zar04
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- Sep 7, 2023
Hi, my name’s zar. Im from Sydney,Australia.
Im 20; still a virgin. At the age of 17 i had an existential crisis about being a virgin and became quite suicidal. By some miracle i discovered self improvement and I’ve consistantly been meditating an hour a day; been journaling and been exercising for atleast 2 hours every single day for 3 years now.
I’ve been working out for the past 3years; tryna loose weight and build muscle; as well improve my mental health and discipline and I’ve built what i think is a pretty good physique. I’ve also got a business that’s got it’s first case study client atm; as well as university.
However; i still have massive mental blocks around girls that i aim to overcome through following what the guy in the “9 girls in 6 weeks” post did - by simply following a template that i cant fuck up; maximising my looks, style and photos; boosting and going for large volume while at the same time pulling the trigger/YOLOing it without pussying out - massive results in terms of sex had can be achieved.
i know very well the difference between understanding something theoretically and actually doing it… i seem to suck at actually doing these things. Getting laid is one of those things where brain has had alot of learned helpness programmed into it. In a way i do ahear to all of rhese logical findings, reports from other people and systems to give myself undeniable hope because without these things i would’ve fallen down the blackpill and likely would’ve ended my life. But simply not losing is not the same thing as winning.
I’m here to fucking win. To actually convert - in marketing terms. I’m here to fuck some bitches.
I’ve read some of the main posts by andy and chris from gll something like a dozen times by now. I’ve made a plan for myself similar to what the “9 girls in 6 weeks” plan looks like; except i want to have money for superboosts daily (goal number 1), have money for better clothes ( goal number 2) and to be able to rent a dslr to take very high quality photos and edit them (goal number 3).
Ultimately; on the question of why anyone joins any forum - it’s because i need feedback. I’ve been trying to do this on my own; trying to rely on my own self awareness for the last 2 years; gotten no real results except for like 2 dates with some extremely unattractive women. I could’ve had sex too but (and perhaps its a porn addiction thing - goal number 4 is to quit this btw) the thought of fucking her made me feel like i was raping mysef. I don’t think my standards are too high; just don’t be completely fucking ugly and don’t be morbidly obese. But i guess considering just how fucking competitive tinder is; i really do need to go the extra 10 miles; take paparazzi tier photos, run superboosts 12 hours day; swipe on as many girls as possible and aim to get like 10 numbers/snapchats a day and around 2-3 dates.
I need to be able to progress further down the list of sexual milestones until i actually get laid; i also wanna learn how to not be a pussy and be myself with girls; to get to a point where i don’t feel like being myself and being attractive are two mutually exclusive things. However; i understand that at the moment; just fucking a bitch would do wonders to make me get progress towards building a self exteem. In all honestly; i’ll likely mostly be here to post photos; outfits ; profiles for feedback as well as posting reports for analysis and feedback so i can improve quicker and speed up my learning process.
Also - should mention this - I have a fucked up combination of ADHD and gifted level intelligence (137 IQ on the WAIS-V) . I don’t mean to boast; in all honestly i’ve found nothing but shame in having so much alleged potential that’s been ruined by the neuroticism that is inevitably incurred through being intelligent. Some of the most succesful friends i have are just average intelligence people who have balls; don’t give a fuck and just take action.
Even by making it my purpose to become more like them; this is the only progress I’ve made so far; two dates with some fat drug addict girls. Even worse; from most of my friends point’s of views - i am decently attractive and masculine. Most people rate me as an 8/10; citing a strong jawline; low body fat percentage and decent grooming as reasons. Almost all of my friends who didn’t know in childhood were in geniunely disbelief to know that i was a virgin; i’ve even had girls chase me and ask me out (and they always manage to be the exact OPPOSITE kinds of girls I want). My sex life; rather the utter lack of one is nothing but a source of shame. Here i am; with gifts that some incels would kill for - with virtually no genetic flaws and several good features utterly inable to attract a girl. Even if a girl is into me physically it is as if every word i say manages to just turn her off. I have no issues in any social circle and used to be one of the most popular people in my high school due to non neediness, authenticity; intelligence and humour etc. but it’s like girls see me as 4 foot tall and inbred. The girls i repell the most are the ones i want the most - those intellectual emo type girls.
All of these problems; i assure myself; will solved over time SO LONG as i stick to my plan; get the “get girls” of life out of my system and rack up several boddies before i trust myself and find my own way to where i want to be and the kind of girls i want to be date (and how to interrwct with them). I know that noneediness will be achieved only through actual sexual abundance; thus this now the primary purpose of my life.
