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Rottweilers' Log

The rude girls may seem mean at first. But after wasting 15-20 minutes just talking to a girl to have it go nowhere you'll apprciate the early rejection. Hurts initially but saves lots of time.

Its a problem with them not you. I know thats not something your running into yet but it will happen. Don't take it personally. Keep up the good work.

Lonely_Rottweiler said:
Whoa, MAMA- This woman looked like she was waiting for someone, She wore a brown shirt that showed her HUGE cleavage, And she had huge hips. I asked for some directions and went my way.
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Lul sounds like you like them thick girls. I prefer shape >>>>>> Size but to each is his own. After you see those thick girls take their clothes off a couple times you'll see what I mean.
 
Jacobpalmer123 said:
Its a problem with them not you. I know thats not something your running into yet but it will happen. Don't take it personally. Keep up the good work.
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I know one day, I will run into a woman who is having a bad day, But it's only life. Thanks for the heads up!

Jacobpalmer123 said:
Lul sounds like you like them thick girls. I prefer shape >>>>>> Size but to each is his own. After you see those thick girls take their clothes off a couple times you'll see what I mean.
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OOOHHH MAN, that's what I'm counting on! hahaha

Brothers

I'm surprised that I don't feel pain in my legs after what I did yesterday. I'd probably mass cold approach weekly now,

Today, I will prepare for my date tomorrow, we're just going to a cafe. She doesn't feel like she's the type to have casual sex, so maybe I'll drop some hints or just try again the next date if tomorrow goes well. She's very cute and upbeat, I met her when she was trying to sell me insurance and I was just flirting with her the entire time haha

So one of my artworks was recognized and I got some awards. can't exchange them for anything, but I'm quite proud of that. It's only now that people are complimenting something that I had done

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Brothers

My date yesterday was rough, I didn't know what I was doing, and I flirted too hard. I may have scared her.

But if I was to focus on the positive, I made her laugh quite a few times. And I made her blush a few separate times (?). She was so cute! I know that I was going for it too hard. But I didn't know what else to do, and she was shy during the entire date and, unfortunately, me too. I spewed conversation after conversation because I was scared of her being uncomfortable with my silence.

I had to question myself on a lot of things while I was with her, "Do I really want to get laid or am I just starving for connection?", "is my city not conducive to one-night stands, and do I need to go to the capital city for a date to work out?". I don't think a second date is guaranteed. Our night ended when I walked her near the area of her house and separated ways.

I came home, and I felt so down and tired. In a moment of weakness, I browsed some escort sites on the internet, and I relapsed. Some fucked shit happens in my brain when things don't go right. This particular time, A part of my brain thinks that escorts are the only people I deserve because my relationships in the past never worked.

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Some progress logs on my fitness. No abs but a significant change (?)


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I do have to keep grinding more.
 
Brothers

Stress and bad dates won't stop me. But I do feel tired lately,
I'm afraid of slowing down because I might stop and revert to my old lazy self.

But here's a poem:

There was a man
Who misses his ex,
Wishes to be Peter Pan
And have lots of sex

I used to make poems back in high school, I'm thinking of writing a poem book, I'm just doing everything to not be idle

The second has animation been rendered!
https://youtu.be/Jnah4Ui3crw
 
Brothers!!

How are you all doing?

I've decided to look for side jobs online. And as an artist on the internet. I see that the popular artworks are usually something I would not be proud of, i.e., r34 content. Thankfully, I'm not basic. So I will strive to improve my art to such a point that it will look like my art is my main job.

Third animation! it's not a perfect loop, but it's something I'm proud of:
https://youtu.be/-CKNz6MLYos
Day 17
 
Congratz !!! You deserved it so much !

I'm very happy for you bro !
 
Brothers

Thank you very much Lord Rey! I still can't believe I'm done with architecture. Now I have to find a mentor for my apprenticeship, and I have more opportunities to meet new people!

I am still looking for a side hustle while I'm still not a professional. So, I made a mission to out-hustle the hentai artists, And I feel like I have stumbled into something. I don't know yet what to do with it, but it feels interesting.



And I'm meeting a new girl this Thursday, This girl shows no face on her profile, it's a bit risky but, Hopefully, it all goes well :lol:
 
Brothers

Today I got my graduation picture taken. It still needs to be developed for three days which is a bummer. I'm just glad I'll be graduating.

