Day 66 :
Yesterday I told you that I was going to the medecine student party.
Let me do a field report of this crazy night.
As I was deeply inspired by MakingAComeback log's, and his honesty even with his most dark feelings. I'll confess about the blackpills thoughts that I've had along the night.
FIELD REPORT :
The party was set in a nightclub far from downtown. Tbh honest it was the shittiest nightclub I have ever been to. I don't know who handled the lights, but they were too fucking bright & the music wasn't loud enough.
But as I saw students invading the subway literally 10 stops before the nightclub, I didn't complain because I'd hope that it would be a crazy night.
I went to the nightclub with my roommate and one of our friend. Just to set the plot and because it will be relevant after, both of my friends are handsome guys that never had trouble getting laid.
We arrived at the club at midnight, almost sober, we directly headed to the bar to get some drinking and be a little more drunk. Soon after getting 3 shots, we headed to the dance floor. It at this very moment that the blackpills thinking imposed itself in my head. I saw that my 2 handsome friends were getting girls attention, and I didn't get any. I was highly disappointed, sad, and it reflected so much in my body language that my friends notice and asked me if i was ok.
When "dancing" I was only thinking about how I would articulate the today post to rant about my blackpills throughts, which is not the best mental state to be in when you're on the dance floor and even to get girls attention.
Either when i was in this mental state, I still tried to have fun with my friends and spend a good night.
At some point, because i was drunk, i started to have fun with some other drunk student that i didn't knew and without really noticing I ended up dancing with a girl very closelly, and then make-out. bros hear me out even with all negativity and blackpill mindset i ended up makeout with a girl for 10/15minutes. I was astonished and SO PROUD of myself, and she was even a very cute girl with a very nice ass. It was the second time ever that i make out with some gals in a nightclub.
Then i was in some other moods brooos, i felt amazing!
The night continue, with one of my friend we challenged ourselves to push each other to some girl and make out. So he pushes me on another girl and I make out for the second time of the night, lol.
None of my friend despite getting girls attention did any move or makeout tonight, so i was blackpilling myself alone like a dumb fuck, despite being a head smaller than them, I did 2 makeouts without any kind of rejection
To conclude, we were home at 6am and I was at work at 8am, still a little bit drunk, but it was worthy. Also the "legend" says that the medecine parties were the wildest parties, like lot of things in life, it was a lie, it was some very regular student party, but my actions tonight make it very legendary for me.