Ravi, Year 3: Self-Improvement Log - Data-Driven, Incremental Growth [DISCIPLINE]

[Ravi]

Let me catch up on the replies here before you drop any others.

Today, was good.

The gal I'm dating, asked me if I used the apps a while ago. I told her the truth, I have them but don't use them. That was accurate. We matched, for fun. And then I told her I won't bother using the apps. I didn't.

We talked about her trip a week before she left. She told me, she will not be dating, isn't going to go away and bang a bunch of dudes in Tulum, and honesty just wants to relax.

She left for her trip a few days ago, and out of interest, I checked her profile on the apps.

She immediately changed her location. Like, right away. As soon as she arrived at the airport in fact. Which was still 2hrs away from Tulum. And the next day, when she got to Tulum, she changed her location again.

Meaning she did not do what she said, which was to not try to date new people.

I felt some heavy emotions. And some pain. I sat with it. I felt it. And it began to ebb away. I felt lighter after that,

She still texts daily, as normal. And I reply, as normal.

This woman, I am not going to let become my girlfriend. We're just dating, and though we're clearly compatible in many ways, she is quite a low integrity person. She said she was teetotal, and yet drinks on a whim. Said she isn't doing any drugs, and will smoke weed on a whim. I have been teetotal for 5 months now....

I'm not mad at her. She is a good person and quite a god woman to date. She is good to me, and treats me right. Her worldview is just different from mine. She has only done open relationships, her sense of boundaries and how to act, is different from what I want.

Internally, I've already moved on. I'll keep speaking to her as normal, she has left a bunch of stuff at my place, so it's not like she doesn't trust me and doesn't want to be with me.

She did admit that she thinks dating me has long term potential, but there are too many deal breakers for me, and this one was the final straw to be honest.

If she still has any interest at the end of her trip, and comes back and is normal, I'll just have a frank convo with her about expectations. I am open to seeing her casually, but when she is off to her next location, she will need to continue her journey solo.

No hard feelings. But things like this, just aren't cool with me personally. If you said you're not going to do something, you should not do that.

I'll find ways to bang another chick when she is away, because she seems pretty f**king eager to play the field by the looks of it. And I'll continue my growth and development undeterred,

The game is the game. It's no matter.

We just keep growing and getting better.

I like the gal a lot, and hope she has a wonderful trip. I can say, I did have feelings of love towards her, and despite a lot of red flags, was open to giving it a shot. She has a different world view to me, and that's OK. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

My BBC (big brown cock) will just find another woman who wants to be with me and does not want to explore other men.

Because I do deserve love and to have a great relationship.

MAC OUT

 

[pancakemouse]

Finding this out early is a positive. You already sounded too invested in her. Not as bad as the Louise situation, but trending in that direction. Let it fade and focus on healing yourself.

I do not agree with the decision to "find ways to bang another chick when she is away".

You specifically committed to forgoing "dating" while you are in Mexico. Do not renege on that commitment.

Until you make inner game progress, you will continue to loop over and over getting into unhealthy relationships and having incorrect views of reality surrounding women.

 

[Ravi]

Yeah, she was honestly really awesome, but these things don't work for me. All good. Will chat to her when she returns, she can take her stuff, and I'll keep healing.

I will not bang another chick. I gotta admit, I really like the look of the Mexican women. They're just smoking hot. I can't speak their language, but there are times it's really hard not to approach them. I approached one this morning and just asked her to take my pic, she kinda understood what I was saying, I just had to interact with her before my BBC ripped through my shorts.

I am very weak for brown skin, long dark curly hair, and dark eyes. There are some specimens here that are really making it hard for me to not approach.

Good news is, I am listening, am coachable, and I am doing my best. So I will not take any further dating action for now. I will work on the agreed action plan. And when I have gotten my inner world better, I will just keep rolling. I am determined to have some absolutely stunning chicks like this going for me in the future. It will come.

The gal looked like this one, who gave me her number, responded to my texts, and was down for a date, but she was fuckin hard work and I think honestly at that time I was too weak she would have MOGGED my ass

I got a little better since then, I stopped writing about my lays and stuff here but I banged a few chicks legit without trying lol. Lower quality. So yeah pausing all that for now, as is the plan.

No more hoe business. Will split with Sue when she is back.

More inner work.

More gym.

More biz hustle & making money.

More saving for tattoos, surgeries, and getting to the next level.

Now I have seen lots of Latinas and seen how hot they are, I can't let them elude me JUST because my SMV is a in the shitter. I will heal my shit, get into better shape, and I will learn what I gotta do to have the abundance I need to get.

Now lets not mention this....if possible.....lul...my brain is too obsessed.

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Lets create space to keep doing the inner work then. Will not comment on dating stuff. I may spew some stream of consciousness shit in the log. That's how it goes you know what I mean. I will keep working like a dog as per.

