Self Improver
Self-Improvement Advocate
- Joined
- Jan 19, 2021
- Goal
- Inner Game
- Age
- 33
- Location
- UK
GREAT
jakeD said:i'm the boss and she does whatever the fuck i want / tell her" bullshit. Literally zero wrong with having a gf and loving and caring about her btw if that's your choice for now.
colgate said:hi, i'm going to drop a single line of advice to myself for 2024, after reading mark manson's "the subtle art of not giving a f*ck"
you must take responsibility for everything that has happened to you, including and especially if it was not your fault
Spider Jerusalem said:The knock-on effects of this were Fucking horrendous. I couldn't train in anything and was wasting money on gym and BJJ memberships every month. My mental health took a right dive as I couldn't walk and be social outside. I felt trapped in my own house. My health anxiety skyrocketed as I'm not good with hospitals and medical tests. It put a lot of stress and strain on my family. I was Fucking broke too as I couldn't start work.
colgate said:but that doesn't matter because, i have landed a job in japan, without any english at a role that supposedly required the N1, with probably a 5 year visa, and potentially could be eligible for permanent residence in 2026.
colgate said:
this feels like my duty in life. i'm going to end up exactly what brought me to feel like a loser in the first place if i do my version of hedonism for a prolonged period of time again. and my version is just endlessly browsing the internet. not even porn or social media, just random websites and blogs.Zug said:You do it because its part of your routine to live your best life.
colgate said:TIME TO EVOLVE BITCHES!!!
Yup. And now that you have had the experience of having an attractive gf, you have the (1) confidence and (2) experience with women to make progress and realizations you couldn't have back in 2021. Keep working hard but know that you are now in a much more prepared place than you were several years agocolgate said:thanks for the responses guys!
@Zug i was honestly hoping you would have a word on my post. underrated and I don't know why my OP has more thanks than your post lol
this feels like my duty in life. i'm going to end up exactly what brought me to feel like a loser in the first place if i do my version of hedonism for a prolonged period of time again. and my version is just endlessly browsing the internet. not even porn or social media, just random websites and blogs.Zug said:You do it because its part of your routine to live your best life.
my brain is honestly deluding me into feeling accomplished so i don't have to evolve. because evolving is scary and means you have to suck.
easier to embrace the suck when all you know is sucking. but what if you don't suck anymore? now you need to you have to get off your high horse and let it stampede all over your ego. and start sucking again. then maybe, just maybe, the equine gods will reward you with the enriching experiences you desire when you least expect it
honestly up until now i was playing not to lose. and now i have definitely Not Lost. i don't think i've ever wanted to chase being a winner. but maybe that's why the name of the site changed. winner within isn't the message i wanted to hear but perhaps needed to hear. because playing not to lose isn't the path to a fulfilling life, it's the path to the purgatory i put myself into. hey but at least it's not hell! pfft...
perhaps no longer should i be living for myself, but rather for discovering how i can provide value to people. i mean if i'm so much of a not-loser normie now, then i should be putting the yen where my mouth is right.
one thing is for certain. i fucking HATE!!!!!1!!111 that my default hobby and vice is endless internet browsing. adds no value to myself nor others, yet i succumb to it time and time again. only when i have a clear vision and purpose do i find myself free from its chains.
my default hobby will be TALKING TO HOT CHICKS!!! because that's what i want to do. when i am talking to hot chicks i feel maximally aligned with my values. my values are finding enriching life experiences, sharing them with the world, and showing the light on how others can too. the fact that it's painful now will only pay off a sweeter reward in the end. i have firsthand experience of that, anyone can read my log for proof.
speaking of talking to hot chicks...
i met up with a guy from the approach group @Toast is in. gonna call that the gaijin approach group.
dude felt like me from 2021 tbh. he was just pinballing the station for real. he got some contacts too. he was like "yeah i suck but how else am i supposed to get better" i reminisced on the approach sessions i had with @lacroix in austin back in november 2021. felt like i swapped places with him, as someone who now has Gotten The Sex a couple of times.
i myself did 10 approaches and got a little bit of a convo with a chick.
what was stopping me from doing more and sticking into sets was that "i forgot how to convo"
common tactics such as "treat her like your gf" and "monologue like a guy in her world" are easier said than done. would be great if i already had "the OK" to just act exactly how i want to, and have plenty of random and stimulating topics that'll open her up.
except i don't need her OK. and i already have topics, I'm just too scared to dive in so i get amnesia on the approach about who i even am.
advice from the gaijin approach group was that i need to go through a phase of finding out what these jappo chicks are about firsthand. of course i can watch trending YouTube videos and follow social media or whatever but the best way is to dig deep firsthand. incorrectly cold read, genuinely ask why she made the fashion choices she did, dig down into what she does in her free time.
i gotta be dora the explorer on these chicks. except the japanese version. i'm already brown enough to do it lol
TIME TO EVOLVE BITCHES!!!