My approach log for today:

Striped girl: I asked what to do to have a graduation picture taken, but she also didn't know

Milk-tea woman: A new milk-tea shop was opened near my sister's dental clinic. No people were inside, so I got my lunch and ordered a cup there. I spoke to the lady about how they were starting and planned to expand their menu without cooking because of building policies. I don't know. So I was spouting ideas at her like schools near the building need healthier menus. So I suggested some vegetable-based food along with their milk tea. I could've suggested a healthy pizza recipe. She has a boyfriend, so I didn't try to flirt. I wished her well and endorsed the place to my sister.

Graduating nursing student: I don't know how I managed to extend the conversation with her. It was just one spontaneous topic after another. I guess it helps that the line for the graduation picture was very long, and I was with all kinds of people. This particular woman was pretty. We were standing there and talking about everything; it felt like we were just old friends meeting each other again.

My fellow architecture classmate: She needed to fix her graduation photo since her toga didn't match our department. Before the pandemic, I was very shy around her since I was intimidated by how she dressed, i.e., in a short skirt. But now, I could hold a conversation, although my eyes did drop a few times on her cleavage. I forgot I wasn't on the internet.

My sister's co-worker: She was beyond tired she has been working on her patient for six hours, I bought food and we talked while sharing stories. I feels awkward to escalate/ flirt with her, since she is my sister's coworker/ friend. So I just focused on a wholesome conversation.

Other interactions: New therapist, and a lady handing out flyers to passersby

Brothers, I feel as though I could never make my parents proud. I could never make them happy. They could never support my life choices; everything they say is the only thing I should follow. They'll always criticize how I dress, the food I eat, the people I hang out with, the women I date, and Probably other things I don't know. Typical asian thing, but I just wish it wasn't.

I'm going to meet a girl today, She seems very open and DTF(?) . Hopefully, She is the Imy to my Andy. My only problem is that she doesn't share a picture of her face on the internet. I'm very desperate for friends here in my city, and I'm afraid of having another girlfriend because I might get clingy or that I might hurt her. I could be substituting my loneliness for wanton sex.

I'm working on getting better sleep.

https://youtu.be/82IjgUKBlx0
Day 20
 
Lonely_Rottweiler

Good work on the approaches and working on the social skills

Lonely_Rottweiler said:
Brothers, I feel as though I could never make my parents proud. I could never make them happy. They could never support my life choices; everything they say is the only thing I should follow. They'll always criticize how I dress, the food I eat, the people I hang out with, the women I date, and Probably other things I don't know. Typical asian thing, but I just wish it wasn't.
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I've faced similar to this in my life. Criticise, criticise, criticise. Particularly from my Father, so know you aren't alone on that one. Best thing to do is do you. I can imagine your parents were probably faced with the same when they were young and maybe even rebelled (even if they won't admit it to you).

Good luck with it and keep on pushing
 
Brothers

Thanks Spider Jerusalem
I have a lot of respect for my parents. I just can't help to feel discouraged when they don't support me with the things I want.

I have good news and bad news

LAY count 1:

I met this girl in an ad. She didn't post her face on the ad. I was skeptical but went through with meeting her. I wasn't sure why I did it. I guess I just wanted to hang out with someone. She is very petite with long hair. When we met I sat beside her because we talked for a few minutes. I learned that she is an intelligent nursing college student, very smart, with an above-average GWAGWA; she is an athlete in badminton and basketball, and very freaky. She was touching my knee the entire time in the cafe. I was expecting it to go like all the dates I had before. I was expecting us to talk, have dinner and go home.

We decided to fool around; we did the best we could without a condom, like dry-humping with our underwear, and hair-pulling; she tried to bite me but her braces hurt. And I got a blowjob from her. She's very kinky. We finished each other off before we went home.

Good news:
-I got laid
-She's kinky
-I didn't get catfished. She's not a vampire, a thief, or a communist from the internet

Bad news
-I cried after sex
-I didn't bring any rubber. So no penetration. But I did get an oral
-Okay, my biggest issue was that I couldn't feel anything on my penis. I thought maybe it was the stress, the way I use the bathmate, jelquing, PED, or masturbation. I just know that I can't feel anything with my penis. I'm scared I may have permanently damaged my penis. Every time I have to finish with a woman, I need to jerk off hard.
-I have this huge guilt when I was with her, I couldn't focus on what we were doing

I'm not sure what to feel from this. maybe conflicted.

