You bastards really are never going to let me give this mission up, are you? ;-)
Not that I doubted you for a second.
Brothers, you made me burst into tears.
I am beyond thankful I came to KYIL. The day I made my account, was the day I changed my life.
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BACK ON THE GOD DAMN HORSE
The past 3 days, were rough.
The contrast was a shocker for me. The lovely women of Krakow, who were so pleasant, so warm, and for whom, I had my best ever cold approach success I have never in my entire journey had 4 girls text me back from cold approach, let alone 4 girls text back in 4 short days of day game. This was EPIC and it felt like FINALLY my hard work was starting to pay off.
Coming back to London, it just shocked me. It just did. It caused me to question myself.
There have been setbacks in my personal life, also, which I didn’t mention, nor are they important to now. These things happen in life. We are strong men, we deal with it.
But honestly, what pushed me over the edge was the tripple whammy......
My new pics performing a total dud, when this was something I worked so hard on, for 7 months. I came back from London in Dec 2022, understading that I needed to work on my vibe, social skills, and physical product itself - my looks, physique, skin, hair, and so on.
And like a Self Improvement meastro - I fucking DID IT. Look how the photos came out. I was beyond proud and I worked hard for it man, got help from the best in the game, the GOAT himself, Rags2Bitches.
I wasn't expecting the floodgates to open like they do for some guys. I know the score ;-)
But I was so curious to see if I could FINALLY overcome the "match quality" problem.
This is important for me as a Self Improvement guy and brother of the KYIL tribe because my goal is to be married to a wonderful woman and to start my own family. It is a problem for me to not have been able to date the type of lady I would want as my partner and it is something that honestly does fuck with me. I am willing to do WHATEVER it takes in order to find a wonderful woman to produce children with.
I uploaded my new photos and got ready to test for a while.
.....But............nothing?!
This hit me.
Hard.
What I felt, wasn't shock, anger, or disdain.
It was just a sense of realisation, that maybe, just maybe, I truly am not destined to be able to improve myself enough to be able to make it.
Maybe the market has decided.
I processed it for a while, and sincerely man, I just accepted it.
I told myself, look Ravi, the has the market spoken and you've tried and tested this a lot now. You’ve done thousands of approaches. You’ve gone on a tonne of dates. You’ve done a bunch of shoots.
The market has spoken - time to me a mature adult and accept it.
They don’t want you .
I had to stop and truly think for a moment. And I decided to get advice on whether it was truly time to accept that for a man such as myself, it is over.
These photos are the best I can produce right now, if I cannot get anything with this, then is my journey even possible?
Is this even humanly fucking possible at this point?
Well, look man.
Maybe it is. Maybe it aint.
The truth is, half the shit I have done should have been impossible from the start.
Did things being excessively difficult to borderline impossible ever stop me?
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I am DAMN proud of myself for this turnaround. DAMN PROUD.
I am DAMN proud of myself for training myself to cold approach. It used to take me 4hrs to approach 1 girl, I used to have mental breakdowns here every week. I am now an "approach machine" and can perform whatever level of volume I want.
A lesser man would have quit 100 dates ago, 1000 approaches ago, several world tours ago, several photoshoots ago.
I did not quit.
Because I have my WHY. More on that below.
….if there was quit in me, you would not be reading this post, and you would not have stayed on my relentless journey with me for years, would you?
I had no idea about "shadow bans" on dating apps.
I am a Self Improvement purist. I am a Goal Achievement guy. I am not a masculinity & dating/relationships/getting laid/game guy. I am a student of all that.
I processed the outcomes of the new pics, and I was pretty much of the opnion that it seems to be the case that my options have run out. I thought, you know what, I can respect it. If I’ve done all this now, and they truly didn’t want me, I will ask for further advice and maybe, if this really isn't going to be solveable, it may be best for me to find a way to live in acceptance of this knowing that I tried.
I took a day to breathe and process
The flood of support from the forum moved me to tears. Twice.
My mentors getting on my case.
My boys encouraging me.
The calls with Paw and The Dom
Look man, you know what it is.
I truly appreciate it
I came here for reasons bigger than myself.
I have my why.
I came here to prove something.
I came to see if it is possible for a man from
dirt nothing, from the absolute rock bottom of society, to turn his life around and make something of himself through nothing other than the ability to truly, truly grind.
I wanted to see if it possible for people like me to make it too.
I wanted to see if I could turn a guy who the world called a fucking loser, into someone I respect and admire.
That was the mission.
That was the purpose.
That was what pushed me beyond all fucking known limits and to put in levels of work that I myself have never seen matched in my 12 years of being a part of the self improvement space.
This entire journey rekindled my life and gave me passion, drive, and allowed me to find a treasure that was buried inside myself.
It has allowed me to change myself.
Yes, it's tough.
Yes, there is quite some way to go, let me tell you, I am perhaps 10% of where I want to be, and that is after 2 years of grinding myself into a fucking FINE POWDER.
..............HOWEVER
I still have the ability to draw another breath of air
I am not dead yet.
This journey was never going to be anything short of a bloodbath
When I entered the arena, I knew I was going to taste my own blood
I do not yet believe the universe is so insane to not eventually reward a truly deserving person
I want to start a family and to end the cycle of loneliness and isolation
I want to prove that a man can, through extreme grinding, change his destiny.
I want to take what was the most hopeless fucking case of a person I have ever encountered, me
And I want to raise this motherfucker to true, undeniable greatness
Because if I am able to pull this journey off, some way, some how, and no, I do not know how the FUCK I am going to do it
Then people will know, that despite the the fucking HELL which I came
A better life, and a better future is possible, if you are willing to put your trust and faith in ONE THING........
The Great Equaliser
SELF IMPROVEMENT
In order to complete this journey that should have been impossible, I chose the one thing that is the passion and purpose of my life
The most powerful weapon in the world
SELF IMPROVEMENT
This is sacred to me
This is what I believe in and have risked my entire future upon
This is the hill I have chosen
And I will die on it
I am NOT going to stop
I am NOT going to give in
There is still a lot of fight left in me, though the past 7 months have truly tested my faith and challenged me to the core of my being
I promise to the KYIL community that I will not stop exerting every ounce of energy that is in my brain and body into becoming a better person
Until I succeed
Until my first child is born, I am going to double, triple, quadruple down on self improvement, taking action, getting coaching and mentoring, improving across every metric possible
When there is a post from me, with my first son or daughter in my arms, I will finally stop the mission and then become the world's best Dad.
But until you see that post, you will keep seeing me show the fuck up and put in the level of work that makes me MAC
They will have to bury me here on the KYIL forums
Because I will die for this
That’s all I've got for you
-MAC