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Sup guys, I know I already posted a log in here, but it was not detailed enough IMO and wanted to introduce myself properly, so the last one will be forgotten and I will heavily focus on this one for all the different aspect of self-improvement.
My name is Maxime, Im french Canadian from quebec and I'm 26 5ft7 200lbs (as of the writing of this). I discovered Good looking loser about 2 weeks ago and while scrolling through the forums I found a post made by Andy and came to look and see what was going on here!
I like how Andy genuinely wants people to give their all and become better versions of themselves and this is why I signed up. I read the whole "Get laid on tinder" guide and I'm now more determined than ever and ill make sure I stay this way. Btw thanks a million times for this guide, I cant believe something like that is free and it just goes to show how Andy truly cares, again thanks!
(The next few paragraphs are a little back story of the ups and downs of my life and fat/muscle gain since HS, If you want to see my complete fat loss log it's here: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=556&p=12359#p12359)
Since I was little I've always like to lift things and help my dad with his truck delivery job, so I was always in the stronger kids at school, but I've always been super shy and not confident, so some kids would take advantage of that. There was no intimidation until high school really, but when I entered first year of HS, even some friend that went to the same elementary school/middle school as me, some of them I knew for 3-4 years at that point, turned on me and I became a "word punching bag" (Note: This was a only boy private school where I was sleeping 5days a week). Nobody would actually hit me because I was stronger than any of them but I was not very good with words or was not of violent nature, so I wouldn't retaliate. I was really into sport all my life, I was playing basketball rugby and soccer and some of my teammates were the people that would pick on me the most even though I was one of the best player on any of my sports team. At some point I became really fed up of this shit and I started lifting weights. I didn't want to lift weight to fight them, because I already could, but to pass a message that If I were to act it could be really bad for them "kind of mentality". So I started lifting weights at 12 yo, we had a small gym inside the school. During the next 2 Years, the bullying did not stop, and I even had some suicidal thoughts at some point. The worst were the hockey team members, those guys man I swear, pure fucking assholes, but I get my revenge soon . Little by little people were starting to notice the muscle adding up. By the time I hit 15 years old, I gained a lot more respect from people just by looking a lot more muscular, but not from the hockey team members. It's really funny but when these guys were alone with me, they were super cool and even talked to me about video games, but when but they were 2+ they became just fucking mean for no fucking reasons, now I know that it was probably because I was physically stronger than them and they knew I wouldn't hurt a fly, but back then I didn't. One day during my 9th grade year, one guy told me that the hockey team members were having "Casque/Gants" fights somewhere where the teachers and directors were never going, so I wanted to try it. ("Casques/Gants" is a type of fight where you put only a hockey helmet and gloves and you punch until either is unable to fight, ton of fun for real!). So one day I go there and the hockey guys act all tough cuz they have been doing that for some time already, but none of them actually want to fight me and telling bullshit reasons why, until of the best "fighter" actually accept. I completely destroy the guy, He might have landed 2 punch on my helmet and in 15-20 sec he was down on the ground shouting to stop. After that day, god damn life was sooooooo peaceful, I used to think High school was shit but after that, HS became the best time of my life and still is to this day.
So now I'm at what we call here "cegep" which is you go to at 17 years old, if you don't fail prior years and I studied to become police officer, play basketball and rugby. During my first year on the basketball team I was yet again the target of some douchebag bullying, he was coming from another school and was way better than me, so everyone had his back. I also still had to this day remnant of low self esteem and confidence from the bullying I suffered in HS, so yet again I was not saying anything and just endured that shit for the whole year. When you are almost an adult and let another guy shit on you constantly man was it hard for the ego and even worst for my self-esteem, the suicidal thought came back multiple times during this year even though I was in great shape, studying to become a police officer and had lots of friend. I was not talking about this to anyone and I should have. Thinking about it today I'm telling myself I should have done something, but back then I was so fucked mentaly that I just endured and kept going deeper and deeper in hating myself. Second year I did not even tried for the team and discovered League of legends...This game consumed me and for a good reason. I quickly became really good at it and people and friends were actually starting to compliment me online on my ranking. I always loved video games but I had never abused it, but when I found this outlet which would bring me tons of happy and feels good chemicals it kind of started to dictate my life. I would skip tons of school and trainings and by the end of the first half of my second year, I completely stop my police training and went back to my parents home and work at a convenience store.
Note: I don't regret to this day leaving my police officer training because I don't think I would have been happy especially with this covid shit going on right now
During those 2 college years, like I said, I was still in shape and trained a lot so I was around 200lbs in shape, but after leaving the police officer training, stopping my trainings and playing video games all day and night I quickly gained fat and lost tons of muscle until I was 220lbs. I have kind of an endomorph body type so 220lbs looks better on me than some people but I was still far from in shape.
