DAY 25 :
It's been 2 crazy days, I got wasted twice. Tbh I know this behaviour is kinda toxic, but once in a bluemoon I like to be drunk af on the dancefloor not caring for the next day. But don't worry, I'm no alcoholic, I never drink on a daily basis or something.
I know it's not new year resolutions. But I'm actually at a turning point in my life. I add my last exam on Friday. I own my school to do an internship until September, then I will be a real adult lmao. a Mechanical engineer.
Reflection on the past 4 years :
I've been in this uni since 2017, I spend a lot of time there, and I regret a lot of things. Because of the comfort I've got with my ex-gf I never invested my self into the campus life.
So during the 1st and 2nd year I was doing nothing, just study and watchin' netflix dumb shit with her.
3rd year, I went to Erasmus in Poland, this shit was wild, the best moment of my life. Still got my eyes wet when thinking about this part of my life. Then covid hit us, we spend few months in total lock-down, I kinda liked it at first it made me reflect a lot on my life, I read a lot. But covid also hit when I was truly ready to have a real social life. Too bad.
4th and 5th year: All the campus life have been put on hold since. We did a few parties at the uni club, but that's all... I'm really sad I think I wasted my uni time.
Don't get me wrong I've made friends, I'm in a group of a few really solid guys, and we all got each other back. What stress me is actually the fact that I'll not be surrounded by peoples of my age 24/7. I'm afraid that I won't make new friends. I'm afraid that my life will be fucking boring.
But that's a good thing, I'm so afraid to have a boring life, that I cannot not grind. I can't see myself behind a screen doing a job I hate for 40years. The fear is driving me and motivate me, idk if it's healthy tho.
I've got a few options in my head :
-Continue studies into a phD 'cause I research, I think it's my favourite field or engineering
-Double master in business engineering, I don't like business, but I can do a lot of shit for good money (11k€ for a year)
-Double master specialization in Welding, (6k€ for a year)
-Get the fuck out there and find a job abroad in some sunny place (Florida, Mexico, or some relax south-east Asian country)
So what's the plan until September ?
-Gym on a PPLPP split every lunch break, I'll do my exact workout plan on Monday when I'll see how's the gym near my work.
-Slight calories surplus for continuing gaining that mass.
-When I'm at work they barely ask me anything so I'm free on internet almost all day, I'll use that time to dig down into crypto market, side hustle, and reading some pdf.
-So cause gym and research would have been down earlier in the day, all my late afternoon and evening can be spent : socializing, taking pics for OLD, fucking girls...
I'm excited and stressed at the same time by my new life.
Monday back to the real grind
