YEAR 3: THE IRONWILL PROJECT: MONEY, MUSCLES, MINDSET - FROM NOTHING TO SOMETHING, MY RELENTLESS JOURNEY

[Radical]

Really getting your grooming more on point lately

Besides the weight you can see the old you didnt give a fuck about his appearance and presentation the way you do now

 

[kratjeuh]

You are still not at ideal bodyfat and already have solid facial features.

You will reach a certain level of appearance where your race won’t knock you down on points and then your results will skyrocket. Hard work is paying off boss

 

[MakingAComeback]

I am regaining my mental energy and slept fine last night. Still not 100% right, will need another day to be on point again.

WEEKLY PHYSIQUE UPDATES

BW: 189.1 LBS (Started @ 197.9)


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Notes:

See how much stretch marks I have? And there's even some loose skin. I will start dermapen use on this, which will cause the skin to heal, I am doing OMAD which s great for loose skin and stuff, it enables autophagy to take place and for the body to cosume the dead tissue and protein. I am applying coconut oil to the entire body twice a day as part of the next project and I will resolve this issue. I only have a small ammount anyway, and having watched videos of worse cases than mine on YouTube, people resolved their skin looseness post weight loss or child birth very effectively through measures like dermapen use (micro inflammation, causes the body to fight back and respond with healing, it triggers the tissue wound healing effect).

I am sure I will be able to make myself attractive and desirable.

I feel sad that I will have some bad stretch marks and a tiny bit of loose skin to deal with. But I am a determined man and I will fix this. I will take measures and we will review each month for efficacy. If, when I am shredded, we have only been able to make modest improvements to the stretch marks and loose skin, I'll get a surgeon to fix it.

All will be ok.

I will reply to you all, mentally I am still recovering from the move and missed sleep for the last 2 weeks when I was freaking out. I am not right yet.

 

[AskTheDom]

I feel sad that I will have some bad stretch marks and a tiny bit of loose skin to deal with. But I am a determined man and I will fix this. I will take measures and we will review each month for efficacy. If, when I am shredded, we have only been able to make modest improvements to the stretch marks and loose skin, I'll get a surgeon to fix it.

Or you can get sick tattoos to cover them - don't focus too much on this as it's irrelevant as now

 

[MakingAComeback]

For sure, tats would be great for this also, I like this idea G

Will put it out my mind for now and keep training

I will update this document every week for a full year and cant wait for us to scroll through and witness a great transformation

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Hm_J0oMlQiUIXmHfh8W58NjoTTQAePxZiAYcUmvdbEI/edit?usp=sharing

Ravi

 

[Bman]

MakingAComeback

How long have you been cutting/ eating lower calorie?

How many calories are you eating each day?

I ask these because you seem to be at a plateau. If you have been cutting for a very long time, say a few to several months, your body and metabolism has adapted to the new calorie amount. This means in order to lose more weight, you will have to eat even less calories but that is unsustainable. It will also not help you build muscle, which is essential for metabolism.

My advice is to give your body a rest from being in a catabolic state, shift to anabolic state, and speed up you metabolism. This can be achieved by doing a mini bulk for about 3-4 weeks, where you will eat 300-500 calories above maintenance. During this time continue to go to the gym. You will speed up your metabolism and build muscle. Your body will adapt to the new calorie amount and expect that much food coming in. After the 4 weeks, cut the 300-500 calories out. As this point your metabolism will burn faster, which should help you break your plateau.

Repeat at the next plateau.

So for example, if you are currently eating 1800 calories and your maintenance is 2200 calories, dropping to 1500 or less as a male is unsustainable and will be poor for your health. So instead I would rather see you go to 2500-2800 calories for a few weeks. Then cut back to 2200 calories.

Then when your next plateau hits, you mini bulk to 2800 to 3000 calories, and cut back down to 2400 calories.

You can see that with each cycle youre training your body to be able to burn more calories. This is helpful because when you cut you don't have to go to unsustainable levels.

As a comparison, I eat about 2800 to 3000 calories now for maintenance. If I wanted to slightly cut I could drop to 2500. If I wanted to rapidly cut I could go to 2200.

