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- Jan 19, 2021
Bros, I will reply. WORKING AS USUAL.
Loving life tbh.
Hustling all day. I doubt there are Self Improvers who are hustling like me and Paw. This is a hardcore environment. We will also have one of the Greats coming this weekend.....THE DOM.
Sleep, needs to improve. My circadian biology is disrupted atm. I am getting to bed at 930, but it's taking an age to fall asleep. I'll address that, because for me to destroy the game, and succeed, I need to be up at 5 and WORKING.
Looks development right now, is a longer game. I am working hard at it, training, nutrition, rest, lifestyle all on point and optimised.
It's a longer game. It takes a year or two to make drastic physique changes. I think, by the time I leave Budapest, March 1st 2024, I will have added possibly 0.25 points to my SMV through muscular development, as I will have muscle memory working in my favour.
Game, was necessary bros. I was a nice guy and beta cuck. I needed to get fucked over, so, so, so many times until I died and learned Game. I have developed that splinter of ice that has to run through your heart to be a real player. Died inside so many times. Frame comes from that.
One of my bros from Andy's group, truly one of my day 1's who was with me from the start, asked me to write up what I learned from Dante and Pancake. Which I will. I will write it up when I have time, maybe Sunday. I want to serve you, and also, it may help Dante and Pancake, so I will write it all up. But, the most powerful insights at a headline level:
-MASCULINITY: This was the most important take away from the bootcamp. Dante helped me understand, what actually attracts women, and what is universal, beyond game, beyond social conditioning and brain washing, and what will actually save you if you don't have the looks. Masculinity, is given by nature. When you let go of all the shit that has conditioned you, your protection mechanisms, your limitations, and sink into the core that you were born with, within that, the part of you that is unbreakable and will even go on after you die, is where you will find so, so much power. When you find your masculinity, you no longer have the same concerns and fears about being attractive to women. I care a LOT less now, because I know, at my core, I have elite-level value to bring to the world. It's in my masculine strength, conviction, and raw, realness. When you start to connect with your emotions and masculine essence, your words carry such power and emotion. Dante explained how to do this, but I can't of course comment on any of his techniques. I like Dante a lot, and have to protect his identity and his coaching practices.
-Speaking from the core: this changed my entire world in terms of dating, finding my own conviction and strength. Authenticity, realness.
-Calibration: thinking in terms of aligning yourself with being a socially savvy, normal, cool person.
-Man to Woman: way's to escalate, sexualise, and make the interaction properly romantic, making it clear, I want to see if there's a vibe between us
-Finding your power: Digging deep into some of the negative emotions, the dark side of the SMP. Dante, actually has the best working understanding of dating and the SMP I have ever seen. I have learned SO much from Dante, and he is an indispensable resource, ESPECIALLY if you're low SMV. Some people, I suspect, will not be fixable, until they have had their soul destroyed by the Shadow Wolf.
One thing I will say about Dante, is he has a gift. He is not a normal person.
Dante is the most hyper socially aware human being I have ever seen. He has seen it all, and has an uncanny ability to deconstruct, analyse, and see through to your fucking soul.
I cannot tell you how eery that feeling is. I hate it. I had this also one time with The Dom, when he explained to me, my vibe had been poisoned by life. That conversation actually killed me inside. And then, Dante did the finishing steps and just beheaded me once and for all.
And from that death, the next version of my was born................
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Date yesterday. Surprisingly, she was hot. Like, actually hot. I'd give her a 7 in person. Great, big eyes, long flowing hair, great smile/teeth, big boobs, tiny waist, great ass and legs. My ideal height which is 5ft7. I was pleasantly surprised.....
This, is in Budapest, where I am in VERY hostile territory due to my archetype, is quite cool.
My look, Brown-Brown, is a death sentence here. When I am cold approaching, the local men will jeer at me and complain about "fucking foreigners". The girl I banged, lay #11, told me that due to my brown skin and appearance, Hungarian people assume I am a Romani Gypsy. And of course, these people have their own community and live a different lifestyle. I do not care about this stuff as you know. However, it is a killer of outcomes, as the local population are going to see me as a lower form of life. Hence, well, the outcomes I see in this particular location. Very bad reception, and the women would be engaging in quite a radical act of defiance to go on a date with me. Realistically, who is going to do that? Very few, and I do not blame them. It would be like a chick dating a black guy in a KKK infested town. You'd be asking for it
That said, there are some gangster ass women, who, for whatever reason, have the sheer minerals to come on a date with me anyway, and still spend time getting to know me.
Numbers Game.................That is why I preach it.