 
Lonely_Rottweiler said:
Thanks @Spider Jerusalem
I have a lot of respect for my parents. I just can't help to feel discouraged when they don't support me with the things I want.
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You can still have respect for someone and disagree with them at the same time. Just know that it's probably coming from a place of love from them and not spite. Took me many years to realise that, but it gets a lot easier once you accept it. Being your own man isn't disrespectful. It's just the nature of the game sometimes. People fear and question what they don't understand and everybody has an opinion on what the 'right way' of doing things is. Long as you stay true to yourself and follow your heart, I don't think you'll go wrong.
Lonely_Rottweiler said:
Good news:
-I got laid
-She's kinky
-I didn't get catfished. She's not a vampire, a thief, or a communist from the internet

Congratulations on the Lay - here's hoping it's the first of many for you. I got to 10 in the space of 255 Days and I started off rocky with my attitude towards women and a very negative mindset.

Lol 'vampire, thief or communist from the internet' - this cracked me up!

Bad news
-I cried after sex
-I didn't bring any rubber. So no penetration. But I did get an oral
-Okay, my biggest issue was that I couldn't feel anything on my penis. I thought maybe it was the stress, the way I use the bathmate, jelquing, PED, or masturbation. I just know that I can't feel anything with my penis. I'm scared I may have permanently damaged my penis. Every time I have to finish with a woman, I need to jerk off hard.
-I have this huge guilt when I was with her, I couldn't focus on what we were doing
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Don't worry about crying after sex. I think in today's society, sex is made out to be not a big deal and just something that happens. If you ask me it's quite a powerful thing and emotions are always involved with it as you're connecting with another human being on a different level. I've had a couple of girls get emotional with me after we've slept together. Sometimes it just happens.

I think you should take this as a learning experience from seeing what you've put:

As for no rubber, go prepared next time with a pack and you'll be sound

With the lack of sensation and PIED, I would advise you try No-Fap and giving up porn. Needing to jerk off hard is a sign that you're probably going a little too much with the porn and the fapping. I've been there and I'm trying to cut down.

Have you considered Sildenafil? (Viagra). You can purchase it quite cheap from an online pharmacy if it's the generic non-Pfizer brand. I take it whenever I'm with a girl to give me that extra boost and it really works as I've struggled with porn-induced E.D in the past.

I recently gave advice to Holden not too long ago on how to use it and what to take, although I'd advise you do your own research and consult with your doctor. It's been a game changer for me and I know Andy takes it recreationally on occasion which helps give him that edge.

Let me know if you want some advice on dosing etc. as I've tried all 3 strengths they tend to come in and can give you a bit of personal advice on it.

Good work and hang in there my man - look forward to reading about Lay number 2

Spider
 
Thank you Spider Jerusalem I hope you get well soon!

Spider Jerusalem said:
You can still have respect for someone and disagree with them at the same time. Just know that it's probably coming from a place of love from them and not spite. Took me many years to realise that, but it gets a lot easier once you accept it. Being your own man isn't disrespectful. It's just the nature of the game sometimes. People fear and question what they don't understand and everybody has an opinion on what the 'right way' of doing things is. Long as you stay true to yourself and follow your heart, I don't think you'll go wrong.
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Man, I haven't really seen that from their point of view. I really want to show them that I can be independent, but they wouldn't let me. I suppose I need to assure them that this lifestyle I'm trying to make is something that I hope my family will be proud of soon. Thank you for letting me know what my parents are doing from a different perspective.

Spider Jerusalem said:
Don't worry about crying after sex. I think in today's society, sex is made out to be not a big deal and just something that happens. If you ask me it's quite a powerful thing and emotions are always involved with it as you're connecting with another human being on a different level. I've had a couple of girls get emotional with me after we've slept together. Sometimes it just happens.
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It was quite powerful, but again It felt awkward using two bodily fluids in one evening

Spider Jerusalem said:
With the lack of sensation and PIED, I would advise you try No-Fap and giving up porn. Needing to jerk off hard is a sign that you're probably going a little too much with the porn and the fapping. I've been there and I'm trying to cut down.