It may seem crazy to eat more calories to lose weight, but your body thinks it's starving when you have been cutting for too long. It's built to be very efficient with energy, so it adapts quickly.

If you'd like to learn more from some professional trainers about this, I highly recommend Mind Pump Fitness. I'll drop a couple videos for when I'm back from my trip and can use my laptop.

Just want to see you succeed.

 

[Manganiello]

Best thing you can say honestly.


Hmm ya man, admire the honesty.
I mean watching you and Sherwyn really does challenge the normal simple advice given to guys.


Curious about this tho:



So you had 100 dates?
How many pulls?
And then 9 lays from that?

Hey man, great seeing you again. How have you been?

Yeah but that's OK man. That advice works for most people. 95% of guys here WILL find success just following Andy and Radical advice. Thats a good thing man.

Sadly for guys who are not what women want it is a different story. But that's life sometimes. It's a bummer and to tell you the truth I don't think I will ever get over it. Until I am dead I will just keep trying man. It will probably be a very exhausting and combative life and I will have to resist this until the end. There is no other option

Yes. 9 lays from online dating. 1 was nice, the others were not good.

Pulls, I'd say 4 pulls outside the 9 lays which didn't convert or go anywhere.

There's a lot that I'd like to write here. But I think the most useful thing I can write is instead an actionable question: where are we meeting up in 2023? Let me know the closest major city to you if you don't travel. If you do travel, let's go somewhere new.

If you'd like to expand on why I'm proposing that, it'd be largely my comments on the quoted section above.

Hey Roger, good to see you here. You used to post in my log when I was obese and it's great to see you here again.

I would be happy to meet up. I am currently in London, but will leave here tomorrow. Thereafter, I'll be heading back to my parents for a while to be honest with you to focus on business and body. I will probably cold approach, though there's no volume out there, and will come to London regularly to see my friends. I will keep working hard as humanly possible and possibly my life will get better if I am able to find a solution.

It would be great to meet you and get to know you more. I see you're in Germany? I've visited many times and really like Germany a lot, my best friend Dave was born there and we have done a lot of travel and tourism there exploring his roots.

You're welcome to expand on this if you wish, but you don't have to, I've met tonnes of guys from here and some of my close friends I met from this forum.

Ravi

Life isnt too bad.

I just got my VIN (visa number) to go to Korea. So I'll probably be in Asia in about 3-4 weeks. I'm gonna post a detailed update on my log in a bit.

Slowly getting out of game hibernation.


...

But as far as everything you're talking about goes. Im sure both you and colgate have tried. But I'm going to reaffirm this. You guys need to get a mentor who has *had* similar challenges as you.... And then got over them.

And then on top of that, you can't accept obstacles. Have an intolerance to not knowing exactly what to do to solve a problem you have.

If It is looks, if that is the issue, great. Cuz you have a clear problem to work on

But... Again. I'd take 2 brown guys advice who were shit with women and now slays, over a consensus of 50 guys with 100+ lays for your situation (honestly).

Mentors are great but if they're inexperienced to the problems you yourself are working through they're advice won't be the best..

They know their territory, gotta make sure they know yours as well.

 

[NeverSayNeverAgain]

Hey MAC,

I started reading some of your posts. I can see you've been at this a while, so for reference I've read your first post (where its clear you have made some major progress) and the last page or so. I say this in case I'm missing something.

I get a real negative feeling and outlook from reading your posts. You mention that you're starting late and wish you found all this in your mid 20s. While it would have been a benefit, the key thing is positioning yourself for hitting you peak by your mid 30s. As long as you do that you will find everything comes easy and is fun. You still have plenty of time and you should stop worrying that you started too late.

Secondly, I see that you're super dedicated to getting into shape. That's great, some of your previous posts imply that you might end up falling into gymcel territory. You don't need to drop everything else to achieve your goal, it helps to have a focus but you don't need to go too extreme. Looking at your profile picture, I cant imagine that you're not getting results as you are currently (I think you're at 9 lifetime lays at this point, all in the last 2 years?) From where you were this is a huge positive. You mentioned that the best girl you are picking up is around a 4, just so I can get a baseline of the 3 girls posted below, can you say out of 10 what you think they are? These are just some I pulled from instagram:

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I just want to see how your 4 compares to my 4 before going deeper on that point.

