I will add one more thing...........
This is more of a spiritual post, though you may not agree, I personally do believe in God and seek strength in my own journey
The Universe WILL Test Your Commitment
As you grow, and find ways to obtain what you seek, the Universe, or God, whichever you prefer, will test you...
First, you have the losing streaks
Then, you have the bitter defeats
The depression, the sleepless nights
The mind torture
Your entire being almost collapses, and you want a way out. The pain can be soul crushing. You want to blow your brains out.
.....And yet, somehow, you persist
The betrayals, the backstabbing, people who you trusted, letting you down. I can tell you no end of absolutely insane shit that has taken place in my own journey, which does not make the log, or anywhere else dude.
Knives pulled at me, mugging attempts, all sorts of crazy hostility.
Denied service, not allowed into venues and spaces, though they let my other friends.
All fucking sorts, homie.
Grinding for multiple years, and getting ghosted to fuck. Getting some weird ass treatment.
Being in no uncertain terms made to confront where you stack up. At the bottom.
You say you got 400 matches on Tinder? Do you know that I have not had that many, combined, total, since I started this shit. LMAO.
ANYONE who has a goal, who is serious, and who has stuck his head above the parapet, is going to get the wrath, homie.
I was on RxMuscle's AfterHour's show (300,000+ subscribers on YouTube) with my fucking brother, Scotty, who has my back and supports me every day of my life. I thoroughly enjoyed talking to Dave Palumbo, John Romano, Gregg Valentino. These men, were so cool to me, and praised my transformation:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZddeVWbrKzA&list=PLsgeN-AsdAD2moVpOX7hNhcVBH5XqW_q7&index=2
What you also have to consider, is literally hundreds of racist comments flooding in, about how I am brown, must stink of curry, am an Uber driver, all sorts of just low level racist idiocy. These people are sickened by me, dude, though they do not know me. You should see my social media DMs, dude.
A few days ago, I posted a pic of when I used to be fat, on my socials. In one day, all the chicks who I'd been chatting to IG, unfollowed. The day game and online leads, just poof. They saw I used to be fat, felt some negative emotion - poof! No thanks. I don't even blame them.
I've had women I was legit dating, 3-4 dates, and properly interested in, find my forum log, and consider finding ways to pursue a cancellation of sorts. Yup.
I am also going to tell you, that it does not get better.
The lows, continue to come.
You just get stronger.
The guys who said they were going to go out and achieve something, told the Universe they were serious.
When the tests came, they folded.
I don't even blame them. I have wanted to quit, many times.
.....But the guys who you see, who actually got what they're looking for, are the 1% of men who actually paid the price in blood, sweat, and tears.
That is the great equaliser, dude.
Not your looks.
Not your game.
But your fucking heart and soul.
I am low SMV. Most women, consider me f**king ugly. I know, because I can see how they receive me, and how they receive others. No part of me, is mad about that, because I am completely at peace with my value as a male, which does not come from my exterior, but the warrior spirit I have, and the ability to come back and continue moving when I get shat on, every month of this journey dude.
That, to me, is the guy, who will finally, somehow make it.
And for a guy like me, a down low rat from dirt nothing, just to breathe that rarified air at the top of the mountain for one second, just one second, I will be able to die a god damn champion because I made it despite the odds and did not quit.
......WILL YOU SAY THE SAME ABOUT YOURSELF?
DO NOT LET ME HEAR YOU ARE GOING TO F**KING QUIT TINDER AGAIN OR I WILL GO TO ITALY AND WHIP YOUR ASS SO BADLY YOU WILL THINK GOD HIMSELF WAS SHITTING ON YOU
I believe in you, hardcore, and you must understand I am a stubborn, weird, autistic man. I reject the notion that a man of your looks must accept this situation, wholeheartedly. This thought sickens me to the bone and I reject this for any man who has the looks you do. God I am pissed off now.
Back to work........
-R
