I did well:
- I was able to show intent by touching her. Something I was never able to do in the past
- My teasing became bold: ex Don't blush too hard there girl
- I was able to seed and push for a pull without too much effort. Previously I would be scared and would have to push myself.
- The conversation was really deep and meaningful
What I didn't do well:
- I struggled to talk about sexual topics and barely touched the subject: The objection my brain gave me was that I wasn't that type of guy. This is bullshit and I need to figure it out during my inner game
- The date took 2 hours, if I had been more comfortable and played it a bit better, I would have been able to close on the first date. Something I have never done before
- It took me a long time to feel comfortable escalating
- Part of me thinks that I had it very easy this date. She was really into me. I think my inner game is trying to discredit this big win
Health:
I got my DNA test results and I have a LOT to unpack:
- Genes around brain function, and mood were really good. No risk for addiction, no risk for adhd, have genes associated with goal setting and achievement: big win.
I am NOT prone to anxiety genetically. THIS IS HUGE. Helps my inner game a lot to know that
I am easily prone to distractions which is very true. 5min of youtube turn into 10 then 20 then 30. I need to work on removing distractions
I can be moody because my serotonin system is not 100% optimal. recommendations are fiber and supplements
- Diet: I should avoid certain meats and introduce more fibers
- Sleep: sleep wasn't as bad as expected. My sticking point is that I have a suboptimal internal clock, I need to get a lot of light exposure during the day and limit stress/screens/doom scrolling at night.
- My inflammation and detox profile was terrible. I am bad at all types of recovery: disease recovery, gym recovery, stress recovery, and pollution detoxing:
This makes me prone to oxidative stress which could result in mitochondrial dysfunction: really bad stuff
My ideal gym routine is <30% cardio with <60% max Vo2 (I have no endurance recovery) and 70% resistance training but only with low reps at max weight. I can't over-exert myself because my body can't recover easily. I lived it, couldn't leave bed the next day
On the flip side, I have good muscle-building potential and have the genetics to be lean.
The recommendation for detox and recovery is to buy an air filter and stay in clean environments. Avoid chemicals in cleaning products and sugary/junk foods. Also, Alcohol and all types of smoking are really bad for me, especially before bed.
- I am also prone to excess body hair (I can confirm) and bolding (This is surprising to me, I have healthy hair)
There is way more I didn't share, the report is around 100 pages lol.
I will be diving deep and making protocols for my health built around my DNA. With good habits and environment, I will succeed.
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What did I do to be a man today? crushed my goals, seduced a 6.5-7/10 white woman, and almost pulled her to my place
Long post today but another big step towards greatness. I have some more inner game stuff I want to share but I will wait till tomorrow.