Hey Tucker!

The man behind the brand, thank you for dropping by - I watch your videos in YouTube and they REALLY HELP

You make a good point, and it's true. In my slight defense, if I may for a brief second, the recent posts were negative as I was going through a bit of a low - I had around 6 dates in a row that didn't convert in my "chase" for the final lay and coupled with the fact I move out today, and am back to my parents, it weighed upon my mind greatly that I have a hard time getting attraction and the lays all men seek, it is quite the struggle but as you may have noticed I am totally dedicated.

The lays started in Jan 2022. Prior to that I was just losing my weight, improving my head.

I used to flat out refuse to even install dating apps, to take pictures, to cold approach, I used to just focus on weight loss but the more I worked, the more the weight came off, everyone here pushed me and then I signed up with Andy's group coaching and my life just took off - I got on the dating apps, started approaching (I used to get the train to London every weekend and approach for 8-10hrs, then head home, sometimes I'd shell out for a hotel just to approach as much as possible). I signed up for the forum March 2021 and worked like a demon, until Nov 2021 when everyone knew I was dead ass serious and success was the only option so my head coach Radical pushed me to move out of my parents house. I came to Kingston upon Thames for a month first, in Oct in an AirBNB, and approached a lot. I did some in person style consulting with Radical and then did another professional photoshoot after losing more weight. Rags2Bitches helped me get my dating profiles from getting 0 matches to getting a bunch and then we were off to the races.

~100 dates and they were necessary man. I was a dateless virgin. But you need to know that all of this explosive growth happened between Jan-Dec 2022. I did so much.

I consider this to have been an elite red shirt year, and that is from a brown guy in a Tier 1 city (London). I forged something unstoppable and now the animal has been let out the cage.

I want to give you this background because you've not seen the whole story.

I also need to be transparent, I AM GETTING RESULTS, I just want to find women I am genuinely attracted to. Here is the breakdown of my lays & their rating:

1) 4 (my first lay in Jan 2022, she was very fat, but had a super pretty face and was a lovely human, total doll)
2) 7.5 (yup, crazy, she was the one who gave me the fire and I have never gotten over her, think about her daily and dream for it to happen again)
3) 4
4) 5 (she walked 5 miles to come straight to crib, insane bosnian vegan - the above 3 girls I banged within 13 days, after a dry spell from jan to april)
5) 5 (My old FWB, great body, butters face, but an amazing soul and she healed me a lot)
6) 4
7) 4
8) 6 (she was quite cute but truly insane, actual sociopath, forced me to cum inside her with no condom)
9) 6 (recently, this tiny 5ft3 girl, she had a fetish - she was cute, but a little chubby which I don't like but she def. gets a 6)

As such - the average was a 5. I apologise for my statement that the average was a 4.

Re. the girls above:

The ladies who're slim and lovely are super attractive to me. I'd be very excited to date or explore sex with them.

The 2nd chick is quite fat and has a butters face. She's a 4 to me,

The rest I'd give high 6.75, the last girl I'd say is an easy 7.5.

MAC

First two are not my type, but I would say all 4 of those chicks are above average compared to what I’m seeing out and about these days. For example just walking around a shopping mall a couple weekends ago, more than half the women (even in the 18-35 age group) were less attractive and/or fatter than those 4. The way you rated them, if all nine of your girls were at least 4 and no less attractive than the second girl in the lineup, I would say you are getting above average quality . Certainly, I understand you want better. Personally I don’t think the second girl is too fat as long as she doesn’t have belly fat (can’t tell). Reading your log about all the fatties and “chonkers” ( love that word!), I was thinking more along the lines of the girls pictured in these types of articles
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2066060/British-women-fattest-Europe-quarter-classed-obese.html
And, yes, attractive girls (like 3 and 4 in that lineup and perhaps even 1 and 2) will have dozens of options including guys offering to fly them to places like Dubai just to meet. There is even a dating site called Miss Travel that caters to that dynamic.