Todays plan.

LETS WORK



LETS DO SOME WORK YOU F**KING USELESS LOW SMV BROWNS

MAC DADDY OUT

 

[Ravi]

43/90

KEEP WORKING

-MAC DADDY

 

[Ravi]

Didn't text S yesterday. Kind of forgot about her. Will text her today. Noticed I feel different about her now. I think I let go of her.

I did like her quite a bit. I think she's a beautiful person. I like the way she treats others, how kind and positive she is. She's also really smart and has depth. As outlined above, too many dealbreakers. I'm cool with that. Don't bother me now.

This isn't the time or place to have my first girlfriend I don't think. Got a lot of healing to go through.

And I have to continue my journey. Think I'll go heavy back into the player life after I've healed more in Mexico. I still speak to Dante every day or so, because frankly, I find him quite hilarious and enjoy just trolling him and shit like that. Angry brown bastard. I said I would do 90 days of training under him, so it just get's done. Will pick that one up after Mexico. Think it'll be my next location.

I definitely am feeling a bit better. Less triggered, less hurt. Bit more grounded. I am noticing shit like that.

SMV wise. The bulk, is seeing me get stronger. I think coach Adam wants to see me get to 225lbs in bodyweight, before I cut. He is doing good work with me, and has proven to be an incredibly supportive ally and mentor.

I remember when @Manly Cockfellow told me, when I get to 240lbs, lean, I'll start to really fill out my 6ft5 frame and there will be brighter days ahead for my life.

I am sincerely a big believer in SMV. I have seen how guys like my brother, just have a incredibly good deal, off looks alone. I do actually believe a guy can make himself attractive, with body, tatts, style, and a few procedures. If you have enough masculinity, vibe and social skills, you can get what you seek provided you play the numbers hard enough - hammer volume, for months at a time....

It's all strategy. You need solid location independent income. So you need to build a quality biz and is getting real outcomes and has legs. This is coming together for me.

You can then invest more into yourself, location hop, and work hard and smart enough to be able to go ham and make the quantum leaps necessary IMO.

Right now it's just patience and showing up.

Bulking can be a bit of a mind fuck. You see your face just look so much worse, you get fatter, etc. But I am seeing real muscular development. And I will cut soon. Revealing a way improved body.

Mindset that gets me through the long nature of the journey, is just knowing I am prepared to do whatever the fuck it takes to get the life I want.

And I mean, whatever the fuck it takes. No limits. Death before dishonour.

The hard work in the gym, will pay off. The hard work in biz, will pay off. The ongoing commitment and dedication to learn how to be better as a human being, in time, will start to pay off for me.

Been grinding this shit for 3 years.

Am not exactly the type of dude who quits............

I am writing this journal entry, to reassure myself today, because now I've bulked up to 215lbs from the weight of 190lbs which was where I started, I have pangs of fear when I see myself and how I look at this moment.

I know, on the other side of this SMV Raising & Healing chapter, things WILL improve.

Will do my check-in. Mostly podcasts, group call for IronWill, and strategy calls today

-MAC

 

[Thrice]

tatts, style, and a few procedures

the girls i fucked from tinder thought i sell drugs and when i go to clubs i see all this drug dealers with smoking hot girls age 18/23yo and none of those guys is really facially attractive
So yeah tattoos can make a huge difference, you can actually get one now even if you're not ripped yet to see how girls react to an edgier version of you
social circle is important too, after trying tinder and cold approach i think trying social circle game can be a good thing, most man never fuck a woman from cold approach or online anyway

 

[Ravi]

the girls i fucked from tinder thought i sell drugs and when i go to clubs i see all this drug dealers with smoking hot girls age 18/23yo and none of those guys is really facially attractive
So yeah tattoos can make a huge difference, you can actually get one now even if you're not ripped yet to see how girls react to an edgier version of you
social circle is important too, after trying tinder and cold approach i think trying social circle game can be a good thing, most man never fuck a woman from cold approach or online anyway

Good idea brah

More edge more masculinity

I think the additional muscle + tats will help my brown ass

Hope you are well. I will respond to your message on text.

MAC

 

[Ravi]

Today, just healing work & biz.

Watching, reading, studying, and learning more about how to let go, heal, and process.

Business is doing better.

Heart & mind is doing better.

Going to invest in more personal development and take my mindset and healing further,

A lot of the guys in IronWill right now, want the subject of the monthly call based around these ideas. A lot of the learnings I've gathered over this journey have put me here, and a lot of the tools I use, which have been helpful, we're using to reach out next level.

I think some positive breakthroughs in happiness & mindset are around the corner for me.

Definitely was the right move to come here to Mexico, and put my high performance lifestyle focus on healing, mindset, and ongoing service. Good things are coming. I can feel it.

This will be nailed daily as a sincere experiment. Let's see what happens..............