Have you considered Sildenafil? (Viagra). You can purchase it quite cheap from an online pharmacy if it's the generic non-Pfizer brand. I take it whenever I'm with a girl to give me that extra boost and it really works as I've struggled with porn-induced E.D in the past.

I recently gave advice to @Holden not too long ago on how to use it and what to take, although I'd advise you do your own research and consult with your doctor. It's been a game changer for me and I know Andy takes it recreationally on occasion which helps give him that edge.

Let me know if you want some advice on dosing etc. as I've tried all 3 strengths they tend to come in and can give you a bit of personal advice on it.
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Thank you so much for your advice brother, I have been cutting down on my porn, so I think the next step is to stop watching it. As for the viagra, I'm gonna consult a doctor about that one.

Spider Jerusalem said:
Good work and hang in there my man - look forward to reading about Lay number 2
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Me too!
 
Brothers

I'm currently writing this log at 2am in the morning, just came from the club... First time in a club like that.

My ears feel numb, my stomach feels warm and my head feels like I will regret some life choices in the morning, and that was still my first ten minutes in the club. I'm currently sleeping in the house of my cousins. Also my first time, sleeping in my cousins house. I'm going to hear a lot from my parents in the morning.

Approach Log:
Crop top girl: She was dancing hard, and I had no way of catching her attention, seeing no other option I danced as hard as I could, I was trying hard to nae nae and dougie, I felt so irrelevant. After the dance we introduced ourselves, she was grinding/ lap dancing other girls.

Some honorable mentions. People from another table from my cousins table. A Thai transgender introducing herself.

Brothers, Here are some issues I have with myself last week:
-There are too many celebrations, too many food. I have been going over my cals. And dammit. I gained .6kg in one week. I have been very inconsistent I should work on building my momentum again this week.

-The girl I met with my lay #1 is teasing me while I'm at work. I don't know how to tell her that I can't feel anything on my penis. Though it might turn her on that I'm just a dildo with legs to her

-I don't know how to build my portfolio. I'm good at making stupid models. Professional house/interior models not so much.
 
Brothers!

I just came from my graduation ceremony! I didn't think I'd get this far.

I forgot to log in yesterday, but the woman with whom I had my lay #1 is a chill lady. Let's call her Annie. Annie has been teasing me relentlessly through chat. I had to calm down before going up to the stage for our graduation practice. Annie told me she wanted to have another go with me, and I asked her if she wanted to have an FWB situation with me, and she was enthusiastic about the idea.

Annie came from a toxic relationship and wanted sex as a stress reliever without the emotional baggage that usually comes from an intimate relationship. I'm quite scared of how freaky she is, and I'm still unsure how I will tell her about the issue with my penis.

 
Brothers

My sister is currently positive for covid, and I wasn't feeling particularly well today, so I had to take a break from my workout. But hopefully, we're all good the next week. Just a few days' rests will fix us again.

And I made more art, but you know, something that I can use for my internship portfolio,

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Plan: Genital Rehab
Intention:
I don't want to make a big deal about this, but it bothers me that I can't feel anything when a lady wants to be with me on the bed. I don't want to be a dildo with legs, and I don't want to pretend to enjoy sex when I know I can't feel her touch.

Plan:
I was searching for things to fix my genital sensitivity. One of the things that came up was low testosterone. To fix that is to:
-Get better sleep
-Less stress
-Better diet;
-and Exercise

And also, stop gripping so hard. I have hidden/ thrown out my penis-enhancing equipment, e.i. Bathmate, Proextender, etc. I'm afraid of going to the doctor about this. And I don't want this to occupy my life.

Action:
*No more porn, Find a more testicle-friendly activity.
*No more hard grip fapping.
*Eat healthier. I might consider going over my daily calorie intake(?).
*Discuss this with the partner or a close friend.
 
Lonely_Rottweiler said:
I'm afraid of going to the doctor about this.
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Every minute you agonize about it without telling a doctor could have been another minute the doctor could have helped you solve the problem.

At least that's what I think. Do make a special request to keep it confidential with them, but I think they will be anyway.
 
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