saturday 27/1 i was just came out from this pizza place i worked for in the past and was near the intersection across the street. I was talking to this guy and 5 minutes later a car that was trying to get to the main road makes a mistake, dosen't give way and gets hits very bad by car that was running very fast in the main road
https://www.parmapress24.it/2022/01/18/incidente-mortale-a-torrechiara-la-56enne-coinvolta-e-indagata-per-omicidio-stradale/
The next day I read in the local newspapers that on the car hit there were two boys of 18 and 20 years and a girl of 17 years, all dead
I felt a shiver down my spine and a pain in my chest even though I didn’t know them personally
I went to the funeral of the 18-year-old boy, his funeral took place in the Duomo near my house
I felt a very strange feeling, when we die the world does not stop, the world goes on anyway. None of us count.
the tourists kept passing by and taking pictures of the cathedral, the boy’s schoolmates kept laughing and making jokes among themselves, only his closest friends seemed very grieved and heartbroken, The other kids, who were probably just schoolmates, didn’t cry and talked to each other normally. No one cried, not even the parents, I’m sure they felt so much pain but they didn’t cry.
the funerals here are very cold
https://www.parmatoday.it/foto/cronaca/l-ultimo-saluto-a-joseph-venturini-i-funerali-in-duomo/
, I felt a strange feeling, in my parents' country they scream and cry for the dead, you see hysterical scenes, maybe some of you will say that in Africa they are little "civilized", but at least they give importance to the dead crying and shouting his name until the last second.
Here the funerals are more civilized but in that fucking coffin there was an 18-year-old boy, cry or scream so you can show that human life is worth something, if you don’t believe me this is the pictures from the funeral
The fact that life is so short and we can die in a split second like that shocked me, i couldn’t stop thinking about it for two weeks.
I also felt bad for hating woman sometimes after seeing that poor 17yo half dead. She died later that night.
I want to stop beign incel and blackpill, i want to have friends, i want girls to like me, i want to be validated. I know validation seeking is not a good thing but i feel so alive when a girl gives me eye contact, and i feel bad when they break eye contact because they think i’m an immigrant creep, and this happens especially when i deliver pizza dressed like shit.
I want to be a stylish edgy guys with friends and girls. I never even had a date and could die tomorrow.
We are so lucky to be alive, but after seeing what i saw i have a sense of urgency i didn’t have before.
I hope they rest in peace. Life is an opportunity, it’s not to be taken for granted.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vtLJ212Ffek
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSDS5ctGmA0
