Hey guys,
I’m Anthony.
I have been wanting to join this forum for a while, but I have been hesitant to do so. I was held back by the fact that I need a photo of myself as my avatar. I kept putting it off as I wanted to take the “perfect” one. I would then go down the rabbit hole of, “My phone has a shit camera, I need to use a DSLR”, “I want to take a cool artistic one like the other guys”, “Blah, blah, blah, Some bullshit excuse”, Etc. The reality is that I was just scared to do it; I didn’t want to be rejected. So I took a selfie on my potato phone.
I just finished day 6 of the podcast, “Run Towards fear”. So here I am. I sprinted at it.
"I, Anthony aka Ralstig, commit to working on my goals and taking myself seriously."
My overall goal is to develop my sense of self-worth. I am a perfectionist and because of that nothing ever felt good enough; my thoughts, my personality, my work, my looks, my style, how my brain is wired, etc.
“It’s ok to suck” needs to become my mantra as I really need to work on letting things be good enough. Heck, I worked for over 30 minutes just on this post…
I currently have multiple goals I’m working on:
Get my working weights (5x5) up to: Squat 275 (currently 225), Bench 200 (c155), DL 300 (c250)
Work on my depression. I might be clinically depressed. Still working that out. I always feel down, but it's not due to negative thinking.
Start on a new IT Career: Get A+, Network +, Security +, and CCNA certifications. Long term is to eventually go back to school and get a degree.
Take the GLL approach anxiety course; I have really bad social anxiety. I do alright I certain situations, but I want to feel comfortable in all social situations. Right now I’m just too shy and neurotic.
Keep up with reading self-growth books; starting with the rest of Peter McWilliams’ books. “Luxury of a Negative thought” and "Love 101" was life changing. I'm excited to see what other great insights he has.
Work on my looks. Get some style advice for my hair, glasses, facial hair, clothing, etc.
Create a Tinder/Bumble profile and get practice talking to girls.