ash_night
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- Joined
- Jul 9, 2022
"I, Ash, commit to working on my goals and taking myself seriously."
Hi Gents, Im Ash and I live near Bristol UK.
Im 30 and I spent my entire 20's in a remote part of the UK with not a lot going on so i missed out on dating and fooling around with lots of girls during that time of my life (did quite a bit of that in my teens but was young and not developed as a person). I ended up in a toxic relationship for 5 years from age 23 and couldn't bring myself to leave because i had no other viable options. Eventually I found my balls broke up with her and moved back to my home town (near Bristol) went full time with my business making and repairing guitars.
I immediately went into another relationship which also turned toxic and I was basically repeating this pattern, I could feel the same fear of not having options but managed to break it up after only 18 months this time. I keep thinking about the quote "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again and expecting different results" (or something to that effect) and so i have decided I am 100% doing something different this time around. This most recent relationship really got me thinking about what i really want out of life, as follows:
Dating/relationships/sex:
-enjoy my 30s being non-monogamous
-learn to approach women I find attractive, i prefer slim blonds
-get over myself, start to dissolve some layers of ego
-gain sexual abundance
-find a sense of confidence that I have options and can always find another woman
-social freedom
-AA program
Business
-create a full time comfortable income from making high end guitars
-stop doing income only activities (that i don't enjoy)
-increase my output to 12 guitars per year
-make/sell a £10k guitar
-expand my shop
-take on an apprentice
Fitness
-keep up current regimen, 5 or 6 day crossfit
-stick to current low carb diet
-keep alcohol to bare minimum, possible full sobriety (pretty much there already)
-gain muscle
-reach 10% body fat (currently around 15%)
Anyway probably missed some stuff but that's generally me. Over and out
Ash
Hi Gents, Im Ash and I live near Bristol UK.
Im 30 and I spent my entire 20's in a remote part of the UK with not a lot going on so i missed out on dating and fooling around with lots of girls during that time of my life (did quite a bit of that in my teens but was young and not developed as a person). I ended up in a toxic relationship for 5 years from age 23 and couldn't bring myself to leave because i had no other viable options. Eventually I found my balls broke up with her and moved back to my home town (near Bristol) went full time with my business making and repairing guitars.
I immediately went into another relationship which also turned toxic and I was basically repeating this pattern, I could feel the same fear of not having options but managed to break it up after only 18 months this time. I keep thinking about the quote "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again and expecting different results" (or something to that effect) and so i have decided I am 100% doing something different this time around. This most recent relationship really got me thinking about what i really want out of life, as follows:
Dating/relationships/sex:
-enjoy my 30s being non-monogamous
-learn to approach women I find attractive, i prefer slim blonds
-get over myself, start to dissolve some layers of ego
-gain sexual abundance
-find a sense of confidence that I have options and can always find another woman
-social freedom
-AA program
Business
-create a full time comfortable income from making high end guitars
-stop doing income only activities (that i don't enjoy)
-increase my output to 12 guitars per year
-make/sell a £10k guitar
-expand my shop
-take on an apprentice
Fitness
-keep up current regimen, 5 or 6 day crossfit
-stick to current low carb diet
-keep alcohol to bare minimum, possible full sobriety (pretty much there already)
-gain muscle
-reach 10% body fat (currently around 15%)
Anyway probably missed some stuff but that's generally me. Over and out
Ash