colgate / bulldog
Member
- Joined
- Aug 5, 2021
- Goal
- BANG!! japanese chicks!
- Age
- 27
- Motto
- consistency. acceptance. tumescence.
- Location
- tokyo, japan
August 5 is my KYIL birthday. I'm officially 1 years old 
After my "red shirt" year on this site, I consider this day more important than my irl birthday.
Here's my required introduction post: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=18942#p18942
Here's the first post in my log: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=18958#p18958
Background
I had found KYIL around June-July 2021 from half-assed internet searching for "tinder guide". But what made me stick was all of Andy's cold approach stories, which were basically unfathomable at the time.
I listened to 90% of Andy's 365 podcasts while I was driving around the eastern Tennessee Smoky Mountains and doing house chores. But what ultimately made me join the actual forums was seeing Toast and Manganiello approach racing and Master losing a lot of weight, putting up insane lifts in his workout log, and logging some crazy sex stories. So clearly this was a diamond in the rough community of guys on the internet actually not complaining and making positive changes in their lives, unlike nearly every other space on the Internet. If these guys didn't exist and didn't have public logs, I would have never actually joined the forums.
That's why I made my log public too, to give back to the guys who make their own journeys public. Many guys seem to make their logs private for "security/career/social" reasons. But I'm of the view that if any randos find my log and decide I e.g. shouldn't have a certain job, should get cancelled from another Internet community, should be assassinated, then fuck that and fuck them. I'm putting my own life first. You really have to put everything on the line for this shit. I'll get what I want by any means ultimately. Also I recognize the world isn't centered around me, and nobody cares about me as much as I do, so the scenario that "someone would find my controversial dating log on the Internet and then try to ruin my life" is highly unlikely. I don't have that kind of entitlement, nor do I currently run some large business where my "reputation" is on the line (which would be a more valid reason to make a dating log private).
The name "colgate" was an impulse-decision "I need to make an account but I need to make a name!!!!!! FUCK!!!!" username. I had received this label in an old Discord chat as some strange inside joke. I view it as a "placeholder" name for "myself", as in I realized early on the person I need to become to achieve my goals will be completely unrecognizable in the future. Of course I wouldn't choose this name now, but that's the point. I don't hold on to my "identity", especially if it's not getting me what I want.
I wrote more details about finding this site in this post: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=28204#p28204
Changes as a result of KYIL
The past 365 days have veritably been the largest delta of change I've experienced in my whole life so far. And I hope I can say the same for year 2.
My initial experience with girls was 1 "handholding" "gf" in high school and making out with 1 girl in India once. Then I went clubbing with some friends and madeout with the 2nd girl in my life there. But otherwise a virgin.
So I want to use this post to highlight the changes and accomplishments I've made in my life as a result of finding this community:
- gained the ability to approach girls with the intent of dating them (albeit still very haphazardly)
- ejected from my comfortable large mountain house to live in multiple cities, for the sake of dating. paid double rent for a while.
- made out with a girl in a classroom, and then got banned from a university campus for approaching too many of the girls
- became irl friends with lacroix who hit me up after I got booted off the campus, and then proceeded to join me in Austin when I moved there, and is still one of my roommates. we learn a lot from each other as he seems to be good at everything i suck at, and i seem to do well in areas he needs to improve in
- found many mentors (pancakemouse, Rags2Bitches), including one who is now my roommate (Troy)
- went from 0 to ~20 lifetime dates
- finding another group of guys outside of KYIL who go on "gamecations" and do nightgame in random US cities
- did over 2000 daytime approaches over 6 different cities (chattanooga, nashville, austin, phoenix, san jose, chicago) without even getting laid. tons of failed dates and pulls and great stories. i consider this an accomplishment because you can't be successful in business without having failed businesses too
- started taking roids and taking the goal of having an elite body seriously: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=32059#p32059
- having my own network and community of 15-20 guys over many group chats who are motivated and take their lives seriously with dating, all from KYIL
- got over my bullshit preconceived notions, "morals", insecurities, and general anxiety regarding using online dating apps (yes, I actually found using apps to be harder than daytime cold approach)
- dropped $10k on SMILE eye surgery to permanently never need glasses or contacts again, making my life 20% better all the time
- somehow finally losing my damn v-card, in the most magical possible way, and then also somehow getting my first 3 lays that same week
- spending around ~$40k specifically for dating-related reasons
random shoutouts to these guys also:
goldfish: one of the first guys i hit up from the forums. a year ago he was trying to approach 300 girls total as a total virgin and that motivated me to start hustling with daytime cold approach too.
september: my KYIL twin, in that not only did we both join and start around the same time, we also have like ~70% of the same background and personality type. most slept on log in the forums imo (u need to post more lmao): https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=19280#p19280
MakingAComeback: the man who doesn't need a description lmao, but specifically for making the closed group chat i currently default to which has resulted in the most comprehensive dating resource i have now outside of Troy, pushing me to adopt the "bulldog" identity, and giving me a goal that's forcing me to go into overdrive for year 2
Mimbe393939: for being hyper-motivated by seeing my log and spamming me in DMs about all the action he's taking, which also effectively got me out of my May slump
if i didnt tag u, that means u suck
just kidding LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here's to another year of gainz!!!!!!
and just remember
every time you get laid
you have to walk back and say...
