15-30 minutes work today (might've been an hour even but feel like it was pretty quick).
2 hours nightgame (hit on one girl legit, talked to at least three more -- all pairs).
1 hour learning pickup (read chasegirls.com article on meta frame).
Also hit on one girl daytime. I went with the "I'm in a rush, let's get coffee" (since she seemed 19ish) but I kinda stuttered on that. I definitely need to get some self-limiting beliefs handled somehow.
Yesterday when I switched my Chief Aim In Life (a la Think and Grow Rich) from work to getting laid, an inner voice was screaming "No!" I'm not sure if that's because my inner self still considers pre-marital sex immoral, because my inner self doesn't believe I can accomplish the goal, or simply because there was a resistance to changing my #1 goal - I've been going all out on work for a while now so I'd bet that's part of it.
My inner voice was okay with my morning recitation of my Chief Aim In Life. However, when I recited the Self-Confidence Formula, my inner self was still squeamish about the idea of achieving my definite Chief Aim In Life (an insta-lay preferably from bar/club but daygame also okay) by November (and there was a TON of resistance when I initially thought about setting the deadline end of this month).
Unfortunately, I do still need to do some work this week (need to finish a paper and build my presentation, read articles, etc.) so I can't go 100% with the getting laid goal this week. Nevertheless, I should be able to put in some leg work so that I'm off work in August I'll be in a better position when I go all out.
So, here are some definite steps I will be taking (in order of daily priority):
[*] Do the 6 steps on p. 22 Think And Grow Rich for my new getting laid goal (actually write shit down on paper).
[*] Go out to at least one bar every night this week (I have a Tinder date set up for tomorrow night but I'm planning on banging her relatively quick or scaring her away and then hitting the bar after).
[*] Write down on paper an imaginary interaction with a girl (daygame or nightgame) and fill out the whole imaginary interaction from opener to getting laid - I want to start envisioning success.
[*] Go to the gym every day this week.
[*] Read one pickup article / watch one youtube video / listen to one podcast per day.
[*] Find a nightgame coach by the of August. Has to be in person. Probably for when I take my trip to NYC in September. Too bad BiB and the older gen (can't even remember the dudes names from LA and Miami respectively) are retired. I hit up toddvdating but the dude flaked on the phone call the first and third attempt and was late the second time. What a scrub. I have a call tomorrow morning with wingwomanNyc, we'll see how that goes. I kinda really want to become a regular at a bar this week, build rapport with a bartender and see if I can pay her to be a wingwoman. Presumably she wouldn't have experience so maybe it wouldn't work but could be a fun experience.
[*] Try cannabis or other non-alcoholic mood-enhancers. Specifically so I'm not anxious all the fucking time - even yesterday on my day off I was pretty wound up. I'd prefer to do CBT on myself or something - that is, fix the underlying issue rather than medicate but I might try chemical enhancement if it comes to that.
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Anyway, tonight night game went better overall I'd say. I went for the tail end of the concert but they were already closed, guess I didn't miss much. Went to a nearby bar and played a game of pool by myself. Hit up a pair of girls at the bar to see if they wanted to join. The hot girl I started off with was frigid but her curvy friend was super nice - not into that body type tho. Anyway they weren't down for pool.
Then I bought a homeless guy a drink at a bar. I'm not sure if part of it is that I really chill the fuck out at around 11pm (that's one of my most productive work hours) or just socializing with him but I was much better at that point - and I was sober tonight, just had ginger beer. Anyway, talked to a girl at the bar but didn't press it as far as I should've.
Went to the same bar I've been to like 5 nights the past week. It was decent again tonight. Intro'd myself to the hottest girl in the bar and I think I had a pretty good smile but before I could do my line she realized I had hit on her friend last week. I remembered her friend being a frigid bitch so that shook me. Too bad I didn't press with the hot girl because she was smiling anyway seemed nice. But my mind just went 100% blank when my opener got derailed. Of course now I've thought of a million things I could've/should've said. Oh well, it'll come in time I guess.
I've got an early morning and I hit up most of the bars in town. Going to crush work tomorrow AND make some strides in mindset improvement.
Day by day, in every possible way, I am getting better and better.