Yo dude im kinda in the same situation!
I highly recommend this guys youtube-channel, he basicly teach you cbt and the tools to get over SA, for free. Has helped me a ton!
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S6k6SOtPGqA
Hi! I, Chaos, commit to working on my goals and taking myself seriously.
Main goal: finnish AA-program
Second goal: start go to gym and build muscle minimum 3day/week