JAN 2022: MAC THOUGHTS (PHOENIX PROJECT WEEK 9 WRAPUP VLOG TOMORROW)
RECHARGE WEEKEND
Woke up to a text from Danish girl saying she is planning a trip for us to head to a museum next Sat, and she has invited me for a ‘movie night’ around her place. I think I’m getting laid, lol.
I blocked the lady who was only interested in a platonic meeting between us next Sat, and also, a girl from Latam has agreed to a date on Sat, but given that is a totally cold lead, she is not going to make the cut and I am going to see Danish girl and have an amazing time with her. I will potentially see this other chick for a coffee on the Sunday after.
Couple of my London dudes asked if we’re doing anything. Need to relax this weekend. I have been going FULL OUT, NON STOP for weeks now, with not a fuckin MINUTE off!
This weekend, I am recalibrating.
I am taking the advice I have been given across the board to heart and actioning it.
Andy put some good coaching to me, which I reflected on, considered, and am now moving to action for myself.
Because I won’t be approaching this weekend, and didn’t have any dates, I am using it as an opportunity to come spend time with family and unwind. To see my parents and bro and just chill for 48hrs, reading, being effective, but letting my brain and body cool off.
Also I don’t have to spend a penny for 48hrs, which can be nice lol.
MAC THOUGHTS: ONLINE DATING
Online dating began to improve for me since getting the shots done. Tinder legit died for some reason and I am back at 0 matches for boosts, but Hinge and Bumble improved. On both apps, the quality of matches improved, their receptiveness and effort they put into messages, the whole lot. It is clear – I have made myself more attractive as a man.
I am enjoying this, and it brings with it new parts of the experience.
I am picker now, and even when girls are quite receptive, messaging back and fourth, and clearly fair interested, when it comes to using the script, I am just clear that I am looking for casual right now. That tends to screen out most women. But there is the odd chick who is still down to see me, and what I have right now is enough for them to consider casually. I got 2 numbers this week on my online dating hustle, and that is through several hours of daily effort. They still are, admittedly, quite obese, but one of them is still very pretty. Interestingly enough she is 6 ft 3. 2 inches shorter than me!
One girl re-arranged a date, and the other, a rather bland 40 year old, agreed to talk on the phone, but came up with excuses on two occasions. So thanked her, blocked her, and moved on.
I had an interesting experience of women who I’d matched with before on other apps, matching with me on Bumble with my current pics and the tone and receptiveness changed a lot…...lol
To crack a shot at women who are more in the average to above average range of appearance, there is a lot of ground I still need to cover…….I have started taking a Turkesteron supplement, and will keep working hard on my body and explore anything else I can do in order to looksmaxxx.
I do recall talking to Timmy about this one time, and he did mention, if weight loss hasn’t put you over the line yet, then you need to boost your results in the gym.
But I am improving. And I often have 50-75 or so profiles that I choose to hide on hinge each week because they really won’t be a good fit. Same thing on Bumble. I get 20 or so likes if I run a boost, and then I will often remove a bunch of those who won’t be a good fit, which will leave perhaps 5-10 who I would be happy to meet.
That is MAJOR progress and night and day from where I was.
Remember guys, I have always had nothing, nothing at all.
Through many many many hours of weekly effort, I can, sometimes, get something.
And that is great. I will keep getting better until I have maxed myself out.
MAC CURRENT STATUS: GOTTA KEEP WORKING
I am going to unwind this weekend and work on a passion project, which is developing a really stellar interview with The Bastard which I want to make as a piece of evergreen content for my channel to honour and respect the impact The Bastard’s story has had on my life and the lives of so many hardcases. His story was a sticky on the GLL forum, and I happened to know many hard cases across the world cherished it and I know of one documented case of a suicide that was prevented due to him sharing his story.
My work will continue, and I will get those all important SUCCESSES, which The Bastard highlights ARE critical to accumulate the data-points we need to re-shape our identity.
Part of this will also be about healing past trauma and wounding.
But part of it will be executing the processes and just getting success.
It is about building up positive memories and ‘forgetting’ the old. The anaology The Bastard uses here of the Facebook pixel is very pertinent.
I have a good plan for moving forward, a good structure, and now I have two weeks where in place of doing 3-4hrs approach, I will be reading books on healing and working with the coaching group’s recommendation.
But for today, I am just going to breathe. Because I need to.
I will hopefully chat with The Bastard tomorrow and just built some rapport, shoot the breeze, and also use that opportunity to flesh out some thoughts, allow him to flow, and try to build an overall narrative we can use to shape the interiew.
I want this interview to be fucking epic and I will shoot it 100 times if I need to.
IMPROVEMENTS IN ONLINE DATING; OBNOXIOUS FEMALE BEHAVIOUR
In my own experience, women who are closely entwined with feminism have been liable to conduct themselves in a really abusive, toxic, uncompassionate, unfeeling manner. These people have been made of something else, something cold and dark. Inside, whatever is human has long since left the building. What is left is stone.