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M A VIRGIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TIME TO HUSTLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After my "red shirt" year on this site, I consider this day more important than my irl birthday.
Here's my required introduction post: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=18942#p18942
Here's the first post in my log: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=18958#p18958
Background
I had found KYIL around June-July 2021 from half-assed internet searching for "tinder guide". But what made me stick was all of Andy's cold approach stories, which were basically unfathomable at the time.
I listened to 90% of Andy's 365 podcasts while I was driving around the eastern Tennessee Smoky Mountains and doing house chores. But what ultimately made me join the actual forums was seeing Toast and Manganiello approach racing and Master losing a lot of weight, putting up insane lifts in his workout log, and logging some crazy sex stories. So clearly this was a diamond in the rough community of guys on the internet actually not complaining and making positive changes in their lives, unlike nearly every other space on the Internet. If these guys didn't exist and didn't have public logs, I would have never actually joined the forums.
That's why I made my log public too, to give back to the guys who make their own journeys public. Many guys seem to make their logs private for "security/career/social" reasons. But I'm of the view that if any randos find my log and decide I e.g. shouldn't have a certain job, should get cancelled from another Internet community, should be assassinated, then fuck that and fuck them. I'm putting my own life first. You really have to put everything on the line for this shit. I'll get what I want by any means ultimately. Also I recognize the world isn't centered around me, and nobody cares about me as much as I do, so the scenario that "someone would find my controversial dating log on the Internet and then try to ruin my life" is highly unlikely. I don't have that kind of entitlement, nor do I currently run some large business where my "reputation" is on the line (which would be a more valid reason to make a dating log private).
The name "colgate" was an impulse-decision "I need to make an account but I need to make a name!!!!!! FUCK!!!!" username. I had received this label in an old Discord chat as some strange inside joke. I view it as a "placeholder" name for "myself", as in I realized early on the person I need to become to achieve my goals will be completely unrecognizable in the future. Of course I wouldn't choose this name now, but that's the point. I don't hold on to my "identity", especially if it's not getting me what I want.
I wrote more details about finding this site in this post: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=28204#p28204
Changes as a result of KYIL
The past 365 days have veritably been the largest delta of change I've experienced in my whole life so far. And I hope I can say the same for year 2.
My initial experience with girls was 1 "handholding" "gf" in high school and making out with 1 girl in India once. Then I went clubbing with some friends and madeout with the 2nd girl in my life there. But otherwise a virgin.
So I want to use this post to highlight the changes and accomplishments I've made in my life as a result of finding this community:
- gained the ability to approach girls with the intent of dating them (albeit still very haphazardly)
- ejected from my comfortable large mountain house to live in multiple cities, for the sake of dating. paid double rent for a while.
- made out with a girl in a classroom, and then got banned from a university campus for approaching too many of the girls
- became irl friends with lacroix who hit me up after I got booted off the campus, and then proceeded to join me in Austin when I moved there, and is still one of my roommates. we learn a lot from each other as he seems to be good at everything i suck at, and i seem to do well in areas he needs to improve in
- found many mentors (pancakemouse, Rags2Bitches), including one who is now my roommate (Troy)
- went from 0 to ~20 lifetime dates
- finding another group of guys outside of KYIL who go on "gamecations" and do nightgame in random US cities
- did over 2000 daytime approaches over 6 different cities (chattanooga, nashville, austin, phoenix, san jose, chicago) without even getting laid. tons of failed dates and pulls and great stories. i consider this an accomplishment because you can't be successful in business without having failed businesses too
- started taking roids and taking the goal of having an elite body seriously: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=32059#p32059
- having my own network and community of 15-20 guys over many group chats who are motivated and take their lives seriously with dating, all from KYIL
- got over my bullshit preconceived notions, "morals", insecurities, and general anxiety regarding using online dating apps (yes, I actually found using apps to be harder than daytime cold approach)
- dropped $10k on SMILE eye surgery to permanently never need glasses or contacts again, making my life 20% better all the time
- somehow finally losing my damn v-card, in the most magical possible way, and then also somehow getting my first 3 lays that same week
- spending around ~$40k specifically for dating-related reasons
random shoutouts to these guys also:
goldfish: one of the first guys i hit up from the forums. a year ago he was trying to approach 300 girls total as a total virgin and that motivated me to start hustling with daytime cold approach too.
september: my KYIL twin, in that not only did we both join and start around the same time, we also have like ~70% of the same background and personality type. most slept on log in the forums imo (u need to post more lmao): https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=19280#p19280
MakingAComeback: the man who doesn't need a description lmao, but specifically for making the closed group chat i currently default to which has resulted in the most comprehensive dating resource i have now outside of Troy, pushing me to adopt the "bulldog" identity, and giving me a goal that's forcing me to go into overdrive for year 2
Mimbe393939: for being hyper-motivated by seeing my log and spamming me in DMs about all the action he's taking, which also effectively got me out of my May slump
if i didnt tag u, that means u suck
just kidding LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!here's to another year of gainz!!!!!!
and just remember
every time you get laid
you have to walk back and say...
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M A VIRGIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TIME TO HUSTLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
