Ashsrt
Member
- Joined
- May 7, 2021
Hey guys, its been a long time since I posted. Life's been pretty good, I hit my goal weight, met plenty of women and racked up more lays then my goal (1/month). Then for some reason, I just stopped talking to every girl that was in my rotation. that was about a month ago. I told myself it was tinder burnout, and that id take some time off and eventually get back on it.
Then last week, I spent the weekend with a very close friend and his sister for her birthday. this was the most one on one I've ever had with her, and shit, I think I actually like her. She was always beautiful, but she has a great personality, she's funny, and she's mature. Looking back at the last few year, my love life was literally nonexistent, then I found the community and got out there, met plenty of girls and had tons of fun, but it hit me - I didn't ever legitimately have feelings for them. I thought I was immune to that shit, but here we are and I cant stop thinking about this girl. I've never had these emotions as an adult, and I kind of hate it, I thought I had more control over myself.
And here we are now, I'm realizing that I haven't actually been happy running through tinder girls. What the fuck is wrong with me? I tried getting back on Hinge first, and couldn't bring myself to actually swipe. I just didn't care about having sex with anyone.
So now I have a few paths. I can talk to my friend and sister about my feelings (honestly I thought I was over rejection too, but the thought of getting rejected here actually hurts)
I can continue having emotionless sex on tinder.
I could do nothing and wonder what could have been
Either way I'm still going to continue self improvement, I know I'm not good enough yet, but ill be damn sure to keep trying.
any opinions or thoughts are welcome, I haven't felt this way before and I'm struggling to navigate through it.
am I fucked up in the head for not having feelings for anyone up until now?
Then last week, I spent the weekend with a very close friend and his sister for her birthday. this was the most one on one I've ever had with her, and shit, I think I actually like her. She was always beautiful, but she has a great personality, she's funny, and she's mature. Looking back at the last few year, my love life was literally nonexistent, then I found the community and got out there, met plenty of girls and had tons of fun, but it hit me - I didn't ever legitimately have feelings for them. I thought I was immune to that shit, but here we are and I cant stop thinking about this girl. I've never had these emotions as an adult, and I kind of hate it, I thought I had more control over myself.
And here we are now, I'm realizing that I haven't actually been happy running through tinder girls. What the fuck is wrong with me? I tried getting back on Hinge first, and couldn't bring myself to actually swipe. I just didn't care about having sex with anyone.
So now I have a few paths. I can talk to my friend and sister about my feelings (honestly I thought I was over rejection too, but the thought of getting rejected here actually hurts)
I can continue having emotionless sex on tinder.
I could do nothing and wonder what could have been
Either way I'm still going to continue self improvement, I know I'm not good enough yet, but ill be damn sure to keep trying.
any opinions or thoughts are welcome, I haven't felt this way before and I'm struggling to navigate through it.
am I fucked up in the head for not having feelings for anyone up until now?