Recent content by Svadhishthana

Okay, so after some time off posting, I'm finally feeling like I have the mental energy to do so again. As I mentioned before, I now believe that the biggest hurdle I have in my life is my social anxiety, my limited personal networks, and my lack of a real in-person group of friends with whom...

Great post. Everything I'm hearing indicates that you're making an amazing place, and your points about community are 100% correct. I'd sign on in a second if there weren't 8 different things keeping me tied to another continent.

Yesterday: Texted back and forth with girl from the day before. She says she's open to meeting again when she's in a better headspace. I say sure, I'll be back in town in a few weeks. We'll see how it goes. Then date that afternoon with another girl. I hate doing dates on Fridays because the...

Yesterday: Did work training. They actually double booked me for two sessions of the same training, so no need to return today. Passed everything no problem. Went on the date. My vibes were excellent. She was into me, strong eye contact, smiling and laughing pretty much the whole time, some...

Yesterday: TiG class was cool - fuckin stoked to do more of that! Got date tonight confirmed. Today: Work training. Just a refresher on fall protection. Should be easy. Date w/ physical therapist. Annoying, since I could be challenging myself to go to the kink event. Maybe I'm just...

Yesterday: Dunno wtf was going on yesterday, but my OLD was on fire. Was chatting with, like 5 girls simultaneously. And weirdly, the convos were going excellent. Unfortunately, timing is difficult so I will prob lose the opportunities from two who won't be available until I've skipped town. But...

Yesterday: Went bouldering with my friend, but sesh got cut short when she landed badly and sprained her ankle - so spent a lot of the day in the urgent care, and then hanging with her until I dropped her off at the airport. Good thing about having good friends, is that she stayed in pretty...

Yesterday: Went to welding class. Good instructor, other classmates were friendly and took an interest in the projects I'd already made. Had a good time, and was reasonably social, though this was limited by the fact that everyone was focused on the learning and instruction. Only problem - I...

Yesterday: Fwb texted me back and said she didn't want to see me because she was going through a mental health dip and was dealing with some family issues. I offered my support, we chatted a bit until she was feeling good enough for us to trade some insults. We'll see if it's still on. Today...

Yesterday: Wrote that post late, so really no updates. Today: Got in first lifting session in over a week. The 35 lb bar left me fatigued, since I'm still not feeling close to 100%. This illness sucks. Can't wait to get my blood work back. Hopefully it shows something definitive. Meanwhile...

Also just got told by a girl on Hinge that the "sexy" opener is getting hidden/blurred/something as "disrespectful" on the app. I assume this is common knowledge around here? Anybody have a good bold opener that doesn't get flagged so I don't have to roll my own?

Yesterday: Pussed out of going to kink event. Really fucking dumb. Was working on a project, looked up from the welder, and I was already 15 min late. Immediately just thought "ugh" - felt super tired already, and the idea of showing up to this thing, now late, was already making my heart...

Yesterday: After sending a message over to SF Poly Girl about how I was feeling, I was super ugh and not particularly pushing my limits. But she got back to me with a voice message that was like "I feel you and support you and appreciate you communicating honestly, and I can't wait to bang." And...

Yesterday: Felt tired and unmotivated in the morning - symptoms of my illness. But left the house to go climbing with some friends. As I was driving out to meet them, I was feeling other symptoms - headache and sinus pressure - and considered just turning around to go back to bed. But reframed...

Yesterday: Mentally cratered in the evening due to feeling the return of physical symptoms of my illness. Extremely frustrating from feeling healthy and motivated to exhausted and depressed *again* for reasons mostly outside my control. But tried to sleep well last night, and feeling a bit...