Feel like my intent has shifted internally.

-MAC

 

[Ravi]

45/90

 

[Ravi]

My Mum called me today when I was coaching my guys on the beach.

I mentioned about Suze telling me she doesn't want to date any new guys, and then going to Tulum and changing her hinge location the second shje got out the airport lul.

She said girls don't do that for guys who are a serious prospect in their mind. She told me, just be cool with her, be friends with her if ya want, and then go to a new location and get a better gal. LMAO.

Mum is based AF.

She told me she is practising manifestation exercises to help me find a beautiful wife so she can have 2 grand children.

She is just a lovely soul. I look forward to achieving my goals this year, and going back and spending a month or two with them.

I appreciate these moments. Just put a smile on my face.

Checkin was above. Will kill these actions. Biz, gym, mindset. And some forum admin now. Need to get new members on here.

-MAC

 

[Ravi]

Mindset Development Work & Strategic Recharge

Spent the sunrise & early AM on my rooftop, visualising and doing affirmations. Was up there for 2 hours or so.

Hit the gym.

Off to the shops now & doing pure mindset development work all day today. And likely tomorrow too.

215lbs this morn. 10 more lbs and I think the bulk is done. Big one I need to get up is the deadlift. Has to be for high reps too. Let's see what we can make happen. I really want to crush 155-165kg for 15 reps or so. That sort of lift puts my max around 220-230kg. I think I could do 200kg or so now.

Greetings today from Low SMV Hell boyos

Mindset has to be dedicated to victory

There is a version of me who has at least fixed his image enough to get SOME attraction from non-troll ass women in the 3/4 range

Raising my image and finding a winning image means my apps go from zero matches to "something", approaches go from nothing to something happening

And we do not stop grinding from there

And we FINALLY start seeing this hard work pay off

Until then the grind continues

-MAC DADDY

 

[klondike]

215lbs this morn. 10 more lbs and I think the bulk is done. Big one I need to get up is the deadlift. Has to be for high reps too. Let's see what we can make happen. I really want to crush 155-165kg for 15 reps or so. That sort of lift puts my max around 220-230kg. I think I could do 200kg or so now.

Why are you deadlifting for reps

 

[Ravi]

Why are you deadlifting for reps

Coach believes heavily in heavy deads for high reps as an overall mass builder

He’s done great work with me and I’m happy about the results

Will stick to our plan, put some more solid ass muscle on

Cut

Get a full sleeve

And do the other optimisations I’d need to make better outcomes happen

Good to see you posting Tushar

 

[klondike]

Coach believes heavily in heavy deads for high reps as an overall mass builder

He’s done great work with me and I’m happy about the results

Will stick to our plan, put some more solid ass muscle on

Cut

Get a full sleeve

And do the other optimisations I’d need to make better outcomes happen

Good to see you posting Tushar

I love DL's, but they're not ideal for leg hypertrophy since there's no eccentric portion. Just a short concentric, then a brief hold at the top, then drop. Plus you're super tall, so you're humping the weight up and then getting shear on your spine while lowering it.

Taller people benefit more from coming out of deep stretch, doing super-slow (2 seconds concentric, 4 seconds eccentric) one-leg presses, bulgarian split squats, foot elevated split squats, stuff like that.

But if you enjoy it, it's another thing. Whatever works.

 

[Mindset]

My Mum called me today when I was coaching my guys on the beach.

I mentioned about Suze telling me she doesn't want to date any new guys, and then going to Tulum and changing her hinge location the second shje got out the airport lul.

She said girls don't do that for guys who are a serious prospect in their mind. She told me, just be cool with her, be friends with her if ya want, and then go to a new location and get a better gal. LMAO.

Mum is based AF.

She told me she is practising manifestation exercises to help me find a beautiful wife so she can have 2 grand children.

She is just a lovely soul. I look forward to achieving my goals this year, and going back and spending a month or two with them.

Love this super positive bit after talking to your Mom. Let's fucking go!

 

[Thrice]

Will stick to our plan, put some more solid ass muscle on

Hey Mac, you know i'm no expert and i've had a bodybuilding coach too, but this forum is for us to exchange views and brainstorm idea regardless of who's coaching us in the outside world.
I'm really afraid tall and skinny guys with bad genetics like me and you don't get anything out of big compound movements.

i saw definitation and muscle growth in my leg only when i stopped chasing strength and numbers and started using stable non-compound bodybuilding exercises like leg press.
Also your coach is letting you deadlift with a round back which is worrying

I understand you will keep trusting your coach for some time which is the right thing, everytime we try something we have to give it enough time to work before switching, just wanted to share my opinion even if i'm not expert because it was very obvious for me the fact that i started growing only when i stopped doing compound exercises and chasing strength like a powerlifter

 

[Ravi]

So the metrics I monitor for my body are the physical measurements and my strength gains

If these go up, I consider it a W

I am not skinny now I have size and presence as I gained literally 25lbs, half of that was muscle, half of it was fat

I have gotten way stronger and bigger. I am very tall at 6ft5 so it will take me literally years to get muscular and big

But that willl change my destiny

Frankly, given my progress in strength and measurements is happening month ager month. I can’t make any adjustments

I do deadlifts heavy and for high reps which has a massive hormonal effect on my body

I do heavy leg presses for high reps, 5 plates a side super super deep for 20 reps

My shoulder strength has flown up. From struggling to push press 50kg in Budapest to smashing 80kg on the barbell overhead for reps!

