OH MAN. Thank you brothers so, so much for your praise, it truly means the world to me.
I still feel on top of the world, so excited, and damn just been a kick ass day for me. A big boost of confidence.
Today, my Tinder date from last night messaged me her hotel address, told me to swing by in the evening, she told me we’d have some drinks and have fun.
...And, I didn’t go meet her!
I told her I had an amazing time with her, loved meeting her, definitely want to stay in contact and keep talking, but tonight just will not work for me.
Why was this?
I have to be honest. She was cute, a nice looking bigger girl, but I was not sexually attracted to her. I did not want to sleep with her, with all due respect in the world, I simply couldn't. Bigger girls can be lovely, but I am not sexually attracted to them. I say that respectfully as a guy who was fat, and is still in the process of getting the body I want.
And it’s totally, totally OK.
I wanted the companionship, the connection, and the great experience of being with someone. I got that. She was an outstanding human being whose company I loved, everything about her personality was amazing and it was a lovely evening. I enjoyed making out with her, but I didn’t want to sleep with her as I was not attracted to her in that way.
I definitely need experience, I understand that, and I know some may say I need to gain experience by any means necessary. But, when it came to it on this occasion, I found it hard to sleep with someone who I’m not physically attracted to. I may be open to doing that next time. But we are atleast now looking at there being a next time! That’s the great news!
This was still a major win for me, I feel great.
Crisis_Overcomer , to clarify, we matched on Tuesday, we talked on Wednesday, date agreed for Thursday night. Thursday night we have a great, soul-affirming date, and as we’re making out for a while, she says I can’t come to her hotel tonight as she is packing and it’s a mess, but I can come over tomorrow (Friday night), and we’ll have fun. I was just happy I got this far man. I am a better man than I was when I first came to KYIL, and I will keep becoming a better man with every day that passes, and every month of bone-crunching effort that becomes year after year of building a true war machine….
The feeling of just sitting next to another human being, connecting deeper and deeper, feeling attraction, and then that building until we were on the steps outside just all over each other. You know what I mean. It was so good for both of us and made me feel like I am a man who has a chance with some women out there. In March, I truly thought there was not one single woman on the planet who would give me a shot.
That in and of itself is MASSIVE PROGRESS.
My life is getting better now, it is undeniable, and I will do whatever it takes to get to elite outcomes in dating, business, and social life, and I will set my future family up for multiple lifetimes….I obviously have many years to go, but this process has truly started and I am on the path.
Like all of us bros, I am a work in progress, but I will keep working on myself and doing self improvement like a god damn religion, and I look forward to getting the intimacy and sex life that I want, with women who I am more sexually compatible with going forward.
Again, I do not mean to in any regard appear disrespectful to the my date who invited me to her hotel room tonight, I am really flattered and it means a lot. This was NOT a problem with her. She was lovely, kind, generous, and so fun to be around.
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Today was solid all round. Did many hours of work for my talk, did cold thermogenesis, mood and outlook was great, and took care of some life admin.
Tomorrow, going to do a talk, hang out with friends all day (they're a 2hr drive away), spend lots of time outdoors on their farm, and we may head out for the evening and enjoy a few drinks - maybe. Staying the night at their farm, and Sunday, I shall come back home, get a cold thermogenesis session done, then go grab my buddy and spend the whole day hanging out in nature at a park. I will do a few approaches in the park if possible, lol, it's a large space and popular in our city.
Then Monday will roll around and it'll be war again. Cold approach every day, working on the biz, all that. Body progress pic coming in 2 weeks,
Keep hammering,
MAC
