Thrice
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- Apr 9, 2021
Some crazy things happened lately. So first thing first I decided to quit the pizza delivery job. I decided that changing my life was better than some extra money. After quitting the night pizza delivery job I was able to hang out every evening in the same places where the guys I meet on the tecno clubs on weekends hang out.
This way I was really able to form bonds because now it's not just weekends anymore, I'm meeting them every evening and socializing. yes I have less money but it's the only way i can move forward, the reason I have been delivering pizza for the last 14 years is that I'm a scared little pussy afraid of any change.
I've also realized that perfectionism is my main problem, i'm an overthinker perfectionist who takes no action and the only way to change that is to tackle my goals one at a time.
I've had 5k on my bank account for 6 months and i have been reading used cars reviews for a year, I have realized that it's all part of my perfectionist overthinker mindset so I have decided enough is enough and bought my first car within a week. I've never been happier about a decision.
The day after buying the car i met a hot 20yo i tried to approach multiple times at the tecno club, she remembered me and was so sweet. Asked her if she wanted to hang out and said yes.
We spent the day together eating, drinking and doing other fun stuff. She likes drugs too.
It was an amazing feeling, my first day with a car spent with a hot 20-year-old. And it only happened because i have balls and go after girls. She asked me for my ig but i told her i'm banned for 30 days because i don't have good pictures yet. I took her home and asked her if she wants to hang out again, she said yes but just as friends adding some lame excuses i didn't understand. She also said she had a boyfriend but it can't be true, what kind of boyfriend would be ok with her spending the entire day with me?
I admit i was hurt because i fantasized about her like a bet cuck since meeting her at the tecno club. Now that i'm less butthurt i'm thinking that maybe keeping her as a friend would be a good option, i'm doing all this because i want to become more normie and less autistic.
Thats the goal of this social circle game phase i'm doing, not just pussy but also becoming more of a normal person with friends. And for this goal, having a hot 20 years friend and being seen with her is not exactly a bad thing. At the same time i felt like a cuck when she said no after we spent the entire day together and bought stuff for her.
Another amazing and a bit fucked up experience happened two weekends ago. So i got invited to this mega tecno events. one of the people in my car was the 20yo i used to stalk with the fake profile when i was an incel, how fucked up is this? i used to stalk them now hey're asking me for rides...like i said many times they even made a group.
She clearly remembers me. say what you want, I'm not putting women on a pedestal, but they do remember and notice everything. That change in the face for a split second is all i need to know that she remembers me, but if she asked for a ride it means she's not scared i guess.
To be honest, i consider her extremely beautiful, i couldn't look at her in the face because her beauty is actually intimidating + the fact that i used to stalk her doesn't help. She's into drugs too, you wouldn't tell looking at that angel face with freckles. i would give an arm to have a girl like that. her boyfriend is not better looking then me, but he met her within her circle. I'm trying to not compare and be jealous.
They met when i was at home fighting my own brain and suicidal thoughts. they are on their normal schedule, I'm on the healing and catching-up schedule. But i still ask myself why i've been so insecure and beta all this years now that i'm seeing with my own guys that i'm better looking than most of the guys who are fucking the girls i used to stalk...
I have been dealt a bad hand in this life, I will never be normal. I will always have to fight just to be able to wake up before 1 pm. My brain, the most important organ in the human body is sick. it's a pain-inducing machine. But i'm proud for fighting back. I will die like a lion, not a sheep. I will not allow myself to ever rot at home again. I will make friends, create memories and fuck girls. I can't control the outcome but sure i will try.
I'm so sad the first girl didnt want but it's still progress, huge progress. I was fat and rotting at home at some point, now i'm hanging out with hot 20 years olds in my car. And if it's true she has a boyfriend (i doubt it) it means she likes me enough to want to hang out and be seen with me while her boyfriend is waiting for her at home. This is a girl i used to stalk with fake profiles now i'm approaching them and going places with them.
it's a win but sex is important too, it's been a lot since the last time i had sex and i'm becoming weird around attractive girls again, so i need to make sex happen.
