THE PHOENIX PROJECT WEEK 15
SAT 05/03/22
ACTIONS
ACTIONS
(1) DATING: 2 Dates from the online apps (17 & 18) (DONE)
(2) Body: Core / Stretch / Replenish kcal and nutrients post 40 hr fast (DONE)
(3) Others: Life admin - help Vin, light therapy. Get to bed before 11. (DONE)
Notes:
Really cool day, felt like a movie honestly.
This is called being on your mission and being at the bleeding edge of life.
No cold approach, which is bad, I failed to prioritise it and I helped my friend instead. Other than that, worked hard, no nonsense, no fluff. Just straight grinding from the moment I got up until now, 12 midnight writing this to you my bros.
Get up at 10am, 4hrs later than usual. I check my weight. 196.0. Body is looking LEAN. I will keep doing these fasts 2 x a week. They’re good for the body and also they shred that hard to target fat. End of April, surely I will have abs? SURELY?
My mentor Dr Marcus told me to include ab wheel roll outs to build up the overall abdominal cavity, I am doing these at the end of workouts now.
Ok, so I go to the shops, buy some bits, cook myself a full English to replenish nutrients and get in protein, fats and the building blocks of hormones. It’s important to have a higher kcal day post 40hr fasts LOL. It is important. Cook, eat, have my supplements, hydrate with lots of RO water.
Pushing like mad on my phone to nail down todays 2 dates. Get the text from date 16 saying sorry I don’t see this going anywhere, don’t waste your own time. I thank her and delete. I am legit triggered, EVERY TIME they send me this shit. The cold approach date didn’t tbf,yet…...but from the apps, every time man, either they ghost or send me this shit. It makes me despair. There feels like there is no possibility for anything long term with a woman, they will all, within any period of time, just ghost and move on. They discard you so easily, they don’t care, it is so so easy for them to replace a man they can get another one in less than 20 minutes. Only hope is to become so exceptional you’re the best they can dream of. That may happen for me but I will have to almost kill myself to get there. It will be war. This shit will take many years. I accept that.
So, change clothes, plan my day, and go do my friends errand. His AirBNB was in a cool part of London, on the Albert Embankment in Lambeth. Its a vibe. I get his parcels and bring them home to store them.
Jump straight in an ice bath for just 10 mins today. Change clothes. Right out the door. Run to date 17,
DATE 17
Meet her, I’m a bit late, and also almost get hit by a motorbike LMAO. It is entirely my fault, and the guy was about to get a bit leery, but remember I am triggered at this point so am working through a bit of anger, and I just point to the guys face and say “FUCK YOU”. He craps his pants and I run over to the other side of the road to meet the girl. Not proud of this because I was in the wrong but if he called me out on this I would have knocked him half dead. That text earlier just triggered me and at that moment the rage came up. But it kinda released at that point.
I skip over, she makes a joke about how I nearly got killed, and I just say “Well, that was only a motorbike, it was too small, it would take far, far more than that to kill me”. She laughs. She is so excited to meet me, she is just lovely. Looks-wise, she’s below average, but she is super, super nice and I just need this right now.
We skip over to a lovely spot just down the road from the station for dessert. French spot, really dig it.
So we talk and vibe, and we’re talking personal growth. MY TOPIC. Convo is going well, shes asking me questions, and I am answering with my honest thoughts.
She stops me several times and just tells me this is the best conversation she’s had for a long time and thanks me a lot. She also tells me I am inspiring her, she is just so adorable. Convo goes on, and she tells me that meeting me has really been the highlight of her week, and will be the highlight of this month, and can we please keep in touch?
It is so sweet, she melts my heart man. Really. I am almost feeling a little emotional. SHIT.
We keep talking, she opens up a lot. Tells me her struggles and stuff. Gets my advice. She is very appreciative.
She then says she is moving out, and when she’s in her new place, I should come over and have a beer with her.
In my mind I am thinking, she will ghost, I am sure of it – and then I laugh to myself, damn dude, if this chick legit just ghosts and tells me she isnt feeling a connection after telling me how much she wants to see me again, this is absolutely hilarious.
Wrap the date up. It’s an hour long, I’ve then gotta run to date #18.
We go to the station, I go on the northbound, she goes southbound. I kiss her good bye, we make out for a bit, we’re both quite into it.
DATE #18
Meet her. She was prettier on her pics, but having had an awesome convo on the phone, I must confess I am looking forward to meeting her IRL.
“Sorry, I’m a bit drink, you should know that – I’ve just come back from a comedy club for my friends birthday drinks”
I laugh. We head to a pub. She buys me a drink. We talk for 20 mins. I ask her for a quick kiss, she lets me kiss her very quickly. I just wanted to see if she would. She did.
Both these chicks had like no lips. Ugh, come on dude. First gal is middle eastern, second is bulgarian. This makes kissing basically non pleasurable.
OK, so after 20 mins, she has to get her train! I walk her to the station and we keep talking. She is really funny and has a great personality, really, she is such a vibe. We go on a mission to find her train, theres this funny ting where Kings Cross and Kings Cross St Pancrase are 2 diff stations and we don’t know which one is for her. I ask a member of staff and figure it out. We head over to Kings Cross St Pancrase, and talk, vibe, and she does make reference to “next time”.
We figure out the platform, well, I figure it out. It’s up a lift. The signage is poor!
In the lift, I just say, “great secluded opportunity for a kiss”, and she says “I know right”. We start making out, but more passionately this time, we’re holding each other tight. It feels good.
I then grab her by the hand and take her to the platform, she squeezes my hand. She makes a joke about having to get a hotel if we can’t find the platform, and I tell her “well there’s always my place”. She has quite a devious smile it’s funny.
The hand hold has always been a great barometer. If a girl doesn’t hold your hand, basically, it’s not happening. This happened to me on many dates. Danish girl was the first girl to actually hold my hand, and we smashed.
Get her to her platform, and we hug. She is rubbing me, we bring each other in close, it feels great man. Really, it does. We kiss again, it’s nice. Wish her well and send her a text when I get home, which she does respond to.
I think some girls aren’t too comfortable kissing in public. But some will. She only gave me a quick kiss in the pub, but in the lift, she was game.
So there you are. A whole lot of action.
Back at it tomorrow, hammering like a motherfucker.
Will also aim to eat a bit more tomorrow and keep the body satisfied. Monday will be my heavy day in the gym. I’ll eat at 6pm Monday, and then will fast until 8am Wednesday.
DATE #19 SCHEDULED FOR TOMORROW – 35 y/o from Bumble, again, lookswise not feeling her but if she’s a great gal like these two were then I would love to meet her. These two ladies today made me feel great. I am happy. Even if they ghost, they made me feel better. I am glad I met them.
Also, got a few dates scheduled next week – Date #20 with a pretty 26 y/o from Bumble, providing she doest ghost, and then Wednesday also have a date (#21) with a pretty 29 y./o/ Both of these girls next week have agreed to come to me, so I will take them for a drink at my local spot, which is legit 1 min from my flat, and then will invite them back. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
Thats all for today. Worked hard as hell.
Time to rest. Tomorrow will push hard and also cold approach.
MAC