Also, perhaps surprisingly, even chonkers of the type featured in the daily mail article are able to get laid on apps with less difficulty than one would think. I learned this when my girlfriends friend from the East Coast, who is at least 100lbs overweight, came to visit - and she was lining up tinder dates with local guys left and right. Her problem was she couldn’t find a quality guy for a boyfriend. Anyway I am looking forward to reading about you slaying slim hotties in 2023!

 

[seanconneryfan_]

Atta boy, I'm super super glad to hear that manly and I got through to you about mindset. I was losing hope.

A fundamental part of this journey is a point when you realize your reality is literally what you make it. That's why when you respond to me with black pill text, I just scoff and don't read it. You chose what you think about and the things you think about all day define who you are. If you think about being a loser who sucks because the universe says so, then you will be that. Anybody here who has went through a genuine transformation into an awesome life sees your black pill stuff and laughs because we know it's your fear and nothing more.

Mindset is no joke. Gym and having goals are nice but mindset is what takes that gumbo and makes it a 5 star meal that everybody wants to take a bite from.

 

[Thrice]

The 2nd chick is quite fat and has a butters face. She's a 4 to me,

That girl is very normal, what you consider 4 is a 6, if it's like that the girls you're getting are not that bad... I thought you were really getting 4's

This is aa real 4

I remember when you said you asked the girl to do something together, like moving to another bar or something, and she visibly cringed, your mental strength in incredible man, i would have snapped, woman can be truly disgusting sometimes, they're so "sophisticated" that they don't even control their facial expressions

The fact that your still pushing forward after all this pain is something out of this world, and you're still nice too, that's admirable

 

[MakingAComeback]

LETS GET IT

Life's fuckin good, smashing it, working 12hrs a day on my biz. Gym is getting crushed. Been non stop busy.

Did an interview with my boy Joe check it out

https://youtu.be/JJ3AnecJqxI

This video talks about my journey with accountability, why I started this biz, and reflects on the things I learned from this forum and my coaching w/ Andy & Radical

It's purely self improvement related and about my story w/ starting working with people

Back to the hustle now. Gym shortly. OMAD.

Spent 16hrs with my mentor on Tuesday running around LDN and learning a fuck tonne. Seeing him again on boxing day, will drive down, spend the day, and then he's off to Cabo. Dude is a G, he just came back to LDN after 3 months in a mansion in the Holywood Hills.

One day, I will be there too.

NOW TO FUCKIN GRING LIKE A DEMON

I will get back on the forum properly. I think the Phoenix Project is about wrapped up. I am in a small down now it's dead. But will cold approach and hustle on the apps. 3-4months Ill be more attractive and do new photos.

RogerRoger I've been working 12-16hrs a day on biz, but I want to get to know you so I'm gonna text you today and will arrange a call ASAP

Rav

 

[MakingAComeback]

The 2nd chick is quite fat and has a butters face. She's a 4 to me,

That girl is very normal, what you consider 4 is a 6, if it's like that the girls you're getting are not that bad... I thought you were really getting 4's

This is aa real 4

I remember when you said you asked the girl to do something together, like moving to another bar or something, and she visibly cringed, your mental strength in incredible man, i would have snapped, woman can be truly disgusting sometimes, they're so "sophisticated" that they don't even control their facial expressions

The fact that your still pushing forward after all this pain is something out of this world, and you're still nice too, that's admirable

That was on a date, haha, I liked her she was really cute. I just said, lets go for a walk together sometime. She looked at me with total disgust and cringed as if she was about to be sick,

That's nothing.

There were 30-50 texts from girls saying "no connection", "no sparks", "no romantic interest"

There were 500-700 approaches which simply ignored me (unless I do the hardcore LDN front stop, women refuse to talk, I actually have to physically block them lol)

Endless night game approaches, didn't get past hi, wouldn't give me the time of day - took 10hrs to get 1 makeout

It was a total grind this year and all of this is NECESSARY

The subconscious is the problem, the trauma, the pain

It MUST be broken down and I used to write it out here, and process the insane pain I was feeling

It was like this day in, day out, for months and it was basically hell itself, stress levels were 13 out of 10, I thought I was gonna legit just die

And with relentlessness....I healed.