I do actually like Budapest. I speak to the Hungarian people plenty. I chat to them in the gym, daily, and everyone is cool. In my local coffee shop, I know them all, and they talk to me daily, about business and life. All good. Sometimes, once they hear the British accent, they understand, I am a little different from what they believed.
What was cool about this date, was that as I sat there, I actually felt real attraction.
It was an usual experience. As you know, most of the women I date/sleep with, are about a 4. so lower end of looks.
This was cool. You change over doing the work. I would have been pretty stoked to date girls like that. now I just don't give a fuck. Been fucked over so, so, so many times. I don't care or feel for woman like that anymore.
And I did notice, that those inner changes were what make them respect you more and be more attracted.
At any given second, I could have gotten up and gone home and given NO FUCKS. Women, apart from when I am in front of them doing the work, don't exist to me anymore. They are not in my mind, and not in my heart. You just.....stop caring. And this, I feel, starts to make you more "naturally attractive", that is, without trying as such. You can have the experience of just flowing and saying what you want without thinking. That's cool.
Anyway, she is down for a 2nd date. Sat.
EE girls, are a different breed. Very, very conservative, very non-sexual. This one, is from a village, quite family-oriented, and despite a few of the standard hot girl moves, such as rescheduling 3 times and not giving a fuck, and also making some small attempts at telling me what to do/where to go, which were ripped to absolute oblivion INSTANTLY, and I then tossed her plans in the bin and made her to go where I wanted to go, right away, she understood what she was dealing with. I may not be much, but I am still a man, and fucking demand to be treated like one. She calibrated fast, and after that, was a sweet heart and quite a cutie. She was attentive and quite a good girl. I liked her.
EE girls, are generally less expressive, quite closed up, don't get the humour, and you need to be quite good in the Game to understand how to make this dynamic work.
I'll see what I can do.
Another date, with another gal, on Thursday.
Success, is a lifestyle choice.
Gutting up and doing the f**king work, consistently, with focus, is what changes your life.
Every. Day. Of. Your. Life
MOVING THE F**KING NEEDLE
So, guess what.............
BACK TO WORK
Just you WAIT until I am jacked and I have done botox, fillers, and rhinoplasty.
I will turn this shit around, believe me.
I don't require a lot of lays. I don't really enjoy the sexual side that much. I seek a quality woman to produce children with. The journey, has been disturbing to me. The endless shitty women, low quality, who are not fit to carry my seed, have left me quite jaded and my motivation to date and approach, is of course low.
Success, is when you don't care about motivation or feelings.
You understand what your vision is.
And you get up every f**king day and GRIND in order to move one step closer to that reality.................
__________________________________
MAC LOOKS DEVELOPMENT
I will put together a document and I would like to work on an objective looks rating, and I will start sending that document to surgeons to learn how they can possibly help me
I'll have to hustle hard in biz to pay for this shit, but it has to be done
Here are some pics I took just now before going to the coffee shop
Some good things about my appearance: 6 ft 5, absolutely massive structure from years of powerlifting in my teens/early 20s (squatting 400lbs for reps, deadlifting 500lbs, on that young structure, created a massive frame).
Very broad, wide shoulders.
Facially, simply "meh". Average as fuck. When I was balding, I looked even worse. In London, I was a fucking 3 or 4 in SMV dude. Was brutal but I fought through the savagery and did what I could. Got 9 lays and had a FWB. The average lay was a 4, but I banged one 7, by the sheer grace of God. LMFAO.
If it was not for lay #2, I'd have stopped this madness a long time ago.
Hair transplant, I think added maybe 0.25. Mewwing and the facial changes, I also think added 0.25. My face is square and masculine looking now, as opposed to flat and without tone.
I have worked VERY hard to go from a 2, when I started, to I think a 5 now.
You can read the log to understand the effort to go from a 2 to a 5.
I would like to get to a 6 in 2024, and believe I can do this through muscle, tattoos, and surgical procedures.
Thoughts are appreciated. I will create a full document with body, measurements, the whole lot!
And we can put a proper looks development plan in place for 2024.
Game, I developed and got better. I will keep working on it so as to not regress, but the nice guy is dead, burried and gone. I don't give a fuck anymore and I do not have love in my heart for woman at all anymore. At some point, it will come back. But for now, I am quite icey and cold. Hence, outcomes improving......funny, when you don't care at all about women and dating anymore, and just do it like it's reps in the gym, they actually start to like you. Nuts.
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As you can tell, I think the weak link in my SMV is the face.
After that, it's the body.
Those two things are keeping me in Low SMV territory. A 5, is on a hard path. A 6, is on a better one. A 7, has it made. Just Exist!
MAC
Loving life tbh.