I recall Crisis mentioning a date he had with a full on misandrist, an experience he said made him almost despondent.
In David Hawkins’ letting go, he highlights a case of a woman who were through a particularly traumatic divorce, and became involved in a radical feminist group. Among these group, she developed a true pathological rage and hatred for men. I am working through similar emotions. Dr Hawkins talks about how his patient was driven by this hate for YEARS, and how her life became actually quite pathetic, the more she engaged with her feminist group, the more her life became numbing, emotionless, and devoid of any love and connection.
Date #6 for me was with a pink haired feminist. The first thing she said to me was a rude remark about my physical appearance, and it pretty much degenerated from there. I learned a tonne through that experience, about what I am looking for in a girl, and how I would approach building a relationship. I was left feeling bad about myself, but gained deep lessons which were valuable.
One of the girls I am talking to on Hinge has a line in her profile about toxic masculinity. In talking with this lady, I was really stunned by how rude, obnoxious, and borderline abusive she was.
Constant jibes, attacks, rude, gross conduct. “Oh dear. Easily intimidated?”, “You don’t know women at all”, “I have a dark sense of humour and there are so many jokes I could make about you, but I don’t think you have a strong enough ego”.
In her voice messages, she made references to her making a lot of money, owning houses, and she did something curious. I sent her a few voice messages, and she would kind of respond in the inverse.
If your gut instinct tells you there is something not right about a person, often, it’s right.
I have no interest in this lady. She will meet an unfeeling weirdo like her and they will live a life lacking in empathy together. But it was curious to me to observe.
I unmatched her after a particularly gross message from her.
She then matches with me on Bumble today, and has been sending me a bunch of voice messages.
I banter back and fourth, and I cannot believe her level of arrogance, how lacking in empathy she is….then it occurred to me what’s happening.
I am talking to a lady with a narcissistic personality disorder. Blocked, again - numero duex!
In our space, we are just screening for women who will be receptive. We are trying to find women who we can explore with, and screen out those who’re time wasters.
Few of us as men talk about narcissism in the female, and what emotional abuse and unhealthy dynamics between men and women look like.
It reminded me of @Dewm’s experience with a toxic friends.
When we build ourselves up, we do not tolerate this shit. EVER.
No one, EVER, can abuse you. It is a cardinal sin, and as a human being, you have unalienable rights. There are rights given to you by nature and God and can never, ever be legitimately taken away.
Listening to this lady’s voice messages, I was just stunned. Who on earth would tolerate this shit? Who would even look at her twice? She was not attractive at all, and while she was of a normal weight, which is exceedingly rare for me, she was just horrible as a person.
Is the level of simping out there so rampant that women are delusional enough to think anyone worth his salt would tolerate a second of this? It’s like, no, you are sick and degenerate – blocked, goodbye!
I recall a podcast with Andy when he and Imogen went to meet a girl on a date, and she was nice to Immy, but super standoffish to Andy. Andy pushed things forward, and I believe he asked her what the problem was. Her response: “the problem is YOU”. She went on a date with this couple, and only wanted to be with Immy, and though Andy and Immy are together and love each other, this weirdo thought she could send Andy packing and sleep with his girlfriend.
“Alright, peace out”
Andy goes to leave, right away, and the chick sat their totally aghast, in disbelief….
The level of delusion some women live in is truly comical.
As a man, you cannot live in delusion land.
You live in objective reality.
And the market decides.
“The leads aren’t weak, YOU’RE WEAK”
-Alec Baldwin, Glengarry Glenn Ross
Yes, that scene….
People like The Bastard, Andy, Radical, and GLL were pretty clear that the game is about SMV. It is about maximising looks and your offer as a man. And letting the market decide.
The good news is, with self improvement, this is within our control.
With hard work persistence and the passage of lots of time….we get the outcomes we want.
It is a SLOW SLOW process for MAC.
I long for the day when I can start to date average level chicks man. That will be a huge bit of progress for me.
In March I will have been here for 1 year, and I have improved so fucking much. The head piece will come together and there WILL be a way I can date women whose appearance is more in alignment with what I feel some physical attraction for.
I am not going to stop working my butt off this year, and I WILL find a way to get 10 lays man. If Danish girl gives me some love next Sat, then dude, I am making big progress. From there, I will just keep pushing and may only have 9 more girls to be intimate with to achieve my success for the year.
Elite body will be hear by Dec 2022.
And I will beat my AA - throwing myself back in the game of approaching in 2 weeks and I will crack it and be able to approach women with a normal emotional experience.
Back to relaxing. I find it hard to relax. I am so frenetic and driven I can’t sit still. But I will try my best to just slow it down for a few hours…..It’s almost 6pm and even just relaxing for 3-4hrs now will be huge for me.
MAC