Day 42b: YOU’RE CUTE, NAME, HANDSHAKE, TIME + DIRECTIONS
Total: 15 girls (20/20 girls)
Decided to go to the city for some street approaches, since it was the weekend of St. Patrick's Day, everybody was out walking. I did some other days as a redo before these drills so I definitely had social momentum prior to these sets of drills. I felt sluggish going into the city but I decided to meditate for 10 minutes prior to jumping out of my car, this just gave me a burst of energy and I felt cocky. Cocky-ness is something that I'm starting to feel, I'm starting to feel like a fuckboy because this shit is just fucking badass, this is every man's dream. Every man's dream to just go up to any hot girl and to shoot your shot, still the doubts of if this is the right thing to do kept creeping up on me. I would constantly think about how my "friends" "acquaintances" meet girls, am I just unlucky? Do I have to be an extrovert? Why can't I just be an extrovert? These were the thoughts rumbling in my head. While driving in the city, stopped at a traffic light I rolled down my window to tell a girl that she was cute. She laughed and smiled, I felt very instinctual today giving into my masculine desires which have been repressed for some time. Carl Jung has the a theory talking about how the things you hate the most in other people are actually your repressed desires, it makes sense the ego is meant to protect us and the ego is on constant surveillance to look out for threats. This is why I am doing this program because I want to see my other side, the shadow side, fuck it we all die once and I view self-improvement as a wholistic journey of the human self. Sex was just one of those deficiencies and the story of having no sex is so ingrained that I have that fucking nice guy syndrome. Onto the drills. Got to the parking lot and immediately got in there on a girl that was walking towards me below a bridge, said the opener but she walked right past me laughing. I didn't feel anything compared to yesterday, the fight-or-flight was so high yesterday. The first proper rep was on a girls within a group of her friends, walked only to her and said the opener plus the handshake, she said she had a bf but that it was nice meeting me. As I walked away my fucking shoulders were just strong as shit, I felt badass as fuck especially since I did it in front of friends. As I left her I could hear her friends screaming in an excitement tone which just gave me more confidence. Next rep, can't remember. Really was just a blur since I attempted about 25-30 girls, but notable interactions including one rep where I approached a girl who kept saying she a bf that was inside the restaurant they were at, she I didn't give a fuck and demanded a handshake and the time. "Just give me the damn time" I said being persistent as she said she had a bf about 5 fucking times. There was a rep where the girl was sitting down at an outside bar with her friends and I just lunged over the table, pointing at her saying you're cute. She laughed, along with her friends. I'm starting to love approaching groups of girls because they always get excited and gas me up, I shouldn't care about the reactions but it's just something I'm starting to notice. Another rep was pretty hilarious as walked up to a girl that was jumping out of her Uber lol, literally seconds after she jumps out the first thing she sees is me. Very receptive girl, she really wanted to talk to me but nope denied. This is an important day in the program because this felt like a formal introduction compared to the rest of Week 6 where it just felt like "cat-calling" I guess or being the gay guy best friend that tries to make friends with random girls. But a huge day for me after the terrible day of 42a.
https://youtu.be/yS6YAe1mFEA
Day 43a: HI-FIVE, YOU’RE CUTE + NAME, HANDSHAKE
Total: 2 girls (2/21 girls)
Managed to knock out 2 reps on girls that were screaming at each other to go to a bar and I just slid myself in there to both of them to get the reps in.