Hustling all day. I doubt there are Self Improvers who are hustling like me and Paw. This is a hardcore environment. We will also have one of the Greats coming this weekend.....THE DOM.
Sleep, needs to improve. My circadian biology is disrupted atm. I am getting to bed at 930, but it's taking an age to fall asleep. I'll address that, because for me to destroy the game, and succeed, I need to be up at 5 and WORKING.
Looks development right now, is a longer game. I am working hard at it, training, nutrition, rest, lifestyle all on point and optimised.
It's a longer game. It takes a year or two to make drastic physique changes. I think, by the time I leave Budapest, March 1st 2024, I will have added possibly 0.25 points to my SMV through muscular development, as I will have muscle memory working in my favour.
Game, was necessary bros. I was a nice guy and beta cuck. I needed to get fucked over, so, so, so many times until I died and learned Game. I have developed that splinter of ice that has to run through your heart to be a real player. Died inside so many times. Frame comes from that.
One of my bros from Andy's group, truly one of my day 1's who was with me from the start, asked me to write up what I learned from Dante and Pancake. Which I will. I will write it up when I have time, maybe Sunday. I want to serve you, and also, it may help Dante and Pancake, so I will write it all up. But, the most powerful insights at a headline level:
-MASCULINITY: This was the most important take away from the bootcamp. Dante helped me understand, what actually attracts women, and what is universal, beyond game, beyond social conditioning and brain washing, and what will actually save you if you don't have the looks. Masculinity, is given by nature. When you let go of all the shit that has conditioned you, your protection mechanisms, your limitations, and sink into the core that you were born with, within that, the part of you that is unbreakable and will even go on after you die, is where you will find so, so much power. When you find your masculinity, you no longer have the same concerns and fears about being attractive to women. I care a LOT less now, because I know, at my core, I have elite-level value to bring to the world. It's in my masculine strength, conviction, and raw, realness. When you start to connect with your emotions and masculine essence, your words carry such power and emotion. Dante explained how to do this, but I can't of course comment on any of his techniques. I like Dante a lot, and have to protect his identity and his coaching practices.
-Speaking from the core: this changed my entire world in terms of dating, finding my own conviction and strength. Authenticity, realness.
-Calibration: thinking in terms of aligning yourself with being a socially savvy, normal, cool person.
-Man to Woman: way's to escalate, sexualise, and make the interaction properly romantic, making it clear, I want to see if there's a vibe between us
-Finding your power: Digging deep into some of the negative emotions, the dark side of the SMP. Dante, actually has the best working understanding of dating and the SMP I have ever seen. I have learned SO much from Dante, and he is an indispensable resource, ESPECIALLY if you're low SMV. Some people, I suspect, will not be fixable, until they have had their soul destroyed by the Shadow Wolf.
One thing I will say about Dante, is he has a gift. He is not a normal person.
Dante is the most hyper socially aware human being I have ever seen. He has seen it all, and has an uncanny ability to deconstruct, analyse, and see through to your fucking soul.
I cannot tell you how eery that feeling is. I hate it. I had this also one time with The Dom, when he explained to me, my vibe had been poisoned by life. That conversation actually killed me inside. And then, Dante did the finishing steps and just beheaded me once and for all.
And from that death, the next version of my was born................
__________________________________
Date yesterday. Surprisingly, she was hot. Like, actually hot. I'd give her a 7 in person. Great, big eyes, long flowing hair, great smile/teeth, big boobs, tiny waist, great ass and legs. My ideal height which is 5ft7. I was pleasantly surprised.....
This, is in Budapest, where I am in VERY hostile territory due to my archetype, is quite cool.
My look, Brown-Brown, is a death sentence here. When I am cold approaching, the local men will jeer at me and complain about "fucking foreigners". The girl I banged, lay #11, told me that due to my brown skin and appearance, Hungarian people assume I am a Romani Gypsy. And of course, these people have their own community and live a different lifestyle. I do not care about this stuff as you know. However, it is a killer of outcomes, as the local population are going to see me as a lower form of life. Hence, well, the outcomes I see in this particular location. Very bad reception, and the women would be engaging in quite a radical act of defiance to go on a date with me. Realistically, who is going to do that? Very few, and I do not blame them. It would be like a chick dating a black guy in a KKK infested town. You'd be asking for it
That said, there are some gangster ass women, who, for whatever reason, have the sheer minerals to come on a date with me anyway, and still spend time getting to know me.
Numbers Game.................That is why I preach it.
