Fear and worry are time wasters and should not be part of the equation.
You want meaningful connections with girls you meet, fine. You need to meet them. And then open up, so that she too opens herself up.
This means drop the judgement and meet her, deeply.
It's a game and it has rules.
In order to meet more girls from dating apps you need to look good.
Then as you meet more and more girls, you'll feel better about them, and better about yourself.
This Will give you mental and emotional space to improve yourself more easily.
Then, as you Will feel better about yourself you Will have more space to focus onto the girls and open up to her.
Some Will reciprocate, some won't. It's like that.
What you want is to find the girls which Will reciprocate, opening up to you, and Who Will have similar plans ie.a deep connection with a romantic partner.
The odds of you finding out this one of these girls right now, according to your beliefs, is pretty Low.
Even if you did come to meet her, it may simply not fit because you are not congruent with yourself and do not act in respect to the rules, which imply that you do really open up and show your deepest emotions.
Also and this matters, the girl Who you May find right now May not be the most exquisite Who you could enjoy as a partner. Because People Who are together are compatible. They are compatible not according to what they say or what they show but according to Who they are deeply, and what they deeply, really believe in.
The truth always pour out. Which is why a a newbie can really beneficiate and get with a Chad because deep down, he's decided to invest himself into making progress.
Now another newbie which deep down, unawarely is not commited Will, for a limited period of time invest himself and get along with the Chad, until it becomes obvious that he's a time waster.
The girl Who would stick with you right now May feel as bad about themselves as you do about yourself.
It Will be all nice and fine but there is a high probability that at least one of you Will want to find another partner for a more rewarding relationship.
Is this what you really want ? Or do you want to be with a cool, and emotionally mature girl Who Will be with you because she loves you and chooses to be with, and not because she too lacks options ?
I'm giving you a reality check right now.
Because if you had options you would not feel so bad and such urge to get into a relationship.
Your urge comes from a place of deficit.
What do you expect from having a relationship and a connection with a girl ?
Is this someone Who loves you and accept you as you are, or something else ?
Whichever you want, you can get it.
You showed us and I know you can. Really.
Use your words and energy into supporting you achieving your goals instead of rationalizing ways to doubt it and slow you down.
It MADE YOU FEEL GOOD to meet these 2 girls.
The more you do that the better the quality of the girls you meet.
It is a fact.
It can go really fast, and it's all up to you.
