I, somaliesmasher, commit to working on my goals and taking myself seriously.
-27M
-kissless virgin, never even held hands
-never approached a woman
-lost all friends
Goals
-all my body fat goes to my mid section which is just unacceptable, hovering around 23% BF
-build MUCH more muscle and strength, i am weak
-become sexually attractive to women
That’s the cliffs version. Basically, i’m not a social retard and actually like to talk to strangers. We make a lot of assumptions subconsciously when talking or even looking at people. My problem is, i have good reason to believe male’s first assumption of me is weak and feeble, not a threat. Female’s first assumption is meek, not sexual option.
-Fizeek-
I’ve starting lifting seriously in my basement since March 2024. My fizeek is horrible. Very little muscle mass and way too much abdominal fat. Skinny-fat but the worst you have ever seen. Everyone calls me skinny because my arms are like pasta but there is a goddamn huge pot belly hiding under the shirt. Progress is slow but steady. I actually gave lifting a shot back when i was 21 but just quit after a couple of months. I’m late now, but more committed than ever. I need to become aesthetic like Kinobody. That’s the goal.
-Friends-
I’ve lost contact with all except 1 of my high school friends, and i only bump into him like once every 3 months randomly. These are guys i grew up with from age 8 to 18. Idk if that kind of authentic friendship can be replaced. I’m positive we are way too different to even be friends any more, we’ve developed apart too long.
-women-
my aim with them is to be attractive as phuck. i want the power of the kitty at my fingertips. i would say i’m 5/10, just average. LOL. I have started to dress slightly better and will continue to improve in that regard. i used to dress like a bum before.
my dream is actually to have a trad wife who knows she can’t do better that me so pretty much keeps me as happy as possible through cooking, cleaning, and phucking. I was getting to know a girl recently (cultural way). I got ghosted but she then tried to reconnect. I didn’t bother responding back cuz ghosting is disrespectful and i’m not needy or a simp. Phuck that.
anyway, it gave me a bit of confidence. i know she regrets it. But is it because i was the safe option? I don’t want that. i was a decent guy, i guess now i have to become a player.
finances are dialled in, i’m working on the fizeek, i now need to know how to talk and seduce/game women, even if my goal is not to smash a bunch of them, i think it’s a handy skill to have.