I started working at a convenience store met my first girlfriend at there at the age of 21, she was 18. She was really hard to get and it was kind of a toxic relationship, so I lost like 30lbs in a matter of a few months due to eating less, I never took medication but I was borderline depressed. One day my friends from college came back into my life and we decided to all go live together in a house. We were 8 dudes who went to the same private, boys only, 5days a week sleep there school. It kind of opened my eyes on my toxic relationship and I started to become a lot more assertive and less tolerant to being treated like shit. I also started lifting again, but this time it was the real deal. 2 other guys were going to the gym pretty hard and they introduced me to powerlifting, it revived the flame in me. In a matter of 3-4 months I hit the strongest I ever been. My max were Bench: 335lbs. Squat: 435. Deadlift: 455lbs and I was 215lbs in the best shape I have ever been.
At some point during the process I left my girlfriend and started looking into dating apps and going out and let me tell you my physique was attracting women's a lot more back then, but I was still the shy had low self esteem and didn't know what the fuck to say to girls like the guy I've always been, if only I had found Goodlookingloser back then... After approx 2 weeks of leaving my gf I start dating a girl and back then I didn't have the same mentality, I was "1 women is enough" kind of guy, so I dated this girls for a few months and it didn't work out. I soon met my second girlfriend who was a huge gamergirl, I've always been a huge gamer myself and it was like any gamer dream come true, but let me tell you it wasn't. She was sweet, but she had 0 sex drive. I was used to fuck every single day with my ex girlfriend and my date before her and she didn't want it more than 3 times a week for the first few months and then it became a lot worst. She was the kind of "8 hours of gaming per day is for noob only" kind of gamergirl. I became very lazy and stopped training, l but never stopped eating like before. Fast forward into the relationship, at my worst I hit 240lbs in the worst shape I've ever been. That's around 3 years after meeting her and stopping my training.
At this point I look in the mirror and I'm like "dude... you used to look so good and now look at you... a fat slob who doesn't even have sex". At this point in our relationship, the sex became a once a month+ type of deal, but I was masturbating everyday at least once sometimes more to cope and I was still playing 8-12 hours of video game per day. I found a really good job during our relationship, the same job I still have today. I'm working for a huge video game company (don't want to give too much personal details) and I make pretty good money, but above else, I fucking love my job.
So now it 1 January 2020, I don't like the way I look and can't stop thinking about how good I was looking a few years ago, looking online I stumbled across 2 things that would change my life and still is to this day, No fap and intermittent fasting. I started both at the same time and I'm still practicing both right now a little over 1 year later, so I will detail my experience with both in 2 separate paragraphs.
My name is Maxime, Im french Canadian from quebec and I'm 26 5ft7 200lbs (as of the writing of this). I discovered Good looking loser about 2 weeks ago and while scrolling through the forums I found a post made by Andy and came to look and see what was going on here!
I like how Andy genuinely wants people to give their all and become better versions of themselves and this is why I signed up. I read the whole "Get laid on tinder" guide and I'm now more determined than ever and ill make sure I stay this way. Btw thanks a million times for this guide, I cant believe something like that is free and it just goes to show how Andy truly cares, again thanks!
(The next few paragraphs are a little back story of the ups and downs of my life and fat/muscle gain since HS, If you want to see my complete fat loss log it's here: https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?f=12&t=556&p=12359#p12359)
Since I was little I've always like to lift things and help my dad with his truck delivery job, so I was always in the stronger kids at school, but I've always been super shy and not confident, so some kids would take advantage of that. There was no intimidation until high school really, but when I entered first year of HS, even some friend that went to the same elementary school/middle school as me, some of them I knew for 3-4 years at that point, turned on me and I became a "word punching bag" (Note: This was a only boy private school where I was sleeping 5days a week). Nobody would actually hit me because I was stronger than any of them but I was not very good with words or was not of violent nature, so I wouldn't retaliate. I was really into sport all my life, I was playing basketball rugby and soccer and some of my teammates were the people that would pick on me the most even though I was one of the best player on any of my sports team. At some point I became really fed up of this shit and I started lifting weights. I didn't want to lift weight to fight them, because I already could, but to pass a message that If I were to act it could be really bad for them "kind of mentality". So I started lifting weights at 12 yo, we had a small gym inside the school. During the next 2 Years, the bullying did not stop, and I even had some suicidal thoughts at some point. The worst were the hockey team members, those guys man I swear, pure fucking assholes, but I get my revenge soon . Little by little people were starting to notice the muscle adding up. By the time I hit 15 years old, I gained a lot more respect from people just by looking a lot more muscular, but not from the hockey team members. It's really funny but when these guys were alone with me, they were super cool and even talked to me about video games, but when but they were 2+ they became just fucking mean for no fucking reasons, now I know that it was probably because I was physically stronger than them and they knew I wouldn't hurt a fly, but back then I didn't. One day during my 9th grade year, one guy told me that the hockey team members were having "Casque/Gants" fights somewhere where the teachers and directors were never going, so I wanted to try it. ("Casques/Gants" is a type of fight where you put only a hockey helmet and gloves and you punch until either is unable to fight, ton of fun for real!). So one day I go there and the hockey guys act all tough cuz they have been doing that for some time already, but none of them actually want to fight me and telling bullshit reasons why, until of the best "fighter" actually accept. I completely destroy the guy, He might have landed 2 punch on my helmet and in 15-20 sec he was down on the ground shouting to stop. After that day, god damn life was sooooooo peaceful, I used to think High school was shit but after that, HS became the best time of my life and still is to this day.