Now I am living my life

It's all a head game, man.

This is one dragon you will have to slay.

The only way to slay this dragon is FACE IT HEAD ON

The pain is inevitable, I told people here I want to quit probaby 10 times

There is no option to quit. We here persist. Until we win.

Victory is the woman of my dreams, who will give me what I want - children.

And I will get that.

You too will gather what you seek

Ravi

 

[MakingAComeback]

The new project will be unveiled soon and I will start a new thread.........

Actions for today:

ACCOUNTABILITY: FRIDAY 21/12/2022
1) Content: 3 FB / 5 Tweet / 5 IG Stories
2) Mega Post: Trim / Split into 3 / Blast across all groups identified by
3) Study: Read Twitter Book (1 to 2hrs) & Read Ace The Game (1 to 2hrs)

Others:
-Avatar/Profile Pic Critical Thinking: Make it funny, schedule shoot w/ Dave (my friend)
-Mega Post: All ALL people who engage (like, comment, etc) & once they accept slide in Dms and say hi
-Public Talks Action Plan Dev: Will be doing talks in LDN 2-3x a month, I'll just invite friends, passers by, anyone. Will get an intern or volunteer to record it all and slap it on my socials.

Elite brand coming.

MAC DADDY

 

[MakingAComeback]

ANY REAL GRINDERS WHO WANNA WORK ON BIZ GOALS?

Get in touch. All welcome, but its KYIL principles for this. Join my group chat.

-Go hard, action focused
-No whining, posiivity and brotherhood
-Respect for each other and HELP each other as brothers

I post all my hustle every single day, as I am blasting this shit.

Gym too. Basically this is a GRIND CHAT.

But.....

Rule is you have to be active or you get kicked & banned for life.

No pussys, lazy people who don't work brutally hard will be kicked, but we can still be friends - I just need to be around killers (like me) or I go cuck-coo.

Thats how you win.

MAC

 

[AskTheDom]

unless I do the hardcore LDN front stop, women refuse to talk, I actually have to physically block them lol)

Don't forget your approach was probably one of the worst ones i've seen in years of seeing guys in the streets - the rapid ambush approach

 

[MILFandCookies]

Did an interview with my boy Joe check it out

https://youtu.be/JJ3AnecJqxI

This video talks about my journey with accountability, why I started this biz, and reflects on the things I learned from this forum and my coaching w/ Andy & Radical

It's purely self improvement related and about my story w/ starting working with people

Was a blast to chat with you mate. You've got some good tips to share, and you've learned the hard way which means it's a deeper lesson.

Onwards and upwards.

(for those who don't know it, I'm Joe)

 

[Thrice]

Gym too. Basically this is a GRIND CHAT.

i can be interested, i created a group with Red and colgate and it's working very well, i didn't believe it can work so well thats why the first version i had mind was more hardcore and punishing, Colgate said we don't need to be that strict and it will work and ended up working

 

[Radical]

The legend continues....

 

[MakingAComeback]

CHECK IN FROM THE GOD FATHER OF GRINDING

I FUCKING TRAINED TWICEE YESTERDAY ON CHRISTMAS EYE

SAT DOWN TODAY WITH MY FAMILY CELEBRATED CHRISTMAS, NO CARBS, JUST PROTEIN AND FAT, STAYED KETO BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!

BLASTED HUSTLE ON MY BIZ, READ BOOKS, STUDIED GREATNESS, WENT FOR A 2HR WALK AND LISTENED TO EXCELLENT BIZ ADVICE AND GOT NEW IDEAS

NEVER STOP GROWING. EVERY SECOND YOU HAVE IN LIFE PUT YOUR ENTIRE FOCUS ON DEDICATION TO BEING THE BEST HUMAN BEING YOU CAN BE

I BELIEVE IN ONE THING: RAVI

I BELIEVED IN THIS FUCKING GUY RAVI WHEN THE WHOLE WORLD TURNED THEIR BACK ON HIM

ALL MY FUCKING FRIENDS DESERTED ME WHEN I WAS 25 BECAUSE I BECAME ANXIOUS, OBESE AND A LOSER. THEY TOLD ME, RAVI, YOU'RE NOT WELL - WE DON'T WANNA BE AROUND YOU ANYMORE.