On the shoulder press machine I did 90kg for 5 reps

This version of me is becoming a strong and muscular beast slowly but surely

My biggest downfall is lack of attractive archetype and I need to tap into some form or archetype that will work

The minorities that attracted the best quality were my brother and day 1 the gangster Timmy Turner the most handsome black man in the game and a true legend of Winner Within

And I also know a few others who are either Arab or black and are doing well

Speaking to these people, the issue is that I look like an IT worker or programmer nerd (not when I speak tho, then these hoes know)

My thinking on gym improvements is to add raw size and get lean to reveal a more muscular and dominant physique, allowing me to overcome my bad archetype to a greater degree (maybe 5%)

And then add a lot of tattooing and honestly I may have to experiment with some deeper tricks, starting to go by a new and less ethnic name (I can’t get any matches on the apps where my name is Ravi but where I changed it to Rob I can get some)

The problem has a solution and the fact is that with a serious and deliberate image transformation this can be unlocked

My opinion is the power building type training and muscular development WILL help when we cut me down

And then I will do a full style haul, I’ll get my brother to sort me out a whole image haul and I’ll get it sent to NYC where it can sit in my little bro Carls apartment until I arrive there

The step that also needs to take place is heavy tattooing

Thanks for the support as ever bros

I am not stressed about this and haven’t been sweating it for a while, I did a big test of all different locations in the dating apps and I really couldn’t get any match quality or volume so basically I had to be honest and just draw a line under that era

All my brain is engaged in all day every day is Joe to become better

More happy and grounded

More attractive

And more successful

I have an obsessed mindset and tinker with this shit every second of my life

Today I got up went to the beach for 90m did my visualisations written affirmations

And then spent a while brainwashing myself and thinking about the legend I wil become when I rid myself of the actual issues

Low smv
Bad archetype
Weak profiles

What drives me every day is if I gut up and grind today then in 6 months I will wake up more attractive, more confident and grounded, and.l more successful

I appreciate the thoughts but as I have demonstrated the metrics that matter ARE going

To change something in my training now would be foolish

Let’s get my upper arm development up, quads and ass up, chest and back

And we will test this when I leave Mexico.

Right now I am chilling with the beautiful and lovely people of mesico some of the friendliest and kindest humans god put on this earth

It’s good vibes here all day every day

Positive and limitless enegy

You can just work hard on self improvement and have faith this shit will pay off

MAC DADDY

 

[Ravi]

DAY 48 OF THE 90 DAY SPRINT

STILL WORKIN'

Up, morning routine done.

Went to the gym with sunrise. Man I am absolutely smoked training wise after months of beatings. Barely had anything to give. Literally. Knew something was off, so just did a stretching session, and will try again tomorrow. Somerthing is up. Will hit my kcals, rest up, and if it happens again tomorrow, will chat to my coach about it.

I think the extremely intensive style of training may be catching up to me. Maybe I'll adapt. I don't know. That, however, was a concern this morning.

Not to worry. Will try again tomorrow and I think it won't be an issue.

Now to meal prep, go to the beach & coach my group.

Sales. Content. Admin.

Rinse & repeat.

Simple, easy, flow..........

JUST GET BETTER

-MAC

 

[Ravi]

Just gonna say, I feel really good man.

Intentional mindset work, letting go, and actively working on my beliefs, mindsets, and seeing the world as abundant, has helped not only my mood, energy levels, but also performance and productivity.

Yesterday was very productive. Killed it. It got to 8pm and I had some forum admin to do, but I opted to do that today instead, as I was feeling some resistance. After a solid 8hrs work, there's no need to push it. Will do it today.

The approach I have created, and which we're testing in the private IW group, seems to be the right one. Other guys are also getting good results.

Will do my check-in, in a bit. Will try that gym session today. Yesterday I just couldn't train. I will see what happens today.

Will make sure to get on a call with my coach this week and touch base, understand our next steps, etc. I am 216lbs now, so gained lots of weight, some muscle, some fat. I look like a right thicc boy now.

All good.

I am going to start doing research on tattoos this weekend, maybe I can get one done in Mexico. Saves me some cash. Improves my look a bit before going to NYC.

-MAC

 

[Ravi]

Day 49/90