So now I'm at what we call here "cegep" which is you go to at 17 years old, if you don't fail prior years and I studied to become police officer, play basketball and rugby. During my first year on the basketball team I was yet again the target of some douchebag bullying, he was coming from another school and was way better than me, so everyone had his back. I also still had to this day remnant of low self esteem and confidence from the bullying I suffered in HS, so yet again I was not saying anything and just endured that shit for the whole year. When you are almost an adult and let another guy shit on you constantly man was it hard for the ego and even worst for my self-esteem, the suicidal thought came back multiple times during this year even though I was in great shape, studying to become a police officer and had lots of friend. I was not talking about this to anyone and I should have. Thinking about it today I'm telling myself I should have done something, but back then I was so fucked mentaly that I just endured and kept going deeper and deeper in hating myself. Second year I did not even tried for the team and discovered League of legends...This game consumed me and for a good reason. I quickly became really good at it and people and friends were actually starting to compliment me online on my ranking. I always loved video games but I had never abused it, but when I found this outlet which would bring me tons of happy and feels good chemicals it kind of started to dictate my life. I would skip tons of school and trainings and by the end of the first half of my second year, I completely stop my police training and went back to my parents home and work at a convenience store.
Note: I don't regret to this day leaving my police officer training because I don't think I would have been happy especially with this covid shit going on right now
During those 2 college years, like I said, I was still in shape and trained a lot so I was around 200lbs in shape, but after leaving the police officer training, stopping my trainings and playing video games all day and night I quickly gained fat and lost tons of muscle until I was 220lbs. I have kind of an endomorph body type so 220lbs looks better on me than some people but I was still far from in shape.
I started working at a convenience store met my first girlfriend at there at the age of 21, she was 18. She was really hard to get and it was kind of a toxic relationship, so I lost like 30lbs in a matter of a few months due to eating less, I never took medication but I was borderline depressed. One day my friends from college came back into my life and we decided to all go live together in a house. We were 8 dudes who went to the same private, boys only, 5days a week sleep there school. It kind of opened my eyes on my toxic relationship and I started to become a lot more assertive and less tolerant to being treated like shit. I also started lifting again, but this time it was the real deal. 2 other guys were going to the gym pretty hard and they introduced me to powerlifting, it revived the flame in me. In a matter of 3-4 months I hit the strongest I ever been. My max were Bench: 335lbs. Squat: 435. Deadlift: 455lbs and I was 215lbs in the best shape I have ever been.
At some point during the process I left my girlfriend and started looking into dating apps and going out and let me tell you my physique was attracting women's a lot more back then, but I was still the shy had low self esteem and didn't know what the fuck to say to girls like the guy I've always been, if only I had found Goodlookingloser back then... After approx 2 weeks of leaving my gf I start dating a girl and back then I didn't have the same mentality, I was "1 women is enough" kind of guy, so I dated this girls for a few months and it didn't work out. I soon met my second girlfriend who was a huge gamergirl, I've always been a huge gamer myself and it was like any gamer dream come true, but let me tell you it wasn't. She was sweet, but she had 0 sex drive. I was used to fuck every single day with my ex girlfriend and my date before her and she didn't want it more than 3 times a week for the first few months and then it became a lot worst. She was the kind of "8 hours of gaming per day is for noob only" kind of gamergirl. I became very lazy and stopped training, l but never stopped eating like before. Fast forward into the relationship, at my worst I hit 240lbs in the worst shape I've ever been. That's around 3 years after meeting her and stopping my training.
At this point I look in the mirror and I'm like "dude... you used to look so good and now look at you... a fat slob who doesn't even have sex". At this point in our relationship, the sex became a once a month+ type of deal, but I was masturbating everyday at least once sometimes more to cope and I was still playing 8-12 hours of video game per day. I found a really good job during our relationship, the same job I still have today. I'm working for a huge video game company (don't want to give too much personal details) and I make pretty good money, but above else, I fucking love my job.
So now it 1 January 2020, I don't like the way I look and can't stop thinking about how good I was looking a few years ago, looking online I stumbled across 2 things that would change my life and still is to this day, No fap and intermittent fasting. I started both at the same time and I'm still practicing both right now a little over 1 year later, so I will detail my experience with both in 2 separate paragraphs.