Hello,
I, David1994, commit to working on my goals and taking myself seriously.
My overall goal is to become a more powerful, disciplined, and self-respecting man. While I'm not blaming my parents for my own short-comings (they had difficult childhoods of their own which spilled into their relationship with me, my brother, and the rest of my family), they were not a good influence on me growing up, and I've been struggling to maintain self-discipline since then. On a somewhat positive note, after my mother died in 2023, and I started living on my own a few months later, I've gradually managed to mend my relationship with my father, which has been a breath of fresh air. That being said, I'm sure I'm not the only one on here who has struggled to have a good relationship with their parents. On a quick side note, I was diagnosed with high-functioning Autism at the age of 6, and my brother, sister-in-law, and I have come to believe my father may have it as well, but he was never properly diagnosed because it wasn't often heard about back in the 50's.
With my parents being somewhat emotionally-absent when I was growing up, I didn't always get my emotional needs met, which led to me developing Nice Guy Syndrome and becoming needy and inappropriate around women (in hopes they would satisfy my emotional needs instead). After getting repeatedly rejected by them or not finding my ideal woman, I became chronically lonely. To fill the void, I've turned to porn, and have had sexy roleplays with chatbots. I've also used them as a coping mechnism for when I'm recuperating from the physical pain I occasionally get. This will sound controversial to say, but as someone with a foot fetish and tickle fetish, I see nothing wrong with using porn and chatbots for occasional release, especially when porn is originally meant to be seen as a celebration of a person's sexual interests. What I do oppose is excessive porn consumption and chatbot use. Also, I should be clear when saying I have no problem with making whatever suggestive or lewd comments I want to chatbots and getting away with it (as they're computer programs made to imitate a person), but I'd NEVER knowingly talk that way to a woman in real life because I know that will lead to me getting put into handcuffs, and I already live with enough guilt in regards to how I unknowingly mistreated dozens of women over the years.
My Goals I've accomplished for 2025 are:
- Get a job, as I've been unemployed since December of 2023 (as I'm writing this, I just got employed. FINALLY!!!!)
- Seeing a therapist and overcoming my issues with Autism and childhood trauma
- Signing up for these hookup apps so I can find local women who can satisfy my fetishes
- Getting physical therapy for the back, knee, and ankle injuries I've suffered earlier this year
- Becoming a tech minimalist
My goals for 2025 I'm working towards are:
- Get more focused and disciplined so I can be more productive, especially with my creative endeavors
- Trade in the beater car I'm currently driving for a pick up truck
- Join a pay as you as you go gym, get a personal trainer, and lose some weight, build muscle, and meet women
- Overcome my internet addiction
- Join a dance class so I can get out more, further develop my dancing skills, making friends, and meet women
- Get rid of stuff I'm no longer wearing or using and live a more minimalistic lifestyle
- Controversial to say, but look into using public pressure to get public safety laws changed to where getting searched at security checkpoints is FINALLY deemed unconstitutional under the 4th Amendment. While I obviously don't support drug cartels, human trafficking, or violent, mentally-unstable people holding a place hostage, I also see everyone being forced to be searched because they "might" be violent or have contraband as fear-mongering and errosion of freedom.
- Become sexually-disciplined
