Bros,
My life is just too mental right now.
It got, absurdly chaotic.
Give you an example:
Tattoo Girl, Sat, we did a date, we chatted, and then, she made it clear she wants to wait a LONG time before sex (years). We ended it there. She have zero fucks. No change in emotion or affect. I dipped. We ran into each other 2hrs later, she walked up and chatted to me. She was nice. Neither of us cared.
I then approached a few girls. One exchanged, and agreed to see me that night. She then agreed to see me Monday night (today).
She ghosted Sunday onwards.
So, she didn't confirm today.
I got up, did some work. Hustled. Hung out with The Dom, worked on my laptop.
I then went for a 30m break. During this, I saw a pretty girl.
Approached her, chatted. We vibe. She's free, so we grab a coffee.
Insta Date.
Bounce to another location, vibe more. Bounce elsewhere, keep connecting. She's holding my hand and walking around with me, I'm very physical, touching her arms, hands, legs.
We're having fun.
Head to the bridge. Then, try to escalate a bit more. Touch her ass. She stops, looks at me, and says "thats a bit bold". I say, "well, you do have a nice ass". Shes a dance teacher so has great ass/legs.
I pitch we go to mine, listen to music, and she show me some dance.
She heads to mine.
She is quite a pleasant chick to chill with, she has some funny mannerisms.
I am physical with her and sinking into the energy.
Pull to my room.
Slowly escalating, taking it slow, and really feeling it out.
There doesnt feel like a sexual vibe, but we hug, get more touchy, more intimate.
She is ok with me kissing her neck.
She lets me touch her ass a bit more. Not that much.
We hug a bit.
I end up throwing her on my bed.
Immediately, she says, "I won't be getting intimate with you".
I just ignore and slowly escalate, pull off and go totally cold, then escalate.
Go for the kiss, she denies. I pull off a bit, escalate again, go for kiss again, she still denies.
I then flop back and kinda go cold.
She then really tries to get my attention again, which I give her.
But.....despite pushing for a third time, I get nowhere.
I call her out, and ask her to show some trust. She gives me some bs. I push back.
I then just call her TF out.
There is total rage in her eyes.
I have been on 20+ dates now with no sex, and I know this is another one, so I give no fucks. She looks into my eyes with total anger, and all she is met with, is power that is so much stronger than hers ever will be. She cannot move me even an inch. The fire in her eyes, is put out, within a few seconds.
She then, seems to like me more. We're laying on bed together, and she's just feeling my body and stuff. And I'm feeling hers.
She won't escalate, at ALL.
And I then give her an ultimatum. She tells me, she will leave.
I agree. Get up, tell her to go.
She says she wants to stay in touch with me, which I tell her won't be happening. She says, ok, but I want to leave my details for you, so they are there if you ever want them.
She finds a sheet of paper on my desk, and writes her IG, and also writes, "Trust is a two way street".
All of this, was a fun vibe, there was no bad energy, on the way out, we have each other a long, deep hug, and she left with a smile on her face.
She liked me a lot better when I started to push back against her bullshit. Interesting.
The gal, was a complicated one. She had self harm scars, all the way up both arms, and both legs. Really deep scars, from tonnes of cutting. She's had laser treatment on them, tatood over them, but they remain.....
I loved this experience and felt the progress I made. Sat, I got cucked by Tattoo Girl. I got another number, which agreed to date Mon, and ghosted. When this other girl ghosted, I went into the streets, and from approach, to having this girl on my bed with me, was about 3hrs.
Great.
I then jump in the ice bath for 10m.
And then, my friends arrive. And we head out for dinner.
I get back at 10pm ish.
And no fucking work was done.
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My life has become chaos.
And it is destroying my progress.
I am going monk mode.
I will work biz 10-12hr a day. Train very very hard on my body. And Ill day game for 1hr daily, and work on the apps.
But nothing else is taking place.
Nada.
All fat being trimmed.
I am taking a break from my moderation duties on the forum, and am locking my thread.
I must WORK ON MY MISSION IN THIS WORLD.
Which is to prove my damn point: that it is possible to go from nothing to something.
So, time for me to WORK, and I mean, truly WORK.
I will be back in a month or so, bros, and I will be a better and more successful man.
KEEP HAMMERING
MAC DADDY