I do actually like Budapest. I speak to the Hungarian people plenty. I chat to them in the gym, daily, and everyone is cool. In my local coffee shop, I know them all, and they talk to me daily, about business and life. All good. Sometimes, once they hear the British accent, they understand, I am a little different from what they believed.
What was cool about this date, was that as I sat there, I actually felt real attraction.
It was an usual experience. As you know, most of the women I date/sleep with, are about a 4. so lower end of looks.
This was cool. You change over doing the work. I would have been pretty stoked to date girls like that. now I just don't give a fuck. Been fucked over so, so, so many times. I don't care or feel for woman like that anymore.
And I did notice, that those inner changes were what make them respect you more and be more attracted.
At any given second, I could have gotten up and gone home and given NO FUCKS. Women, apart from when I am in front of them doing the work, don't exist to me anymore. They are not in my mind, and not in my heart. You just.....stop caring. And this, I feel, starts to make you more "naturally attractive", that is, without trying as such. You can have the experience of just flowing and saying what you want without thinking. That's cool.
Anyway, she is down for a 2nd date. Sat.
EE girls, are a different breed. Very, very conservative, very non-sexual. This one, is from a village, quite family-oriented, and despite a few of the standard hot girl moves, such as rescheduling 3 times and not giving a fuck, and also making some small attempts at telling me what to do/where to go, which were ripped to absolute oblivion INSTANTLY, and I then tossed her plans in the bin and made her to go where I wanted to go, right away, she understood what she was dealing with. I may not be much, but I am still a man, and fucking demand to be treated like one. She calibrated fast, and after that, was a sweet heart and quite a cutie. She was attentive and quite a good girl. I liked her.
EE girls, are generally less expressive, quite closed up, don't get the humour, and you need to be quite good in the Game to understand how to make this dynamic work.
I'll see what I can do.
Another date, with another gal, on Thursday.
Success, is a lifestyle choice.
Gutting up and doing the f**king work, consistently, with focus, is what changes your life.
Every. Day. Of. Your. Life
MOVING THE F**KING NEEDLE
So, guess what.............
BACK TO WORK
Just you WAIT until I am jacked and I have done botox, fillers, and rhinoplasty.
I will turn this shit around, believe me.
I don't require a lot of lays. I don't really enjoy the sexual side that much. I seek a quality woman to produce children with. The journey, has been disturbing to me. The endless shitty women, low quality, who are not fit to carry my seed, have left me quite jaded and my motivation to date and approach, is of course low.
Success, is when you don't care about motivation or feelings.
You understand what your vision is.
And you get up every f**king day and GRIND in order to move one step closer to that reality.................
__________________________________
MAC LOOKS DEVELOPMENT
I will put together a document and I would like to work on an objective looks rating, and I will start sending that document to surgeons to learn how they can possibly help me
I'll have to hustle hard in biz to pay for this shit, but it has to be done
Here are some pics I took just now before going to the coffee shop
Some good things about my appearance: 6 ft 5, absolutely massive structure from years of powerlifting in my teens/early 20s (squatting 400lbs for reps, deadlifting 500lbs, on that young structure, created a massive frame).
Very broad, wide shoulders.
Facially, simply "meh". Average as fuck. When I was balding, I looked even worse. In London, I was a fucking 3 or 4 in SMV dude. Was brutal but I fought through the savagery and did what I could. Got 9 lays and had a FWB. The average lay was a 4, but I banged one 7, by the sheer grace of God. LMFAO.
If it was not for lay #2, I'd have stopped this madness a long time ago.
Hair transplant, I think added maybe 0.25. Mewwing and the facial changes, I also think added 0.25. My face is square and masculine looking now, as opposed to flat and without tone.
I have worked VERY hard to go from a 2, when I started, to I think a 5 now.
You can read the log to understand the effort to go from a 2 to a 5.
I would like to get to a 6 in 2024, and believe I can do this through muscle, tattoos, and surgical procedures.
Thoughts are appreciated. I will create a full document with body, measurements, the whole lot!
And we can put a proper looks development plan in place for 2024.
Game, I developed and got better. I will keep working on it so as to not regress, but the nice guy is dead, burried and gone. I don't give a fuck anymore and I do not have love in my heart for woman at all anymore. At some point, it will come back. But for now, I am quite icey and cold. Hence, outcomes improving......funny, when you don't care at all about women and dating anymore, and just do it like it's reps in the gym, they actually start to like you. Nuts.
View attachment 1
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As you can tell, I think the weak link in my SMV is the face.
After that, it's the body.
Those two things are keeping me in Low SMV territory. A 5, is on a hard path. A 6, is on a better one. A 7, has it made. Just Exist!
MAC
getting surgery for gyno I totally understand, it's very different from surgery for the face though