I WAS SAT UNEMPLOYED IN MY PARENTS HOUSE FOR 2 FUCKIN YEARS WITH EXTREME ANXIETY AND HEALTH PROBLEMS

-INSOMNIA
-AGOROPHOBIA
-SOCIAL ANXETY
-GENERALISED ANXIETY
-PHOBIAS
-OBSESSIONS
-BRAIN FOG
-CHRONIC FATIGUE SYNDROME (I WAS TOO TIRED TO LEAVE MY BED AND EVEN TO TALK, ONE SENTENCE AT A TIME)
-EXTREME LOW SELF ESTEEM AND SELF HATRED
-DATELESS, KISSLESS, VIRGIN AND DEEPLY HURT BY IT
-PHYSICAL PAIN: SLIPPED DISC L4/L5, UNABLE TO EVEN TRAIN IN THE GYM

EVERYONE WROTE ME OFF

EVERYONE LAUGHED AT ME, REJECTED ME, TOLD ME TO JUST GIVE UP

"YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LOSE ALL THAT, MAN"

"YOU'VE BEEN ANXIOUS FOR YEARS, YOU SAID YOU'D RECOVER, THE MEDICATION DIDN'T WORK FOR YOU, YOU AREN'T GOING TO BE OK MAN"

NOBODY HELPED ME

NOBODY HAD MY BACK

I WAS ALONE IN THE BOTTOM OF THE DARKEST DUNGEON OF ALL TIME

I TRIED EVERY DAY, 16HRS A DAY, TO RECOVER FROM MY ANXIETY

I FUCKING DID IT ALL

READ THIS SHIT

https://killyourinnerloser.com/forums/viewtopic.php?p=16875#p16875

I HAD NOTHING, WAS NOTHING, AND EVERY DAY, I LIVED IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN

I TRULY BELIEVED I WAS GODS MISTAKE, HE CREATED ME AS A SICK JOKE, JUST TO WATCH ME SUFFER

I WATCHED EVERYBODY IN MY LIFE GET WHAT I WANTED. I WATCHED EVERYONE GET CAREER, GIRLFRIENDS, AND MOVE ON WITH THEIR LIFE

I WATCHED MY FRIENDS GET MARRIED

I WATCHED EVERYONE SURPASS ME WHILST I WAS FAT, SICK, AND ALMOST DEAD, TOO ANXIOUS TO EVEN SURVIVE WITHIN THE HELL THAT WAS MY LIFE FOR EVEN ONE SECOND

EVERY GIRL I EVER ASKED OUT REJECTED ME

I APPROCHED 2000 GIRLS AND NEVER GOT EVEN ONE TEXT

I USED ONLINE DATING FOR 4 YEARS AND NEVER GOT ONE MESSAGE

I TOOK 3 RSD BOOTCAMPS AND THEY LAUGHED ME OUT THE ROOM AND REJECTED ME, NO ONE WANTED TO KNOW ME, NO ONE WOULD TEXT ME OR GO OUT WITH ME WHEN I STOOD UP AND TOLD THE GROUP, HEY GUYS, I AM A VIRGIN, THAT WAS IT - THEY SAW ME AS A LEPER AND THAT WAS ME DONE IN THEIR EYES

SO MANY TIMES I CRIED

SO MANY TIMES I PRAYED TO GOD TO GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO JUST FIND A WAY

I SCOURED THE DAMN EARTH TO JUST FIND A WAY, SOMEWAY, SOMEH0W

I READ ANDY'S OLD THREAD ON GLL SO MANY TIMES, SO, SO, SO MANY TIMES JUST DREAMING THAT MAYBE ONE DAY I COULD ALSO BE SOMETHING RATHER THAN NOTHING

EVERY DAY FOR FUCKING YEARS I GOT UP AND PICTURES MY DREAM LIFE EVERY FUCKING MINUTE OF THE DAY

I LOOKED LIKE THIS

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NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE PAIN I LIVED IN EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE

I WAS SO DEEPLY ASHAMED OF MYSELF

"RAVI, YOU ARE TRULY A MONSTER, YOU ARE ONE OF THE UGLIEST PEOPLE WHO HAS EVER WALKED THIS EARTH, NO WOMAN WILL EVER LOVE YOU, AND YOU WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO SHIT"

SOMETIMES I WAS SO SICK I WAS NEAR DEATH

I WAS ADMITTED TO A CRISIS INTERVENTION TEAM AND ALMOST DIED

I WAS TRULY SICK AND MY BODY, MIND, AND ENTIRE BEING WAS COMPLETELY

COMPLETELY

COMPLETELY FUCKING DESTROYED

EVERYTHING WAS ASH

.....APART FROM ONE THING

I HAD ONE THING LEFT

AND THAT WAS FORCE OF WILL

MY FORCE OF WILL WAS REDUCED TO JUST A TINY, TINY FLICKERING CANDLE

BUT I STILL HAD THAT LEFT

"PLEASE GOD DO NOT LET ME DIE LIKE THIS, PLEASE DO NOT LET ME GO OUT LIKE THIS, YOU CANNOT ALLOW ME TO HAVE COME TO THIS WORLD AND LET MY FAMILY DOWN, LET MY COMMUNITY DOWN, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, LET MYSELF DOWN"

"JUST DON'T LET ME DIE BEFORE I HAVE ONE DAY WITHOUT ANXIETY"

"PLEASE LET ME JUST HAVE ONE DATE IN MY LIFE BEFORE YOU CLAIM ME"

THERE WAS NO STRENGTH LEFT, BUT WHAT I DID HAVE, WAS THE FINAL FREEDOM ALL HUMANS HAVE IN THIS WORLD?

WILL I GO OUT A VICTIM, AND LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE A PIECE OF SHIT?

....OR WILL I FUCKING OUT WORK GODS PLAN AND DIE TRYING TO BECOME THE DAMN BEST HUMAN BEING I CAN POSSIBLY BE

THERE IS NOT ENOUGH FUCKING TIME IN THE DAY TO EVEN FUCKING BEGIN TO TALK ABOUT THE DEDICATION I PUT INTO MY LIFE

JUST TO SURVIVE AND NOT DIE WAS 4HRS BREATHWORK A DAY, YOGA, SUNRISE WATCHING, SUNSET WATCHING, EARTHING, SUPPLEMENTS, EXERCISE, SPINE REHAB FOR 4HRS A DAY, ANXIETY RECOVERY VIA OPERANT CONDITIONING AND DAY STRUCTURE

JUST TO BE A NORMAL FUNCTIONING HUMAN AND NOT BE DEAD WAS 16HRS A DAY FOR FUCKING 4 DAMN YEARS

JUST TO GET BACK INTO WORK WAS INHUMAN LEVEL GRINDING - AND THEN I GOT 4 PROMOTIONS AND ENDED UP 1 DOWN FROM THE CEO!

JUST TO LOSE 86LBS LIKE I DID WAS TRULY GOD TIER GRINDING SUSTAINED OVER FUCKIN YEARS

JUST TO GET TO THIS FORUM WAS FUCKING CLIMBING MOUNT EVEREST AND YOU NEVER SAW THAT

JUST TO GET ANDY AS MY COACH

JUST TO FUCKING START ONLINE DATING (NO MATCHES AND DATES FOR THE FIRST 5 MONTHS, READ THIS)



JUST TO BE ABLE TO APPROACH A GIRL WITHOUT MY DEMONS CONSUMING ME AND CAUSING ME SLEEPNESS NIGHTS FOR 3 WEEKS PUSHING ME TO THE LIMITS OF MY FUCKING SANITY WAS A UNBELIEVABLE ACHIEVEMENT

