colgate / bulldog
Member
- Joined
- Aug 5, 2021
- Goal
- BANG!! japanese chicks!
- Age
- 27
- Motto
- consistency. acceptance. tumescence.
- Location
- tokyo, japan
so the share house i moved in...happens to be full of players!!!
well there's one girl who's like a huge book nerd, but the other 2 are foreigner players who go out to the freaking bars and clubs and pull chicks
i was talking with them this morning, and one of them pulled a girl last night from a bar and told us the story in the common area
after that, i was walking down the street to get some food, ruminating on why i'm not that guy yet.
why am i so disabled by my brain
why do i enjoy staying inside my head more than interacting with people
why the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i not be "that guy who is just totally chill and vibes with people" and i have to be this neurotic hyper-energetic spaz when i do feel good
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO DUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW TO BE CHILL????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
CHILL GUYS ALWAYS WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've seen it so often in my life, you can be some skinnyfat dork or some lard boy, but if you have that "cool, chill vibe" it like cancels everything out somehow
WHERE'S THE STRUCTURED PLAN TO BECOMING CHILL????????????
WE HAVE IT FOR LIFTING AND GETTING JACKED
WE HAVE IT FOR GETTING OVER APPROACH ANXIETY
WE HAVE IT FOR LEARNING A LANGUAGE
WE LITERALLY HAVE IT FOR EVERYTHING EXCEPT HAVING NORMAL BEHAVIORS WHEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me when i'm around new people:
quiet, antsy, tries to avoid saying anything, meekly asks a few questions here and there, tries to figure out how to leave the interaction without making it a big deal
me when i'm around people i'm comfortable with:
LOUD, OBNOXIOUS, HYPER, RANTS ON AND ON ABOUT WHATEVER THE FUCK
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need the sweet spot of vibe
the sweet spot of chill
give me the ice cream
well there's one girl who's like a huge book nerd, but the other 2 are foreigner players who go out to the freaking bars and clubs and pull chicks
i was talking with them this morning, and one of them pulled a girl last night from a bar and told us the story in the common area
after that, i was walking down the street to get some food, ruminating on why i'm not that guy yet.
why am i so disabled by my brain
why do i enjoy staying inside my head more than interacting with people
why the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i not be "that guy who is just totally chill and vibes with people" and i have to be this neurotic hyper-energetic spaz when i do feel good
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO DUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW TO BE CHILL????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
CHILL GUYS ALWAYS WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've seen it so often in my life, you can be some skinnyfat dork or some lard boy, but if you have that "cool, chill vibe" it like cancels everything out somehow
WHERE'S THE STRUCTURED PLAN TO BECOMING CHILL????????????
WE HAVE IT FOR LIFTING AND GETTING JACKED
WE HAVE IT FOR GETTING OVER APPROACH ANXIETY
WE HAVE IT FOR LEARNING A LANGUAGE
WE LITERALLY HAVE IT FOR EVERYTHING EXCEPT HAVING NORMAL BEHAVIORS WHEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me when i'm around new people:
quiet, antsy, tries to avoid saying anything, meekly asks a few questions here and there, tries to figure out how to leave the interaction without making it a big deal
me when i'm around people i'm comfortable with:
LOUD, OBNOXIOUS, HYPER, RANTS ON AND ON ABOUT WHATEVER THE FUCK
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need the sweet spot of vibe
the sweet spot of chill
give me the ice cream