Next goal is to get fucking pictures for instagram. Getting pictures of me taken is my biggest fear now and i have to tackle it before moving to the next goal.
This way I was really able to form bonds because now it's not just weekends anymore, I'm meeting them every evening and socializing. yes I have less money but it's the only way i can move forward, the reason I have been delivering pizza for the last 14 years is that I'm a scared little pussy afraid of any change.
I've also realized that perfectionism is my main problem, i'm an overthinker perfectionist who takes no action and the only way to change that is to tackle my goals one at a time.
I've had 5k on my bank account for 6 months and i have been reading used cars reviews for a year, I have realized that it's all part of my perfectionist overthinker mindset so I have decided enough is enough and bought my first car within a week. I've never been happier about a decision.
The day after buying the car i met a hot 20yo i tried to approach multiple times at the tecno club, she remembered me and was so sweet. Asked her if she wanted to hang out and said yes.
We spent the day together eating, drinking and doing other fun stuff. She likes drugs too.
It was an amazing feeling, my first day with a car spent with a hot 20-year-old. And it only happened because i have balls and go after girls. She asked me for my ig but i told her i'm banned for 30 days because i don't have good pictures yet. I took her home and asked her if she wants to hang out again, she said yes but just as friends adding some lame excuses i didn't understand. She also said she had a boyfriend but it can't be true, what kind of boyfriend would be ok with her spending the entire day with me?
I admit i was hurt because i fantasized about her like a bet cuck since meeting her at the tecno club. Now that i'm less butthurt i'm thinking that maybe keeping her as a friend would be a good option, i'm doing all this because i want to become more normie and less autistic.
Thats the goal of this social circle game phase i'm doing, not just pussy but also becoming more of a normal person with friends. And for this goal, having a hot 20 years friend and being seen with her is not exactly a bad thing. At the same time i felt like a cuck when she said no after we spent the entire day together and bought stuff for her.
Another amazing and a bit fucked up experience happened two weekends ago. So i got invited to this mega tecno events. one of the people in my car was the 20yo i used to stalk with the fake profile when i was an incel, how fucked up is this? i used to stalk them now hey're asking me for rides...like i said many times they even made a group.
She clearly remembers me. say what you want, I'm not putting women on a pedestal, but they do remember and notice everything. That change in the face for a split second is all i need to know that she remembers me, but if she asked for a ride it means she's not scared i guess.
To be honest, i consider her extremely beautiful, i couldn't look at her in the face because her beauty is actually intimidating + the fact that i used to stalk her doesn't help. She's into drugs too, you wouldn't tell looking at that angel face with freckles. i would give an arm to have a girl like that. her boyfriend is not better looking then me, but he met her within her circle. I'm trying to not compare and be jealous.
They met when i was at home fighting my own brain and suicidal thoughts. they are on their normal schedule, I'm on the healing and catching-up schedule. But i still ask myself why i've been so insecure and beta all this years now that i'm seeing with my own guys that i'm better looking than most of the guys who are fucking the girls i used to stalk...
I have been dealt a bad hand in this life, I will never be normal. I will always have to fight just to be able to wake up before 1 pm. My brain, the most important organ in the human body is sick. it's a pain-inducing machine. But i'm proud for fighting back. I will die like a lion, not a sheep. I will not allow myself to ever rot at home again. I will make friends, create memories and fuck girls. I can't control the outcome but sure i will try.
I'm so sad the first girl didnt want but it's still progress, huge progress. I was fat and rotting at home at some point, now i'm hanging out with hot 20 years olds in my car. And if it's true she has a boyfriend (i doubt it) it means she likes me enough to want to hang out and be seen with me while her boyfriend is waiting for her at home. This is a girl i used to stalk with fake profiles now i'm approaching them and going places with them.
it's a win but sex is important too, it's been a lot since the last time i had sex and i'm becoming weird around attractive girls again, so i need to make sex happen.
Next goal is to get fucking pictures for instagram. Getting pictures of me taken is my biggest fear now and i have to tackle it before moving to the next goal.