This is the first thing i think of in the morning. And the last thing i think of before i go to sleep.
Im 20; still a virgin. At the age of 17 i had an existential crisis about being a virgin and became quite suicidal. By some miracle i discovered self improvement and I’ve consistantly been meditating an hour a day; been journaling and been exercising for atleast 2 hours every single day for 3 years now.
I’ve been working out for the past 3years; tryna loose weight and build muscle; as well improve my mental health and discipline and I’ve built what i think is a pretty good physique. I’ve also got a business that’s got it’s first case study client atm; as well as university.
However; i still have massive mental blocks around girls that i aim to overcome through following what the guy in the “9 girls in 6 weeks” post did - by simply following a template that i cant fuck up; maximising my looks, style and photos; boosting and going for large volume while at the same time pulling the trigger/YOLOing it without pussying out - massive results in terms of sex had can be achieved.
i know very well the difference between understanding something theoretically and actually doing it… i seem to suck at actually doing these things. Getting laid is one of those things where brain has had alot of learned helpness programmed into it. In a way i do ahear to all of rhese logical findings, reports from other people and systems to give myself undeniable hope because without these things i would’ve fallen down the blackpill and likely would’ve ended my life. But simply not losing is not the same thing as winning.
I’m here to fucking win. To actually convert - in marketing terms. I’m here to fuck some bitches.
I’ve read some of the main posts by andy and chris from gll something like a dozen times by now. I’ve made a plan for myself similar to what the “9 girls in 6 weeks” plan looks like; except i want to have money for superboosts daily (goal number 1), have money for better clothes ( goal number 2) and to be able to rent a dslr to take very high quality photos and edit them (goal number 3).
Ultimately; on the question of why anyone joins any forum - it’s because i need feedback. I’ve been trying to do this on my own; trying to rely on my own self awareness for the last 2 years; gotten no real results except for like 2 dates with some extremely unattractive women. I could’ve had sex too but (and perhaps its a porn addiction thing - goal number 4 is to quit this btw) the thought of fucking her made me feel like i was raping mysef. I don’t think my standards are too high; just don’t be completely fucking ugly and don’t be morbidly obese. But i guess considering just how fucking competitive tinder is; i really do need to go the extra 10 miles; take paparazzi tier photos, run superboosts 12 hours day; swipe on as many girls as possible and aim to get like 10 numbers/snapchats a day and around 2-3 dates.
I need to be able to progress further down the list of sexual milestones until i actually get laid; i also wanna learn how to not be a pussy and be myself with girls; to get to a point where i don’t feel like being myself and being attractive are two mutually exclusive things. However; i understand that at the moment; just fucking a bitch would do wonders to make me get progress towards building a self exteem. In all honestly; i’ll likely mostly be here to post photos; outfits ; profiles for feedback as well as posting reports for analysis and feedback so i can improve quicker and speed up my learning process.
Also - should mention this - I have a fucked up combination of ADHD and gifted level intelligence (137 IQ on the WAIS-V) . I don’t mean to boast; in all honestly i’ve found nothing but shame in having so much alleged potential that’s been ruined by the neuroticism that is inevitably incurred through being intelligent. Some of the most succesful friends i have are just average intelligence people who have balls; don’t give a fuck and just take action.
Even by making it my purpose to become more like them; this is the only progress I’ve made so far; two dates with some fat drug addict girls. Even worse; from most of my friends point’s of views - i am decently attractive and masculine. Most people rate me as an 8/10; citing a strong jawline; low body fat percentage and decent grooming as reasons. Almost all of my friends who didn’t know in childhood were in geniunely disbelief to know that i was a virgin; i’ve even had girls chase me and ask me out (and they always manage to be the exact OPPOSITE kinds of girls I want). My sex life; rather the utter lack of one is nothing but a source of shame. Here i am; with gifts that some incels would kill for - with virtually no genetic flaws and several good features utterly inable to attract a girl. Even if a girl is into me physically it is as if every word i say manages to just turn her off. I have no issues in any social circle and used to be one of the most popular people in my high school due to non neediness, authenticity; intelligence and humour etc. but it’s like girls see me as 4 foot tall and inbred. The girls i repell the most are the ones i want the most - those intellectual emo type girls.
All of these problems; i assure myself; will solved over time SO LONG as i stick to my plan; get the “get girls” of life out of my system and rack up several boddies before i trust myself and find my own way to where i want to be and the kind of girls i want to be date (and how to interrwct with them). I know that noneediness will be achieved only through actual sexual abundance; thus this now the primary purpose of my life.
This is the first thing i think of in the morning. And the last thing i think of before i go to sleep.
