Day has been good. Back in from the gym, refocusing right now.
Strength has been positive lately. Did 130kg x 17 and then 140kg x 9 in deadlifts. My max is around 190kg at the moment.
Today's session, was mostly machines. My coach changed my program this week.
During my very painful two weeks of trauma clearing, I was unable to stick to my diet. I made a range of bad decisions, and gained a considerable amount of weight.
Having dealt with my psyche, and had a very positive and supportive call with my recomp coach on Tuesday, I have been training hard, and adhering fully to my diet.
I expect my weight will dial in. The weight gain, it must be said, has made negative impacts on my SMV, and I look markedly worse. As you will see in content I will be uploading, likely tomorrow.
Whilst annoying, it is entirely fixable. I expect I will return to a more acceptable weight, within the next 2 weeks. The positive side, however, is I have gained size and strength, like nobodies business, working under coach Adam.
Other life developments: I will be going to a great business networking day, put on by Dan Meredith, on Sat. I will be with my friend, Radical, who is Andy's biz partner, and one of my clients in IronWill, Ken.
Ahead of my trip to Turkey on Monday, I will get a buzzcut tomorrow. Not to self deprecate too heavily, but my SMV is particularly bad in this part of the world. I do recall, when I was in full dating swing, and testing different nations, Turkey was one of the locations (among many) I was unable to get a solitary match. Brown death? Maybe. Who knows. I look forward to being social, and just enjoying the environment, without any intention to meet anyone or exchange details.
Detoxifying from the past 3 years, dating on nightmare mode, is underway as a side-project. I am grateful for my therapists support. And I am grateful for my ability to reflect, learn, and tease out clues as to how I could have been better. Largely, I attribute my experience to Low SMV: a "me" problem, and one that is within my control. SMV raising, is a long-term project, and not for the faint of heart. The small, incremental gains made through hard training, diet, and cosmetic surgery, add minuscule amounts to SMV. I can tell you this: the dating life of a male 5 is not worth living. Of particular note, it's the way they treat you......
Building a better product over the course of this year, I hope in the coming years, I can be free of this incredibly saddening experience.
Onwards.
-MAC