JUST TO FUCKING LOSE MY VIRGINITY AND GET MY FIRST LAY AT 30 YEARS OLD

JUST TO GO ALL IN, MOVE TO LONDON, DEVELOP MYSELF AND COMPLETE THE PHOENIX PROJECT

TO HAVE ACTUALLY PULLED THIS SHIT OFF AND NOW HAVE STARTED MY BUSINESS,, IRON WILL ACCOUNTABILITY COACHING

JUST TO FUCKING BE SAT HERE TYPING THIS MESSAGE

I OUTWORKED GODS PLAN

GOD PLACED THE CRUCIBLE BEFORE ME

THE GAUNTLET OF GAUNTLETS

I HAVE BEEN IN THE SELF IMPROVEMENT SPACE FOR 12 YEARS, MOST OF THAT, LURKING. I TRIED TO FIND JUST ONE CASE LIKE MINE SO I COULD FIND SOME SORT OF INSPIRATION THAT I TOO COULD MAKE IT, COMING FROM THE FUCKING HELL THAT I CAME.

THAT CASE, I DID FIND. THAT WAS ACTUALLY ANDY.

THE LEVEL OF WORK I PUT INTO MYSELF, AND CONTINUE TO PUT INTO MYSELF, EVERY FREAKIN DAY OF MY LIFE, REALLY IS SOMETHING I'VE RARELY SEEN

I KNOW THERE IS A PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE

I KNOW THERE IS A PLAN FOR ME TO BECOME SOMEBODY IN THIS WORLD

BECAUSE IF I CAN PULL THIS FUCKING SHIT OFF COMING FROM THE HELL I CAME AND BECOME ONE OF THE BEST GUYS ON PLANET EARTH

THEN ANYBODY, AND I MEAN ANYBODY WHO IS ABLE TO JUST DRAW AIR IS CAPABLE OF OVERCOMING ANY OBSTACLE

-FINAL TAKE HOME MESSAGE FOR ALL MY UNDERDOGS, THE FORGOTTEN PEOPLE, MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHO WERE TOLD THEY CAN'T, WHO WERE DISCARDED BY THE WORLD AND TRAMPLED UNDERFOOT, LEFT ALONE TO ROT AND PERISH

YOU ARE THE REASON I GRIND SO HARD EVERY. FUCKING. DAY. OF MY LIFE

YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION, MY STRENGTH, MY ENERGY

YOU ARE WHAT GIVE ME SO MUCH POWER

MY TRUTH TO YOU IS THIS:

NOBODY IN THIS LIFE IS TRULY DEFEATED

NO MATTER HOW STRONG THE OPPONENT BEFORE YOU IS

NOBODY IS EVER TRULY DEFEATED, UNTIL DEFEAT HAS BEEN ACCEPTED AS REALITY IN THE MIND AND THE HEART

BECAUSE AT THE LOWEST MOMENT OF MY DAMN LIFE, I OUTRIGHT REFUSED TO ACCEPT DEFEAT, I WAS ABLE TO GATHER THE STRENGTH TO DO THE IMPOSSIBLE AND MAKE A COME BACK IN THIS LIFE

THE OPPONENT HAD BEATEN ME TO DAMN NEAR ONE INCH OF MY LIFE

IT WAS THE FINAL ROUND OF A 14 ROUND FIGHT

EVERYONE IN THE STADIUM TOLD ME TO THROW IN THE TOWEL

AND THAT AS THE MOMENT I FOUND A BURIED TREASURE INSIDE MYSELF

THAT TREASURE WAS THE GIFT OF DRIVE

AND THOUGH THE OPPONENT WAS SO STRONG, IT DIDNT KNOW THE WARRIOR SPIRIT I HAD

I DEALT THE KNOCKOUT BLOW TO THE OPPONENT AND WON THE WHOLE DAMN FIGNT IN THE FINAL SECONDS OF THE BOUT

I NOW KNOW BEYOND ANY SHADOW OF A DOUBT GREATNESS IS POSSIBLE FOR THE UNDERDOG IN LIFE

......THEY JUST NEED TO DEVELOP THE ABILITY TO TRULY, TRULY, AND I MEAN FUCKING TRULY GRIND

MAC'S FINAL MESSAGE OF THE YEAR FOR THE FORUM

KEEP FUCKING HAMMERING

MAC DADDY

MAC WEEKLY BODY PROGRESS

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MEASUREMENTS (Goal meausrements in brackets)

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LET'S GO BROTHER.